The whole week of trying to landscape

This week was spent on Charles house here in Jaco.

We are doing a landscape around a new pool area. It has a baby pool attached to a larger pool with a waterfall going into it.
The water fall was not created by me but by some Ticos who live here in the area. Its not pretty ok? but I know we will soften it with big plants and large jungle leaves called monstera.

The week was hot, and tough to get much done.
Finding the things I needed was hard, because Cristhian was not co-operating with the plan.His job is to find what we need, find guys to construct, guys to garden, hall dirt. Find trucks to haul the dirt. Help find the plants. Order sand or electrical.

Ended up mostly arguing with him, because he was for some reason this week very stubborn and rude?? I tried like hell to be so sweet, but I did loose patients with him a couple of times.
I was the one who got the trucks, the dirt the sand the guys for the garden the electrician and contracted all the materials.
I have no idea why he is being to put it frank A BUTT HOLE,But he was. Then to top it off the lady of the house is super picky, she wanted dirt moved didn't like the postions of it in the design?? we moved it..She actually made the guys building the water fall re do it more then ten times.We have changed the plan more than the days of the week.Everyday I would draw a new one and every day it would be fine. When we arrive in the early morning to begin the work the plan was bad.
So again I make a new one.. Learning paitients here??? YEAH I GUESS?? i don't mind changing things as long as they are willing to pay for the time, but so far not the case. I am going to have to have a meeting with hubby and explain, that I will change things till the sun doesn't shine but he has to know that she is asking for all the changes and changes are going to cost.
He asked us to lay these cement fake stones in a walk in front of the pool not just a walk but something like a full patio. That was not part of our plan but I said sure I will assit, assit not! it was actually putting it in. He didn't have the guys to do it so we lost a whole week on this because we had to change it more than eight or nine times till she was happy. My guys are saying now they don't want to work this next week because of the changes! SO OH boy fun! gonna have to talk to him.

Finally Cristhian on Friday was normal and actually Because the night before Gravin his friend who is now staying at my house, because the landlord at Cristhians wont allow anyone to stay. Came to the house to stay they wanted pizza, but niether one had money of course! I ordered it we drank some wine and well Cristhian softened up some how. He was actually nice.
Gravin is working for me for the next two weeks and he is a good friend of Cris, from Masatal.
He is a good worker, very respectful.

Having a Machismo man working for you is hard. Also the position I am in is hard. I need a front man who speaks spanish to manage things but after this week I saw I really don't need that. I think I can manage and if he keeps this up hes about cut!!!

Other than this, I helped Nelsen some more in his new clothing boutique, its about ready to open.
I went out last night and danced a little but was not at my best the week was really draining. Plus my hand is in allot of pain. Today I went to the beach for a while, then Nelsen called for help and I went immediately to his store to help. I need the money.

I may have the computer sold and that will help pay the rent this month.
Yes things are hard right now, the worst really.. but I keep trying and I know I will pull out of this some how. I even thought today I would sell the tortuga, My car.. and just move back to the states.
Being depressed in a sunny place is horrible! Why and how could I be its so beautiful here and so warm the men are gorgeous and the women are stunning??? how?? Then Rosie called I told her I was sad, lonely and depressed even though I laid on the beach for a few hours. Being alone is a hard thing more and more for me... I hate being alone. I need companionship. She said Come here precious... visit me. So Changed the clothes got pretty and came here where I am typing now. She had her cook make me the most Delicious Sea food plate. Fresh fish, octopus, squid, clams, shrimps in garlic and butter and white rice! WOW IT WAS WONDERFULL!!! We drank a glass of Costa Rican champagne, its sweet like a balatore, or a spumante.

After that I thought OH NO THERE IS NO WAY I AM MOVING BACK.. I can't get fresh food like that where I use to live. It came in just today and I swear its cheap too. The wine was 4 dollars for the bottle the dish was 7 bucks.
The night is fresh not so hot and cool, summery, the people walking on the streets friendly... and many men walk by and say Hello and and you are beautiful in spanish its Hola linda or Hola bonita... now this does not happen in Vancouver Washington. The affirmation was there... I need to stay here and get things in order.
Get on my feet and make a life for me here. I can say I am much happier here than there but when times are tough every one needs someone. Someone to talk to, someone to share with and someone to give you love.

My friends that I do have here, really are kind and do love me. Not that the ones in the states didn't its just different here. They show there feelings.

I know what I am doing tomorrow, for sure belly dance but before maybe help Nelson, finish the upolstery on a chair he wanted me to change. Then make some spaggetti sauce for The boys Cristhian and Gravin they asked for it, THen I have no clue?

But Laying on that beach today I did say a prayer and thanked god for this beautiful place and how gratefull I was although I am not doing financially well that I can enjoy the sun, the beauty of the beach and the freedom to enjoy the nature of this place if this makes sense. Yes I was depressed, Money always does this to me.. The lack of a partner too, But I do see the good in the place I am living and feel its one of the best things I have done in life.

Weeken soccer championship

This weekend was Cristhians Soccer tournament. They won and now they are the champions. It was amazing how he played in fact he made most of the goals. I was impressed with the energy and the force of his game. After knowing that he partied all night the night before and on Friday, pretty amazing. I guess adrenaline kicks in and takes over in the game.

We left on Sat late around 2:30 because some one slept till two that afternoon. We got a late start and for me a little scary because its rainy season here and roads to this area is basically mud and rock. they have lots of curves, bends and uphill grades. Slightly dangerous to those who don't know how to baja! on red mud.. It is really slippery. We manage to make to the cousins restaurant/ bar before dark. Only after stopping many times along the way talking to all the people of the guadamal and mazatal area. Mountain jungle, few houses but lots ot people. walking and riding motos. We talked to many and stopped to drink a beer.
After visiting with Friends as the cousins place we regressed to Marcos siempre verde Cabinas, and his parents house.
We ate tamales, very different than the ones I am use to in the USA, not like Mexican tamales at all. They are thick, white masa, with a small piece of pork, one carrot and onion and some rice.
Pretty bland to my tastes. But nice of them to offer us there food.
They are very self sufficient, they have there own pigs, and make methane from the waste of the pigs and use this to cook with. They have a garden with coffee, and carrots, cilantro, mustard and greens. Sometimes potato's and more. The coffee is the best to me.. they serve it with lots of sugar.
There was one volunteer there a girl from California, always there are young girls wanting to experience the conversation efforts. I never have heard of any guys there only girls and I have seen some of them.. Kinda hippie like. But Hey I like it and think its a good experience.
The house is primitive, in two parts. The bedrooms are in a separate house with wood walls that have light coming through them the floor was wood and concrete. The showers are cold no hot water with a very crude shower walls made of broken tiles and a skinny pipe of plastic with a nob of plastic that goes only one way. WOW ITS hard to take a cold shower for me but I have done it many times since I lived here.
Everyone there has only cold water no hot showers. The kitchen is crude too, has only a two burners and its all open. The window doesn't exsit the outside of the kitchen is an area to wash the dishes and its all in the red mud with a table out there for drinking coffee or eating if you wish.
They sew there own clothes and produce there own water with a small well.
The cabinas are cool there built by Marcos and is a good eco experience.

