I spent the night at Clints, when I woke up it was ice and fog, thank God it was nice and warm. In fact I was sweating in the night. I had to get up and take off clothing because I was so hot.
I decided yesterday that when Brandon and his girlfriend came back that I would leave. I felt uncomfortable there, I didn't want to intrude.
When I arrived from shopping for Eungena and upon entering Brandon's house, no real greeting to me. I sat for a moment alone in the kitchen and thought this is uncomfortable its best I leave, visit other people. Sounds strange, but this is how I felt. I understand what it is there. I realize our fractured relationship is way to painful to me. I want to be in peace with my son, and have a loving relation but it never happens. I try to be sweet, and kind, but it just never happens. I want to say more but its better that I don't. So I right away got my bag and used his truck to go to Clints, I said thank you for everything and that I would come by Tomorrow. He wanted me to Cook dinner and I will, but I want to talk to him before then.
I am drinking nice coffee, that Clint found here that tastes exactly like Costa Rican Coffee. The latins and Italians know how to make good coffee, this is exactaly like what I am use to now.
I plan on Seeing Sharons, house tonight. I still have a few of my things in her storage, so I may try to see what I can bring back with me.
Its been different this time, I actually saw people. Earlier in the week, Jon Dickie came by we visited Clint, looked at Photos I had in the computer for Clint from Costa Rica, and had a nice time. Then an old Boy friend Paul, called all over looking for me, I called him From Jazzercise one morning, and late that night about 12:30 he showed up at my sons Brandon's house. That was late I was sleeping but I woke up to talk to him. He brought mojitos and we talked, laughed, and drank a couple. It was the night before Thanksgiving. I passed out, being sick and well those drinks were strong. But we had a nice time.. it was great to see him and laugh and talk about old stuff. He fell asleep too but left before I woke up.
Then the following night after visitng with my son for Thanksgiving, Cade came by, that is already stated in earlier blog.
Then Sharon and I have been talking and seeing each other alot, eating together. Its been nice. I visited with a couple of gals from my Jazzercise class as well.
Now I need to see Tina, I was going to stay there but she was gone, and its so cold I didn't know if I could bare to stay in the little cabins. But I am going to see her and thank her for sending me money. I want to see Bill white, and On Tuesday I will have lunch with him. Shirley Hanley was suppose to email but I have not heard.
Barbara did, but its so hard to get to Portland, I plan on going tomorrow to pick up a little bit more Ribbon, at a wholesale. So Maybe We can have lunch.But it has been better with friends this time.People say they miss me..
8 comments:
Marianne, not Marianna, does sound more oh who knows. Your fracture relationship with your son and others, is your fault! Your mouth! Quite doing guilt trips on your son, Quite acting poor me, no one helps me. I guess pity works on here, maybe some one will bale you out, send you money, PATHETIC. You created the drama, it doesn't have to be like this. All you have to do is show some respect, stay out of things that concern Brandon & Sara. Quite playing one against another...love Jordan & Nancy, Love Brandon & Sara, STAY NEUTRAL, be a loving Mom. Live the way your want, live where you want, just be a loving MOM. You say things in your blog...half truths, not reality. The titles you have created and given yourself, just that you created them. Yes you are talented, be honest with yourself and your adoring public. I've known you all your life, when did you go to a trade school for these titles, be honest. I'm fed up! Wake up and stay out of your kids personal life unless they ask for your loving advice. Be a loving, caring Mom..before you lose everything!! Your SISTER the one you choose to not talk to for 1 1/2 yrs.
Wow! Now I see why you didn't want to go to your sisters. What a Bitch. or could it be Witch.
you made the right choice moving to CR. I would do it just to get away from your sister.
It's too bad you just can't get along with family. Your sister is very bitter and she has some real bad feelings towards you. Maybe she is the one who needs to step back and let you be the mother instead of her. It's obvious that she has turned your boys aganist you and that is a sad thing. Seems like she is acting like the mother, Was she not able to have any kids of her own.
Heh guys, I know Marianna, I know the "bitch" sister and her family. Last name to decribe her, nicest person. She said "she was fed up" Has 3 pretty nice sons of her own, no need to steal Marianna's. To my knowledge Marianna's son went to them for counsel. When her son's come to town, Brandon tries to be there with his cousin's. It's a shame this flack has gone global, but ya don't know both sides of the tale!!
No matter what I say, people believe what they want.I have been a loving mom, and this whole this is so distorted. I don't interfer, I moved away for a couple of reasons ,and one was the drama, and to stay out of my kids life and let them work it out. My sister has always had jealousy or hate for me. I stay away because I feel like I would rather not talk to her than listen to the negative and sometimes off balance oppinions. She has been very good to me for a short period of my life after my mother died. She can be a really nice person, But to know her, and maybe I don't know her now because we have not seen or talked in a few years but before she caused allot of issues. I did alot for her, When I was young I baby sat her childred all the time. Cleaned her house and more because she was ill. But those are things you do for your family. I helped her with many things in her home, and spent some valuable time with her in my own home. That is when she was nice. After I moved here and Brandon cried out for help, because he was hurt and sad for my decisions, my sister decided she was able to diagonose me for all sorts of things.
She knows I have worked my entire life with very little support. She knows I practically raised my sons alone with a little help from my mother, occasionally when I was working long hours. My life has not been an easy one, I have had many stuggles, and pitfalls challanges, and many highlights and successes.I could say things about Both the sons Women but I Never have and I have not pitted one against the other like they accused, It's acusations, the truth is they have fought over God KNOWS what? and I have to love my sons regarless of who they are with. I never have written her horrible letters saying things, only refuting her negative and hurtful, venimous statements.
It is very sad, that now I am the brunt of all the problems of the whole family, being here in Costa Rica as I said before is not easy, but I do enjoy it, and I have to say that when I left I was in such Shock,and beat down by all this talk the day before I left that I felt well if everyone who is never around me any more feels this way maybe its best I just die.
Then Two days here and I realized that I have given to many, and that you can not choose you your children decide to be with. And that my mental state changed drastically after being here one day. I WON'T strike out and say bad things back.
Hate is contagious, I won't be a hater I don't care what she thinks!
I am living and doing the best I can, and trying to enjoy what life I do have. As far as Sara, and Nancy. Good luck.
Pathetic... I think some times all of us are pathetic.
You are loved by many many people, Marianna! Loved for all that you are - not what we think you should be or what we think you should do with your life. Good Choice not going to your sisters for an ambush probably - what gall she has - she needs to shut her trap.
I HAVE BEEN READING YOUR BLOG FOR MANY YEARS--- YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AN INSPIRATION TO MANY! AND VERY INTERESTING, TO SAY THE LEAST.
YOU ALL WANT MY OPINION???? SINCE A "CERTAIN" PERSON BECAME INVOLVED IN THE LIVES OF MARIANNA EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY'S LIVES HAVE BEEN EFFECTED OR SHOULD I SAY INFECTED,POISONED,AND VERY BAD THING'S HAVE HAPPENED THAT SHOULD HAVE NEVER HAVE HAPPENED.I CAN RECALL MANY COMMENTS TO YOU MARIANNA ON HOW TO HANDLE IT BUT YOU NEVER TOOK IN THE ADVICE?????? SO VERY SORRY THE PROBLEM STILL LINGERS IN AND AROUND YOUR FAMILY! YOU HAVE COME ALONG WAY FROM WHERE YOU WERE!!! KNOW WHO YOUR REAL FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE.IN THIS LIFE TRUST! NO ONE------------
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