The Drama goes on ITS HAS TO END!! I can't take much more

Tony the old tony called me this morning at 6:30 Helen had told him about the car situation, he said he was coming to Jaco. He had a friend that bought wrecks, they wanted to see the car and talk with me. I said sure why not? So around 8:00 they showed up here to go and look at the car.

We went they looked and it was just as I thought in the begining. The man who pulled all the parts off and said they were taking them to San Jose to get the new ones, put them in the car and locked it. Tony and this other guy looked at the car and said the whole front end had to be cut off useing new parts won't solve the problem. He believes the internal damage is much and needs a whole new front end, and rework or overhaul the engine too. Around 12 thousand dollars of damage. MADE ME SICK... we sat at the beach while he told me the good news. I knew it this was coming so it wasn't a shock. But I didn't know that the guy did not take the parts,and that they lied to hold me off a few more days.

So Tony suggested I tow it to a safer place till this guy could get me a quote, on how much they could give me and how to resolve this and try to exchange for another car.

We came back, I got cleaned up and ready for the day. I did not tell Raquel the night before to leave but this is what happened. I felt bad telling her this at night. I thought its better to let her rest and tell her in the morning giving her the whole day to find something.

So the phone rang around 2:00. I got up I heard her talking. I listened, in the kitchen. When she was done. I said Raquel please no phone calls.

She yells I GETTING MY THINGS AND I LEAVE IN THE MORNING.

I turned around and thought to myself that was easy.

So I got back in bed, only after I thought well I am going to unplug the phone and put it away.

I did, then in the morning I continued on with Tony and this other guy.

Ok she is still in bed when I return, In a hour she got up got showered and dressed. I was outside on the computer and putting on makeup. I said to her Raquel sit down I want to talk to you. She said I have to go to the bank, I said well give me the keys then, no she said When I return, I asked again please give them to me now. She insisted no... so I waited for two hours for her to return. I was suppose to be going to a clients house to bring the Sofa from my office to sell, they wanted it and I was so happy because the amount of money I would get would solve my bills, and feed me and set me up for more than a month or two. So I waited till 12:30 then walked to the office. She never came.

As I was walking I called Lucas, of course she is there. I knew that this is why I called. He apologized for his behavior, but then went on to say give her more money. I said I can't don't you understand I DONT HAVE IT!! and she didn't work for it.

I said I need the keys tell her I waited. He said when your done come here and get the keys I will keep her here all day.

I went with another designer who was working my client. We got a truck and took the beautiful red leather sofa with end tables attached and leather inserts in the wood.

We got it to this incredible house at the end of the road in the jungle on the edge of the beach Playa Escondido. THis house wraps around two levels right into the mountain with a private door step beach. I was trying my best to be positive, praying the whole time " PLEASE LORD let this work, I really need a break here and This could be the resolution for things for a while"

Well they tried this way that way the sofa was beautiful in the house,but they had this silly ugly box some guy made with all there sound wireing in it, it was like a liquor cabinet looking thing. Not pretty in the corner of the living room on the edge of a stair case to the down stairs. This house is pretty open, and this piece was really strange looking. He could have devised a wall mount system and put all that on the wall, or mounted that on the wall in order for the sofa with end tables to fit

But no, I tried softly to convince him but he was like just get a regular sofa, this is not the owner of the home its a worker. I was getting more and more depressed, I looked out over this incredible house feeling envy, and thinking this is something I will probably never ever get to enjoy, and thinking why is it always so hard for me in every instance? I wanted to bust out crying but I am a professional, and I just stared at the beach right below my feet. Overlooking the most fabulous view of the mountain and sea combined.

If they wanted that sofa they could have told him to redo that dang wiring and fix it right. It looked hokie ok? NOT LIEING.. even the other designer, was mad and saying we waisted the whole day for him. That thing is ugly. so I agreed. I honestly have been so humble I hardly talk. Things have been so rough that I have no energy to be talkative or lively althought my character is that.

So I humbly held my head down, said I was sorry, and walked out behind the sofa.

I was so disgusted, because I knew I was now going to face another disaster Raquel.

I tried to convince them I have two other sofas (in my home) that I could sell to them.

Well we both were upset driving back she lost most of the day I lost $3500.00 dollars for this beautiful leather sofa with attached end tables and leather inserts.

I paid much more for it.

I went into the office of Century 21 where my office is now, and talk to Thomas, the owner we sat he felt sad for me he is very worried about me. He actually bought me lunch and said if you need me tell me Marianna. I couldn't ask for anything I was so beat down.

Then I walked over to Rosies for a min its right across the way, we chatted and I told her I had to call Lucas for my keys she said go. Walking back to the office I felt more defeated.

Got my things closed down the lights and computer and walked to Lucas, while I called. He said come here.

I could hear people loud and Raquel, I knew they were drinking. When I walked up of course they were. Smoking and drinking. I sat and he offered I said no thank you.. he began to lecture me about money paymets to her, letting her stay about me living alone, putting guilt trips on me. I sat I listened until he got the point of saying YOU NEED A GOOD WORKER LIKE HER!!! I wanted to laugh but I said "Lucas, I did not come here for lectures, I came to collect my keys" then that was it. They all started yelling I was like a cornered dog. I said look you don't know all there is, and I have too much right now to try to help anyone. I need help LUCAS LAUGHED HARD.. I was hurt, I said I just want my keys please. They went on and on Raquel raising her voice and yelling. I said stop ok just stop, the name calling started not with me. I remained calm, just looked felt horrible. I asked her to go with me now, and said if you want stay tonight. I waited all day for your call or for you to come back. She said she wa busy. Lucas told me earlier he was going to keep her there all day.

So I suppose She was busy with him. I said lets go she said you go you go now take a taxi and get out of here then Lucas and The other guy cussed me out called me names and I put my tail between my legs and left.

I felt miserable, thinking its my place my house she owed the rent on the 21st, didn't pay. Used my shoes, my clothes ate all the food in the house when i was gone, I paid for her to eat everyday when I was here and this past week. I was recounting everything.

The phone, the men she brought there when I was asleep, the friend that stayed here while I was gone, that she didn't knew I knew about for four days drinking up the booze here and god knows what? Thinking and I am the bad one? where is there any justice in life? WHERE IS IT? so I walked to Rosies, took a cab and thought I was waiting for Raquel.

AS soon as I got to the door the phone rang, the cell the other phone I took out. It was lucas telling me not to worry about anything that she was spending the night there, and in the morning she would get her things, in the morning the things will be outside. I wiil change the locks, and this will be it! I didn't say that but that is exactly what I will do.

She stayed there all day partying, didn't think a thing about what had happened.

I don't know how he could talk to me so nice after he called me names and told me @@$%#$%&&* off? can you?

I feel horrible, sad, mad and discouraged with life.