Sat was a huge dance in a giant building perfect for dancing on the mountain top. I was surprised at the modern up to date American Music, and the light system. The place was packed, not many cars everyone walks. It rained very hard and when we had changed our clothes and drove to the building for the dance the whole front of the place was thick with red mud. I got out of the car I stepped with my thongs right in a big pile of it, now my toes were covered with red mud so was the bottom of my pants! On to the fiesta! many people dancing and I did too. But there was a small bad moment with Cristhian, he is just a mule sometimes.. and I knew he was drunk said some bad things to me and I was hurt. I left and tried to drive to Marcos which was not far.. not a good idea! the car slid and got stuck. I left it there and ran back which was about three American Blocks. It was raining hard, so I was soaked.Marcos was looking for me so he comforted me and told me not to worry he would take the car out in the morning we tried to walk to his house but I slipped and fell in the mud, covering me now in total red mud! wow ok

So a truck full of people came , we got into the truck they took us to the house.Cristhian was occupied with women so he had no idea really what happened.
I rested in the house of Marcos and Cristhian in the Cabinas, We got the car out early not a problem then. I was shook up because when I exited the car there was a huge hole it was a creek, with a metal tube very deep. I fell into it and had to climb out in the pitch dark not being able to see a thing. But thankfully nothing was wrong except my toenail.

The next day we went to the game. Marcos me and Cristhian. He was all pumped up how I have no idea but Pretty sure it was the idea of being the champion and that they were. A very good game live, many people and fun to see them excited .
After the game a whole huge bus full of people screaming and happy and tooting horns and drinking and yelling.
We all went to the cousins place and had a pig that they cooked with the best rice ever!! it was so fun we all danced and laughed and ate it was a great time... It lasted till about three in the morning.
Then Cristhian and I came back, to Jaco on Monday morning.

Today we worked on the project, it was rough I think he is worn out from the weekend and he showed me allot of disrespect. Right now I am not happy with the situation, we will see what happens in the next few days.. I need to concentrate and get the job done and done well. MONEY IS IMPORTANT VERY IMPORTANT since things have been so rough...

Began the new job but guess what happened?

This is Cristhian in case those of you were wondering what he looks like

JESUS LORD CAN I EVER GET A BREAK???

Ok Last night I went to Rosie's of course... I have not wanted to sit alone at home and I go and get on the net and write while people come eat and drink cappuccinos, or whatever libation they desire right? It rained so hard no one came. Rosie returned from Her salsa dance class on fire! she was angry at everyone working there. No business exactly like me, only she has more over head and more employees to deal with. Its not there fault but I tell you she went on on for at least a couple of hours in Spanish ranting and raving about issues. I stayed out of the way typed and drank water.

Then I made some popcorn, and everyone began to eat my popcorn.That was fine it kinda broke the ice I yelled hey this is my party not yours a and I laughed they laughed too!

After that the ranting stopped! thank god I was getting a little worried for the girls.. I said GRACIAS DIOS YO NO TRAVJO AQUI! they all laughed and said how bad I was being Rosie's friend and all...

Well everything was fine after that. The rain stopped a few people came and ate and well I went home.

It was round 12:00 she closes on normal night's at midnight.Weekends 1:00.

I drove home everything was fine, took the face of the radio out turned off the lights locked the doors and went in.

I slept ok not great, got up had a coffee put on all camouflage ready for the garden work out...I just direct, Cristhian talks and over sees.

Well went to start the car NO IT WON'T START!! shit I was so mad I can even express how I felt... first day after many days of no work, landed a nice job now I am late!!! CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Ok So Cristhian man that he is says its your fault... of course we argue for no reason!! and finally the neighbor helps pull the car and gets it started!!!

Of course I call the client and explain, then we go to pick up the workers who are waiting at a bus stop on the main road.. well were late and they left!

HE is mad at me now were both pist and hot... sweating like pigs. Let me tell you if those of you know how it is to hot and angry its miserable and well your whole mood body mind is upset.

So I yell the loud Italian I am... telling him go to quebrada seca, that is an area where some of the guys that worked for us before live. HE ARGUES again God ok I am exasperated now... I said goooooooo

He goes and sure enough there were the guys!

We both were happy but didn't look it nor said a thing to each other. they guys got in and we took off the job site.

Then I walk in and immediately the client lays a bomb on me.

Says he doesn't sign contracts and doesn't want to give us 50 percent up front.

Ok those of you that have hearing my sob stories here, this damn saga of trying to succeed in Costa Rica! well add this to the list of things that happen here. Contracts are not valid here anyway. It is a formality.. even if they sign it you can not hold them to it.

Sooooooo I say ok what are you going to give me and he tells me we agree. ( I AM ABOUT DONE and Desperate at this point) so I tell him look you are going to be so happy with what I do! Not to worry I for real!

I said I would give him a list of everything and my profits that I want to make. He agreed then.

So the guys are working, then Cristhian wanted to go and get a coke after a big truck came with the rock for the paths... the damn car would not start again. People here hardly have jumper cables I looked at the battery and the water was low, Sooooooo I hope this is the problem.

Now Villa Calettas called me, look up this first class hotel on the net! it is the most fabulous place ever. They called and want to come here and talk to me about my work for events! I hope they use me but the problem is I am in a short skirt with a halter top on that is all camo!! gezzz what else?

Cristhian took the car back to the site to sit with the guys. you have to stand over people here to get the job done right so that is his position he sits and watches drinks cokes and talks.

I can not change is my point I am here till they come..I hope they don't think I am slutty with this on lol!

Oh well if they do I explain.

So anyway god what a day already!

Right now I have about five chapters of the book done. But I keep remembering more junk, so I have to go back and edit it constant.Getting old is hell isn't it??

Can not remember things, then I start writing and all sort's of things come to me.

But I am working on now daily.

I have to contact Glenn Wright in Vancouver Washington, he was my editor at the Columbian newspaper, that I use to write Inspirations for the home and garden. I need him to send me more photos of previous events and all the photo shoots I did for them and have him possibly edit my babble!!!!! Glenn if your reading this contact me or get on my message board on Hot mail myrnana84@hotmail.com ok?

I am also thinking about doing an x rated or pg rated blog that is paid for.

If anyone is interested please send me a message because I need a source of income and I have plenty I can write about.

Also I want to thank a few people who send me comments on this blog.I really thank you for enduring with me, reading and encouraging me! I never dreamed that I would get so many nice comments.( yeah there is bad ones but I ignore those)

Now, I should have photos of this weekend.

I am going with Cristhian to matsatal he has a big soccer tournament its the final.

If they win there are killing a pig and roasting it.I am sure it will be delicious.sorry vegans ignore that part.

But were spending the weekend up there. Don't get the wrong Idea were freinds and co workers now,( although I wish it was diffrerent!) I will take lots of photos to show on the net .This part of Costa Rica very few Tourist see and it in the future will be somewhere you want to go as an eco tourist.

This is were those Cabinas I talked about some months ago are...( there is some x rated information about that place too) but I like to keep it clean on here.. that is why I am thinking I have many good stories so I felt if I open one connected to this where you want to read more.. then you pay a small amount and you get the real dirt!

Let me know.

Hope the rest of the day is better, Thank the lord anyhow I am working , feeling a little better too! THANK YOU JESUS!!

Well, I landed a nice little landscape job this morning at 7:30 am. It is for a developer, around his pool.Were going to build a shower and toilet outside, a play area for the children with sand box and grass. It will have a waterfall into the pool, with plantings all around the waterfall.
Lots of tropical large plants almost fully grown and lighting so at night it looks super cool.
It will be a challenge but I know I can do it.
We both are very happy that this happened today.
Also I may have a buyer for one of my computers..
Everyday is new, something changes daily.

Last night Spent four hours writing, the history of my career I want to try to finish this book in a month. It will be interesting I hope, lots of details about inside secrets and stories that no one knows about.

I went of course to my buddies Rosie's I don't have Internet at my house only the office, and the office is far to drive.
So off to the coffee shop I go sit for hours and talk to Americans, Europeans, and more... plus write and drink great coffee.Rosie was busy working, it rained really hard,amazing how it is here. Rain and no one around the moment it stops the place is full, and late at night too???
People just stay up late and get up early here..
I went home ate some cheese and crackers, BAD before bed oh boy! not good but I was so hungry I only ate a little during the day not much money.
So today when I woke up I felt so guilty for that.BAD GIRL BAD.... made some coffee in the morning put on the makeup and got ready said my prayers and left for the job at 7:30.YES I LANDED IT!!!
Hard here but some how a way opened up... now I just want the flood gates to open. I just feel like I need a break in life.
Those that only read, have no clue who or what I am do not know my history in work.
My life has been filled with hard intense laborious work. Now its not as much labor but still hard. Just a few good projects could set me up for a few years.Making my life a little bit easier.
Although I live simple, it would be nice to have a few more conveniences.
I am a happy girl t0day because of new work!

Thank GOD for the opportunity of new work.

Weekend

The weekend came and still no new jobs, Cristhian is depressed I can not blame him.I feel like I have let him and myself down. I have emailed and called but no one is responding. It is just slow here very very bad. I spent Friday just trying to get the car in shape, and working some for Nelson at this new place. At least after this We both felt better about things. He treated us to food, and drinks it made the day less of a worry. Later that evening I fell off to sleep, I had a date with Gerson one of Nelsons friends as a dance partner. Not a date date but a dance date only... He is gay! so that should explain why. He is Colombian and is a terrific dancer and loves the way I dance as well.

But I feel off to sleep, I woke up around 9:45 and ran to the shower and got all ready. By the time I got all already it was about 10:45 almost 11:00. here that is still early believe it or not. I went to Rosie's she was busy then i walked to the Jungle to meet Gerson, but they were doing Karaoke, so I walked back down to another placed watched a video for 30 minutes and then walked back. The place was packed now and no more singing... But Gerson was not there. I ended up just dancing no drinking only dancing, made my spirit feel so much better. It is my only outlet right now, and it sure is a great form of exercise. I had many takers one individual whom I danced with a couple of months ago was very jealous of any one else wanting to dance with me, but i carried on and ignored the fact that he was becoming very possessive of me. I saw victor a friend of mine and a few other people. I saw Cristhian as well but he was reclusive in the corner and was not dancing or talking. Only drinking his beer. He did talk to me a little but generally he acts like he doesn't know me for fear another woman might think were together! WHATEVER!!!
I left with Jessica my Colombian gal friend and Juan Carlos my Tico friend and walked to Nachos, but I was tired and went right home, it was last like 2:30.
I saw Cristhian sitting outside. HE heard me say we were going there I think he is having issues with his mind at the moment.
He just sat and looked When I walked by I said good by, he watched me go in the taxi and never even waved.
Then Sat we both went and took a few things out of the office, it may be i closing it. I can not afford it any longer. He was argumentative, and did not want to do a thing... maybe hung over???
I dropped him off early, like around noon, then dropped off the car to the wash. I wanted him to pick it up and park it and put a for sale sign on it so i can get rid of it buy something else more useful.
But he said you do it.. of course most of our conversations are in Spanish.
I left the car, took a taxi to the house then got a text message saying he would take care of it?? ok I just got my things and walked to town ands talk to someone about selling one of my computers. I need help right now and selling a resource is maybe an answer temporarily. I have a couple of computers so that should be a little help.
I walked later to Eidas and visited with her, she encouraged me to write a book, another friend of mine said the same thing.
I already started it little did she know???
But we talked and tried to come up with fast money making ideas.
Later Cristhian called with the car came to Edias and asked me to fix dinner again... lately likes my food, plus I know its free for him.. I am such a soft heart.
I fixed dinner he came ate, but was grouchy, and a little rude.
He left shortly after, I slept and woke up this morning at five. Why I have no clue but forced myself to stay in bed till 7:00, made coffee. Then ate some komplete, watched American news, then started writting.

Now i am at Rosie's internetting and going to go the beach for a couple of hours, then belly dancing.
Rosie is never here on Sunday's its just the girls that know me and now lots of Americans eating and talking. Its hot but over cast, great day for the beach!

trying to keep my chin up

As bad as it is I am trying my best to hope for Jobs and that things will be better! Its hard I tell ya but I set myself today as knowing its a new day and anything can happen.
So far nothing yet. I called on the project in mataplatano, cool condos not too badly priced but they were busy said to call around 2:30 so I will try back. I called my other promise a model in Bejuco but everyone is busy.

Last night I walked from Rosie's after helping her type up a new menu. Cristhian called and wanted me to make dinner, of course... eat free and well with me at least company.
I made some fish that I bought in Esterillos last week. I froze it it was good I put olive oil, spumante that I had on the shelve, some season salt and rosemary. Baked it in the oven, made fried sweet potato with onion for him. They are purple outside and yellow inside really tasty. A green salad, and corn on the cob.
He came we laughed and talked ate and then he left.
I know its simply for the dinner nothing more... but it was nice to have something to do and to have company. The house is always so quiet and lonely.
Today I walked to the soda had a tiny bit of breakfast, saw a friend of mine. chatted and then C and I walked to the bus stop to catch the bus to the office.
I saw The Crazy Colombian guy that use to chase me like the pepe le pew... he offered me a ride for 1000 five hundred colones. That is about 3 bucks.
I told him no, I needed to be careful and its better to take the bus.
Right now I have too, no money for nothing... the car is finished they called but they want another hundred dollars to get it out.
I have to check the bank today to see if I have it! This is really pathetic in my opinion... but well I guess it could be worse??
I managed to pay my rent at the house all the cable, Internet, and the four phones two at the office one cell, and one house. At least That got paid! THANK GOD!!!

I am sure some people could not relate to this, going from one day having a nice little sum of money to the next when your walking and riding buses to not knowing where your next job is coming from.
It is tough, I have done it long time.. Right now I am tried, being sick adds to it. I just want a break a nice big project to land and ride it out for a while!
It can happen and pray soon!

How good it feels to sleep when it is raining

I took the bus home yesterday and went to the little soda where I ate alone and very little. I knew I had to eat but just had no desire to eat.From there I walked home and changed my clothes. Laid on the sofa and the rain began. I heard the phone but I ignored it. Soon I was sleeping sound but could hear the thunder in the background. It is very loud here, the rain comes and cools down things a little but it is still warm out. I actually had the air conditioning on so I could rest comfortably.
Maybe two to three hours past when I heard the phone, It was Cristhian calling from his mothers in the mountain. He said he rained too hard and he prefer to come back today on the bus when it wasn't so bad. He said it took three hours and a half to San Jose. Normally it is two hours. So what could I say no come back now.. I kinda knew he was going to his Moms, because the day before he said the roads were bad this weekend when he went to visit and he didn't see his mother. So that was fine, he actually talk to me for while and was concerned about what I was doing and how I was feeling.
That really made me feel wanted and good. His mother invited me to her house to stay for a couple of days so maybe in a few weeks I will venture up there when the car is repaired.
She insisted that I stay with her. She really likes me allot I can tell. Cristhian sure was concerned? he ask everything I did which I thought was strange but happy that maybe he cared.

When I hung up Kevin called me Clint's friend... he was sad and we talked for like a half an hour.
I remembered then that Victor a friend of mine was celebrating his birthday and had invited me to the party.So now it was like 10:00 I changed my clothes and caught a pirate cab that is very cheap for five hundred colones which is less than a dollar. Went to Rosie's and waited for her to go to Victors. We all went lots of people were there dancing and happy with horns and party decorations. Of course everyone drinking.. but not me. I just don't feel good but I danced twice and and talked to everyone. It was a very nice party.
Came home super hungry, but I only had some Ritz in the house so I ate like four and went to bed. I woke so late today.
No desire to get up.. But I forced myself to shower and go.

I heard about the interest rates cuts on the news and how the stocks were up so maybe that will have an effect on my business here now! I sure hope something changes.
There are so many people doing design work here now that Its really hard. But I know my landscapes are beautiful, I hope this is the key to support me for a while.
Cristhian is still not back with the parts yet its now 12:20.

I walked to town, ate an egg some rice and two slices of tomato then walked to the bus stop. Rode the bus to Herradura and walked to the office about a block of so. When I came in Manolo my artist Friend who lives here from Spain came in to visit me he tried to cheer me up and said not to worry it will be OK your super good Marianna he bragged to his brother about me.The thing is when people do that, and I know i have accomplished much really in my life, an yet I struggle with hardships... I feel so dumb and so not worthy when people brag about what I can do. In other words I feel foolish to be in the position I am in if I am so dang good? and there telling someone I am so good ya know?
I can't explain it but it seems redundant.
Anyhow I am here for a few hours, Rodrigo asked me to place mirrors in the clothing boutique for him today and help with the placement of the plants.
I have no plans for the evening, simply straighten up my place and cleaning a little. Nothing more.

Rainy day Tuesday

Well yesterday was a bit of a struggle but I made it!

We got the car and took it another location but barely made it there. The man could not do a thing till this morning. So after Cristhian left from walking me to the house I laid on the sofa to contemplate and rest for a moment. Then I got up changed my shoes and walked back down town. I just couldn't stand the thought of sitting there alone thinking about my issues!
Of course

I went right to Rosie's, its about two miles from my house. You walk out of my place about two blocks, the down the road of pops, that is what they call its about ten blocks to the central. Then Down the central over the bridge and past the little mall and there sits Rosies.

It started to rain so I got a little wet but not too bad, but right away I felt sick. Maybe because I already have a bit of infection. I started to feel sick in my throat and coughing was the first sign.
She was busy so I sat watched TV and hung out till we could talk.
I checked my mail, then just visited with the few people that were there which was about three the ones that work there. It rained so hard no people were out.
Late about 11:00 I walked back home fast before it rained again.

Did not sleep good last night, I was hot, and worried and just did not rest well.
I must have gotten up three or four times.

This morning when arising it was dreary, I made coffee and showered, only after watching a little Reggis and Kelly.
We get like four English speaking stations here so I always watch that if I can in the morning.
I didn't eat there was nothing in the house at all to eat.
I called Cristhian to wake him up and ask what time he would be taking the car to the new guy? he told me to meet him at the Soda.
So I got ready and walked to the soda, after my landlord handed me the rent bill and the power bill! oh Joy!
I had one egg , one toast and two slices of tomato, He ate a ton as usual and he is so dang skinny.. how to they do that?
We talked only for a second, Cristhian is very quite these days, I am sure he is worried too. The other issues I am sure are bothering him as well.
We took the car to the mechanic, hes very fussy, he was mad that I didn't bring it him in the first place. He took the pump off and said he would do nothing till I paid to order the new one.
I felt sick to my stomach at this point knowing that its allot of money and everything is due. I am sure some of you out there know how this feels. I am strong but right now I feel so beat down.
I stood in the background thinking, head down wearing white Capri's and a white eyelet top. Standing in the gray the rain started to begin. I felt it on my arms and my face. We then walked with the part to the main roadway.

Cristhian had and idea, that he would get on the bus take the part directly to San Jose and make sure he gets the right one so no more time is lost. He asked for money for the bus and lunch. We took a taxi to the central about 15 blocks to the cash machine and it was not working. So another taxi to the end of the town where the bank is and the bus station.

I gave him the cash and be boarded the bus. I walked away feeling a bit defeated, then walked across the street to a project that I had given a proposal on to see what their answer was. I knocked they let me in and I sat and waited for the manager.

We talked a moment then I asked well what is going on... his reply was NO Marianna No we chose someone else.
Ok I smiled and walked out, With the smile on but as I walked I felt kicked in the stomach.
I was hoping it was yes and answer to some of the things that need to get resolved. AS I WAKLED DOWN THE ROAD I heard the bus behind me... I kept walking not looking at the bus at all I knew that Cristhian was in this bus, I think he saw me walking with my head down.
I kept walking till I came to Century 21 about seven
blocks from there.

I walked in to the Century because they owed me some money I was hoping I could collect.
I talked to Thomas the owner, then I got a message from Cristhian saying in Spanish "tranquillo yo estoy tambien para ayuda" Meaning Calm peace I am here also for your help.

How nice is that? I felt better then Tom told me he deposited the money in my account its not much but it will help pay a portion of my rent. I felt a bit better. When I left the architect for Toms remodel was outside we talked and Tom told him I was joining the company as a personal designer for the company.

Its all good now lets see the cash! I am A funny woman... some can not live with out Men and have a complete breakdown with or with out them. Yes I want one in my life one to share things with and do things with to love would really nice! But I live fine and manage to do ok with out. Although I have horribly lonely moments and want to just curl up and die. I manage! but when I have no money or no work.. I am a wreck! I have to be working, and good cash flow or I feel as though the total end of the world is coming.
Frankly it is.

I went to Rosie's little Store she has two coffee shop's and one little pulperia, I purchased a cigarette and smoked half way... and threw in the road.Standing on the roadway in all white waiting for the next bus to Herradura.
No money for a taxi, pathetic I think! but hell At least I am still trying.

I boarded the bus feeling a little out of place people staring at me, I kinda stand out ok? I sat and just prayed all the way that god would open the doors of opportunity for me and for Cristhian too. We do nice work I believe in my work and my ideas.

Our Client from Esterillos wrote such a nice letter last night telling me how beautiful everything was. I kept those thoughts in my head as I rode to Herradura to my office. My office now is so quiet, not a soul passing by, not a phone call, not a walk in nothing.

I proceeded to check and return mail and now blog Later I have an article due for the Jaco Guide.
I have the the Local Latin MTV on trying to lift my spirits with the music and a good cup of Costa Rica Coffee. Yum the coffee is great, Thank god for my life! no matter how difficult I am great full that I have my health my youth in my age, and I am able to go on.

Many things since the third of Sept

I have done a few things since the 3rd of Sept, so I will explain what has been going on with me as much as can today.

It has been slow, I was working in Esterillos which is south of Jaco about 10 minutes, its a huge beach with a tiny little town, one store three restaurants, a couple of bars one puplpuria, a soda and a hardware store. Going there everyday was expensive and long. But now I am done and well no other jobs lined up at all.
My car broke down the power steering pump went out and the relay switch on the air conditioning all at once. First before this was the electrical on the air condition I had that repaired, I drove the car two blocks parked it and the next morning could not drive it.
A friend of mine from the states offered to fix it but honestly I don't think he knew what he was doing its been sitting at his place now for ten days.

Some how today I have to get it to a mechanic but how I am paying for it is another story... the part is over $ 300 the other part is about $100, I have very little in the bank at the moment so I have no idea how its going to get fixed. I been walking, around town and that's good for my health, but to get to jobs not good... taking taxis is OK but it is getting so expensive. I need my Son Brandon here right now to fix this crap car. I been so worried about how I am doing everything.
I have some projects in the future MAYBE??? but nothing going on and not a dime coming in at all. Lots of expenses, lots of worries.
The worries has taken a little tole on my body too. I came down with a slight kidney infection, so yesterday I consulted with the pharmacy here and they gave me some strong medicine.

So on top of no work, very little money, no car, now an infection. I suffered with it for about five days till I couldn't take it any more. I did a little project for a lady on Friday and made 10 thousand colones, which amounts to about $20 bucks so I went to the pharmacy.

I been consulting for a Colombian friend of mine on his new clothing store but I only made 50 thousand colones for three weeks, that was food money.

So now on to what I have been doing. We landscaped the house in Esterillos it came to $1800 dollars, but most of that was materials, plants, rocks and labor. Not a lot of profit.

I had gone to Puriscal a week ago with Cristhian to a friend of his. The whole weekend was strange, I can not tell you what happened but something concerning his family and it was very uncomfortable being there.
They are very poor, the house has light coming through the wood walls. the roof is peaked but opened at the ends so animals can come in and they live high in the mountains/ jungle. they do not have hot water, and the toilet doesn't work they have to pour water into it to flush it. The water then runs down the mountain side. The kitchen is dirt floors, with a roughly built pit for fire and block around and on top for the cooking area. It is all open too. Chickens running all around and in the house, the beds are very old and run down. There are some windows I think I saw three.
I felt so lucky to have what I do have after being there. I was ashamed that I complain about what I do not have.
I felt so sad in the morning when I woke up, after sleeping on the floor of the living room. His sister offered me some coffee made by hand and some cooked coco palm seeds that you eat like a tiny apple this was all they had.

Cristhian had so graciously taken and old pad and put it on the floor for me with a pillow from a sofa that was old and worn. This was late at night after he found out some information about his family, he and I sat in the rain in the car, the car was surrounded with mud , talking till the wee hours about this situation. It was very heart breaking for him I felt so much compassion for him.

Even though he and are not together, and I know it is impossible for us as he is so much younger than I, the fact that now he is working for me, (and actually doing much better.) I still have feelings, I realized I had more than I thought when this happened? I don't know If he is a repair for not having my sons? or if I love this kid? or if I just have so much compassion for him knowing all the things I know now? or all combined, but I can not deny that I have feelings and I have gone out on a limb to help him.

Some could say it is so wrong, but in my heart, I feel fine about helping him, no guilt nothing in fact I feel so good when I do something for him or his family.
I came home on Sunday that weekend, his family and I all went to the soccer field and watched his team play, he slept to late to make the game so he just watched. We stood on the sidelines there on the mountain side with a view in the distant that was so beautiful. I thought how simple the lives of these people yet on Sunday everyone is together playing soccer and enjoying the company of the families that all come.

When I left in a friends car,I was worried I could hear the brakes making horrible noises and at one point did not have much brakes going down the grades of rock and dirt roads across the high mountains. I was scared, I prayed that god keep me safe and put angels on this car and I manage to drive the curves just fine, I went very slow. It took two hours to get to Jaco,

I hit a skunk the night before so you could smell that horrible smell all the way home. I took the car right to the car wash in Jaco and waited for two hours while they cleaned it. Then I dropped it off and walked home about a mile. I went right to the shower it was hot out so I was really sweaty then laid down and slept. I was exhausted and sad, and worried about him and my life.

The past couple of weeks only working on Esterillos, and dealing with how to get by with out the car. My friend who was going invest in my place here backed out with no reason really all these months of promises then he just backs out? so that has been a worry too.
Jaco has had allot of rain although its has nice hot moments in the day. The evenings have been nice and cool or rainy. Still you wear sleeveless clothes or shorts not cold weather clothes.

Rosie and I have been seeing allot of each other I go and visit and hang out so not to be bored or sad at home alone.
Last week Cristhian, after the news spent three days at my house sleeping in the spare room. He could not go to his apartment and this news made him go out and get his own place instead of living with four guys now. I told him I think this is good for him anyway time to be a little more independent. I cooked every night he was there, he loves my food and it was nice to be doing something with someone.
Actually I was shocked that he stayed with me? but after the second night we talked about things and I knew that it was necessary for him to have some peace in his head about things and my place is quiet and peace full and relaxing.
Perfect for him to hang out.
On Friday when he went back this week he wrote me a note in Spanish, it said on my cell phone:" Lo siento por cualquier cosa, yo quero que todo este bien y si que usted es buena persona y usted da mas, entonces mas le dara Dios" I can translate but I think really what he meant is God bless you for being a good person, the best of people really.. and he was sorry for anything he had said or done earlier in the day, that he knows I am good.

That made me cry, because I feel like sometimes I am not worthy of anything. Although I try to help people, not just him but many... Not much help comes to me, I felt sad all week, and he saw it in my eyes, I didn't tell him I was sick on top of it but I think he knows.

Aside from all this.... I did spend time with Edia my old friend this weekend. I bought some chicken, she bought pork, we invited a couple of people for Independence day on Sat and I cooked for everyone. I made Cuban Pork on the bbq and Coconut ginger chicken, Italian style salad and Armenian Rice pilaf.
Those that showed up liked the food, then Eida suggested I open a restaurant. That was my intention when I first came here a small little place serving Tapas and wine, some beer something cool different and simple. Everyone that eats my food here says the same thing GOD YOU SHOULD open a place but its super hard work.
I would rather do that and have my Son Jordan come and run it and be the person in control and mama over sees. But Eida did offer to make a place in one of her locals for me. It is all talk as far as I am concerned really!

Then Yesterday she invited me to swim in the pool in the morning and have coffee with her. So I got up cleaned the house and walked the ten or more blocks to her house.
We talked, swam, and then I walked to Rosie's, when I was on the street Rodrigo, the partner of my Colombian friend saw me and picked me up and took me to Rosie's. When we got there Rosie called and said Come to belly dancing.
So I went with my bikini and sarong and Rodrigo took me to the class. The rest of the day was great we danced for a hour in class, then she took me to my house to shower and change, then she changed and we took up again and went to this place called OZ a hotel and bar and had a margarita, then we went to Sushi. Rodrigo went with us, we had a nice night. Later back to Rosies place and sat and talked with people, Helen too!
Then I took a taxi and went home to bed. Slept till 7:00 and got up made my arrangements with the travel agent for a ticket I had some months ago to go back to the USA.
I will be going in Nov for Thanksgiving, Although I really do not want to go back I want to see my kids and grandchildren once again.
Then I took a taxi here to the office and now waiting for Cristhian to show up. Its almost noon now.
The rest of the day is making an invoice for two places, trying to get my car to a mechanic, and maybe that is all for the day.

Three beautiful babes on a Sat night

I went home Sat very depressed, I am certainly tired of being alone alone... I just laid on the sofa and watched TV after a shower and then fell fast alseep.
I had three messages to Call Rosie, I read them and called she was out for dinner with a friend. When she returned she called and invited me to go out with her and Jessica, this beautiful Tall dark Columbiana she is about 26 years old and has a sugar daddy if you will, who pays for her total everything. Yet she is not happy! he is a nice man I met him several times but young as she is needs her age I am sure.
She was so happy to be out we went to Esterillos to a latin dance party put on by the instructors here in Jaco is was a really pretty location on the top of a knoll.. it is called the Brisa Restuarant it is all Italian. We danced for a and hour or so not many people but a beautiful setting for sure. Verandas fountains, breezeways and gardens.
A Nice Change.. Later we all went back to Jaco to dance a little more. I went home early and left Jessica dancing.
Sunday I got up late and cleaned the whole house, then went to he beach with Helen my crazy Columbian friend that sells hot dogs every night in front of Monkeys. She makes the best Columbian hot dots ever... pineapple crushed potoato chips saugsages, cabbage, tomatoe, and more there to die for!
Anyway we just went to beach together for the first time in months, we only spent two hours it was hot and I couldn't take it any more... then we walked down the dirt alley by Copa Cabana, to another little soda and had fresh cievehe and a she had a beer I had a diet coke. We chatted and then went home.

Today I worked with the guys on the garden in Esterillos. Ran to Parrita and all over Jaco. Iwas not in the office till now and its about 5:00

Beautiful Day!

Esterillos house

This is just a couple of views of the house, the stools and most to the things were made for the house its not like the USA

After the roof with palms were put on its pretty now!

This is the house in Esterillios it has four bedrooms and it is for rent for vacations. This is before the landscape and the roof I had done

The past two days have been simply beautiful, We worked on the house in Esterillos it sits right on the beach and I swear its the most peacefull, beautiful place ever. I would give my left arm to live in Esterillos.. But the past Thursday night was the worst. I was suppose to have dinner with a friend who was cooking for me at 7:00, I got a call from him asking If I was coming for sure. I said yes and he continued to tell me he was preping for the dinner.

Well this storm blew in like ten minutes or less after he called. It blew and rained and well the lights went out in the whole town. NOT A BIT OF LIGHT anywhere. Well that lasted for some Two hours. I thought to myself well he has to have gas, everyone here cooks with Gas they rarely use electric stoves. So I decided to go in the rain storm to his place which is on the beach and down the narrow alley.

So I put my makeup on and got ready in the candle light. Got in the car, well my aircondition in the car is broke and that means there is not defroster or de humidifier for the windows so I put the windows down some and try to get the windows so you could see. Its warm so all the windows are fogged up. I had a towel so I kept driving and wipeing and well it was miserable rain was coming in. But I tried to find his place, Well I got there and the gates were shut, I know there electric so Those were not going to open. I honked and yelled and then tried my best to see with all the windows fogged, to back down this alley that is just wide enough for the car.

Kevin lives down the road from Dave,so I drove to his house in the total dark. We sat in the dark for another hour.

Later I got dressed when the lights came on and went to my friends birthday party. I had no way to call my date and tell him, he does not have a phone. I had told him earlier in the day about after dinner going with me to this birthday party so he knew where I was going to be.

It was a nice party live music in a place called the Cantina across from the Aqua project on the beach. Very fresh and cool that night. But the power went out again later.

I went dancing later with friends and got home very later

But the next day Yesterday was soooooooooooooo beautiful! and today too. I have never felt it so cool here and so pretty today was beautiful as well.

Cristhian and I had our breakfast and coffee on a log on the beach in front of the house. It was so nice the breeze was actually cool today and it was so clear the ocean bright blue.

We then worked with the guys on the garden just instructing them on where to move things and cleaning it up getting ready for the remodle.

At noon we stopped that is my schedule on Sat. The guys rode with me and I paid them, Cristhian when to Bootie Call or Puriscal again.. Normal weekend for him.

I am not going to Manuel alone I decided not too, so I have nothing to do this weekend at all. Maybe something will come up!

Been working on a new landscape job, also putting a techio de palma. Its where they put palm leaves woven for a roof.

The owner of the house in Esterillos wants it authentic Costa Rican so I found a guy who works in this and tomorrow he begins to construct the roof. I really love this effect, and its so functional, insulates from heat and keeps the rain from coming in, but in this case its mostly cosmetics. If and when I build a house here I want this on a portion of the roof like the second story where my bedroom is. I think its so pretty.

So I will take photos of the process to show on the blog.

Tuesday I got a call from a friend for a Music video. They wanted Dancers and some of my close friends know I am loca for Dancing. So Kevin and I Clint's friend got dressed and went to for the filming. It was Five hours of Dancing in hot lights, smoke, and it was Raining like HELL.. the roof was leaking but that did not stop the filming.

It was weird really because they contacted the prostitutes from the Beetles bar and there were many of them in Short short dresses and high high heels. Not really pretty ones either! Its legal here, prostitution. So I assumed they figure they would contact that bar and get all the girls from there. But normal people showed up too.
They shot us in the back with the third camera, but later in a shot where the models come down the stairs they put me right in the front of the line. Ended up they filmed me three times solo, and well they asked for my permission to use the clip. The name of the Group is Kumbia Kings, I think there Mexican decent, and some live in California. They all spoke English. It was fun but really hard. The lights and heat, the take after take doing the same thing.. But It was interesting and it helped pass a very hard rainy night! It ended for us at 3:00 am we began at around 9:00 p.m.

Now in Jaco, we are actually becoming a city. We have professional boxing now,I personally like boxing. It is because my father use to watch the Gillette boxing night on Saturdays always. When I was young we all had to be still and watch or leave the room. I use to watch. So now in my adulthood I still like it. It is every Tuesday at Secret Society. I plan next Tuesday to check it out.
Other than that, the weather has been rain, hot but rain allot of rain. Everything is Green and pretty. I saw Ten Red Macaws the other day just sitting in the top of tree very close to me enjoying the rain. preening there selves it was very cool.

I may try to go to Manuel Antonio this weekend to just hang out, it is one of the main resorts in the area, but if it rains all weekend I won't because part of the road is dirt. If not I stay here and just visit with friends.
Tonight I have a dinner date with another one of my American Friends, he is going to cook me dinner, he said Marlin, and rice, salad and veggies. Sounds great! I am such a fish eater now... its so dang good here why not?
I was also invited to a big party at a chain place here in Costa Rica called the Cantina so We may later go to my friends Birthday party.
For today just trying to round up people for the work and order things to be installed and delivered. PURA VIDA!

Still sick

Thought I was better yesterday, but last night was horrible.. bad tummy issues. I felt really sick this morning when I got up. I had to go to Esterillos again for the house we have been working on. The people want some more things taken care of, so I needed to be out there before nine. But I sure felt crappy in every sense of the word!

I did have a nice evening last night, at least for a while. I Can not say who I was with he asked me not too, but it was nice for the most part.
We had a glass of wine first at my place, then went to the Copa Cabana where the food was terrific, it sits on the beach and has a really nice garden. It didn't end out well. I started feeling sick, but that was not the issue. The dinner went perfect the conversation was good. Then it went sideways at Rosie's. I suppose he was bored, as he said and well the whole conversation with he, I and Rosie was not that coherent.
So to sum it up he left.

Things not to do on a first Date:

Actually this was the second!
First date:he had asked me for dinner, then When I showed up there was a couple with him, which turned out fine because I just went along and didn't show that I felt that was not right on the first date? My opinion don't invite friends.Si o No?

Try not to talk about your ex's or your girlfriend you have now, or did have recently. This really is a turn off for me and many other people I have asked how they felt about that sort of conversation in the beginning

Although I can relate to any age and age is sometimes irrelevant to things, I personally do not like to be asked how old I am four or five times during dinner.

Retro is nice, when its retro.. but I live in 2007 at least live in the era( I am not that hip but I do like to be in tune and up with the era)

I know it sounds mean but these are things men do that are really a bad thing when your first dating. I hate dating, But what to do?

Sooooo it was a not so good night. My stomach after was a wreck, I did not sleep well at all last night.
I ate a little this morning some pinto, two eggs and one toast. I came home mid day to rest, feeling peunie... I laid on the sofa and listen to the hard rain, and its been raining all day extremely hard. I can not believe I have a sweater on today. Not once have ever worn a sweater here. I got a call from my Colombino Client who is opening the clothin boutique. He wanted me to select the colors for the store right now. So I got up got myself half way together and rain down the hardware store.

After I decided to come here, its so dreary here similar to Vancouver and now its chilly oh god did I bring this back with me some how?
I have no plans for tonight I think just rest watch a movie eat some popcorn and sleep.
Tomorrow I have work too and its Sunday, My furnishings I ordered were not finished because of the rain, and the Colombiano wants me to sample walls to see which color to put where?
Cristhian left for Puriscal, His usual trip every weekend. I have been calling it Bootie call sounds similar and its significant to how he returns. Pronouced Pooodiscal.

It is Because he comes back, with hickies on his neck every dang weekend. Clint said when I was in the USA he did not return with them but before I went and after I have gotten back he has them. He goes, plays soccer, visits family ,friends, drinks at the local watering hole, and I am sure picks up on the American Tourists gals that work in some of the eco farms that are located near his house.

I talk to Clint yesterday, hes sad and is missing us already and the weather.. but its ugly here to, I wont dare tell him.

Feeling better

I am feeling a little better still coughing and my chest is horrible but I suppose the sleep I got last night helped.
Kevin and I had planned on being together missing Clint of course! our plan was to go out dancing. Kevin is an excellent dancer so It may be he is my dance partner. Although I dance with many people... but that was the plan.
I came home after being at Rosie's for a while. I talked to Dave my Friend from USA, and then John from the USA Rosie said what is this your mating Ground? I cracked up no it was just coincidence... but it was nice to have visitors! they both are nice guys..
I came home took a shower, put a facial on, laid on the sofa which is this beautiful rich leather soft and cuddly.. watched a little TV and waited for Kevin, Clint's friend to come by at Ten.

Well I woke up at 1:45 and was shocked I slept all that time!!! In the morning I messaged Kevin in Spanish where the heck where you and what happened... he said he laid down for five minutes to rest and slept like till one, also his room mate they both woke up and was mad and he thought I was mad at him. But I thought I miss him and didn't hear the gate buzzer because I was asleep.. so no dancing no exercise this week GOD I need to go the gym bad... I love to dance its the best form for me of exercise.. so maybe tonight after dinner with John I can sneak away and go!

Today was early rising, 6:30 made coffee, cut the pina that Cristhian brought me last week.. I watch Regis and Kelly and relaxed then the buzzer rang it was Kevin in the morning. So we visited and had coffee it was nice.

I hate being alone I just hate it... its so hard for me.
I guess cause I am such a social person. I do not really need people but I need the people if you what I mean? I am strong I can be alone have for a long time but honestly I do not like Eating alone, being alone watching TV alone working alone.. none of that.. I guess I do need people? but I handle it ok if you know what I mean?

We have work again at the house in Esterillos the people loved what I did and asked for more so today we go and install some shelves, and prepare for the patio furniture I ordered yesterday to be delivered tomorrow.

Its very hot again today, my air condition in the car is now broke I will not work, I checked the fuses its not that it must be a line or something because I had it all repaired some months back.. DAMN TORTUGA!!! I want a new truck bad.. Just wish some of these golden carrots would materialize.

I had the hair so dang cute the way I use to wear it in the states all flipped up and in Ten minutes with no air it is wild like a lion now... god the whole day looking like a lion should be interesting.
With the humidity here and the heat its impossible to be beautiful. Ever since I was very young I always took care of my hair, my makeup and my clothes. It was bred in me. My mother liked nice things, and always when were little dressed all us girls alike, hair beautiful my mine was the worst of all us. STRAIGHT and does not liked to be curled. She would rag roll it and make it stay in for a day,take it down and twenty minutes later STRAIGHT AS A BOARD... some people die for this, but I like a little body in mine. It is funny all women the same really we never like what god has given us, those of us with straight hair hate it those of us with Curly hate it never happy huh?

I know dumb girl talk, but it is something I have to deal with constant. and Men notice when a woman takes care.
Well it is the end of the week again, I think time flies lately I wish it would slow down honestly. Although its nice on the weekend here. I only do a little work on Sat and always always always take Sunday to just play or do nothing. Rest, cook or find something interesting to do. But this weekend no plans, I do not think I want to go the beach after last weeks baking in the oven on Sunday.. maybe a week of not laying out would be called for so the skin can rest.
I may go up with John this weekend and see the sunset from the plane. He asked me again last night. Said the fuel line was plugged last week and that was the cause of the engine stalling. We will see!

The day was a little frantic

Today Started out a little frantic, the owners of the house called and did not have the keys to view it. I had sent Cristhian the other day when I was not well to deliver some things to the house the neighbor had the keys, in turn he got the keys and either put then in his bag or in my car. It was very early when they called.
I had been trying to reach Cristhian all night he didn't answer and I had thought perhaps something happened and he went to Guadamal, for the night. Well that was the fact after hours of not hearing from him and calling trying to find the keys. Finally I found them in the car with allot of other keys They were not marked so I had no clue if it was them at all.

I called the client and drove to Esterillos which is about some 25 miles away to see if it was and they were! I had an early appointment before this so I was a little stressed... After I returned Cristhian called and told me his dad had a diabetic attack, so he went to see him in the hospital. I suppose it is true but I was glad to hear he was ok and nothing had happened and that his father was fine.

It is really strange that I have these intuitions, and most times there true. I thought perhaps something had happened but I didn't know exactly what it was. But my inside was sure something was wrong...

We continued the day searching for things that the client has now requested.
Had lunch saw my friend that is the pilot talked for a moment. Then went on to order some furnishings from a rustic maker in Hermosa.
We eventually came here to the office to check mail, make some calls and now I am ready to leave and go to town for a while talk to some friends and see what the night brings. Maybe dance but I am still not completely well. I want to but It may be a bad idea to get all sweaty and hot.

I spent the evening last night at the beach in Hermosa had a beer and talked with Kevin, Clint's friend we laughed and chatted then I went home.
rested for a little while tried like I stated to get a hold of Cristhian but no response so I went down to Rosie's to find out a friend of hers needed my help.
I may be designing a little clothing boutique this week, I also booked the garden for the house in Esterillos, some furniture for the big house and a model in Bejuco.. for a new project. It sounds like allot but in actuality its not really.
The Columbus Heights project like so many others has been put off. I feel discouraged. I get offered these big golden carrots in front of me, I grasp as hard as I can and then they drop in a hole in the ground! Many of these is seems like? WHY?
We were so close to this one.We didn't even get to bid on it!! But I wont throw in the towel on them yet. I plan on visiting the site next week.

Well that is is for today, except I received a nice photo from one of my readers. He always says such nice things and I appreciate the thoughts thank You Jason for the Photo and the great comments! PURA VIDA MI AMOR!

Clint is gone now

The past weekend was hot here wow! I stayed home Saturday night and slept hard I have not being feeling well for several days now. Sunday Morning Clint wanted to go on the beach early. We had a surf tournament triple crown here in Jaco, the first was in Esterillos, the second was in Hermosa and final was on the beach here in Jaco. So.. I told Clint lets go and watch and see what is happening!

We left about 10:00 am and parked the car near Rosie's on the main strip here in the central Jaco. We walked down this little alley that is lined with Bananas and palms that leads right to the beach front. At ten it was already blazing. We stopped and got water, some yogurt and just snacks to have while we all sunbathed. Kevin , Clint's friend, Clint and I, all laid out and watched the action.
There were lots of people the skies for the first time in a week were absolutely Clear and blue. It was hot, there was a radio station parked near us and played very good music so it was fun to listen and watch all the people on the beach. We played in the surf and danced and laid out watched and watched what fun it was.... BUT

Well We all didn't know now hot it was??? I got total scorched.. my face has bumps all over it and it feels like a crock! My lips are horrible, and my chest looks like a crock UGLY!! oh god I hope it heals and doesn't damage the skin bad. Also I felt sun stroke, I was sick to my stomach, and feverish.
For four days now all of us have been sick, Clint the worst. Me I can hardly talk my voice is shot , don't know why? my body hurts, my head and my stomach. After Clint and I went to Jaco Taco, a new Mexican restaurant that has a great view of this beautiful field next to the beach. I had a margarita, and carne asada tacos.. wow the salsa taste so good! it is because here they do not put much flavor in the food and I love hot things!!
So I ate a bunch of salsa... Clint too. I got a call from a new American friend who is a pilot here for tours. He asked me to go up alone with him and see the sunset. At first I thought good idea! but after the day in the sun and not feeling so well, I thought hmmm I better not. Also I just didn't feel right about going up that day..

Well it turns out that was a good decision, he went up alone and the plane lost a motor. Should I had been in this small plane it was very possible that it would have crashed in the trees. He called me to tell me I had good intuitions and he wanted to get me know me better.. that he felt it was surely a good decision on my part.
I GUESS SO!!! anyway we all didn't know how burnt or how hot that sun was.

I had to drive Clint yesterday to the airport, he returned to the USA for God Only knows how long?

He has no idea how hes getting back but did say he could not live in the USA any more after his experiences here. I didn't think he would say this since in the beginning he was so unsure of this country and how the people are and well the system is so different.


But now he is sure, he said there is no comparison, that he is so depressed in Vancouver Washington, and he has no reason to stay there except his house that needs to be sold. His car that he wants to sell and his furniture.
So I guess he is going to do the same thing as me. Pick up stakes and move here.
Its all good, for now anyhow?

The drive coming back from San Jose was horrible, the rain was hard and you could hardly see the road during the evening hours. Trees were falling, rocks coming down on the road and waterfalls on all sides to say the least I was a little scared and nervous. But I made it back safe and sound.
I was sick last night I laid around trying to feel better but woke this morning to feeling the same.
The face is better but not much.
I have no excitement this week to talk about yet.. Still trying to get jobs nothing yet?? I hope something comes soon.

My friend from the Jaco Guide

I came the to office today alone.. Cristhian was out partying last night I saw him I was dancing with other people left early and he was still there.. so I know he is probably still in bed and that is fine because there is not much going on at all.
Clint is home with his friend because he is leaving on Tuesday to return the USA maybe for good or maybe to sell what he has and come back. That is his plan. He has expressed to me in the past few days that he refuses to live in Vancouver Washington any more after being here for eight months. Enjoying the people, the food, the sun the surf, the scenery, the birds, flowers and more. He actually has friends here. I hope he gets the courage to come back.. he needs to sell things in order to buy a ticket.So We will see.

Until then its Cristhian and I only for the jobs. At this point its fine not a whole lot going on. Sometimes I feel so worried as to how I will survive and make it here.. other times I am so happy that I have less stress, and I learning that really you can live with less and enjoy a better life. Although I like nice things and have the mentality of The USA striving for more more more.... Better Better, and bigger... I am losing it little by little.

I use to have such a cool car and nice trucks.. a decent house. Now I have a Tortuga for a car, its a crap mobile but it gets me around... I have a small apartment near the beach, not many clothes or shoes.. and very little furniture. But I am happy for the most part.

Clint informed me that if he does return he is getting his own place!! GOOD THAT IS GREAT NEWS!! then maybe I have a privacy, and well it will be on the other hand a bit lonely. I lived alone for some three or more years after Jordan moved out when he was 18. I lived with the boys alone for a long time. So totally alone is a bit lonely.. I was here for a year alone before Clint I did fine with it, because someone was always coming over... but now hardly anyone knows where I live. I have kinda kept it private.

It is nice today but I am sure for only a while a storm is coming, so I want go get out in the sun soon before it runs away.

I have the owners of the house I did in Esterillos coming this week, plus I go to San Jose to take Clint to the airport, and I hope I nail the landscape, and maybe a new project called Columbus Heights. That should be a good one.. I know soon we will be very busy. But only if the economy in the USA picks up. It has effected it greatly here.

Today is half day, Tomorrow is always lately on the beach. I am going to make Italian food for Clint and a couple of people before he leaves.
Other than this, I am enjoying the Meymonies the red fruit in the previous photos!!! GOD I LOVE THOSE!