Rarely I talk about men in my life, this last post was what I experience here with men, how they lie about what they really are and how they want to try to give the impression of being so inocent. The man from Denver never called yesterday, it is as well. I find this is the pattern of alot of the men that visit here. It's a good thing I had no relations period with them. This is what I meant as being smart. not allowing my heart to be involved with these men, not putting my trust in the lies. Yes money comes and goes.. so if whom ever it is feels I am stupid by that last comment, and you get pleasure out of someones dismay, then it was a pleasure to make you laugh. Obviously you enjoy beating people down. My question is why is it that you keep reading if you feel I am so stupid? STOP READING.
Ok on to better things!

I am doing much better, every day I am more positive to know that things will turn around. Although I read about the financial situation in the USA .The problem with the prime rate loans. How 630 billion dollars in fake loans were given by lenders who falsified loans, apraisers that were paid off to hit marks for the lenders. My oh my This is the biggest financial crisis in the history of the USA, bigger than Enron. Even though I know this, I read about the world daily, I am still feeling that I will be fine, that things will work out for me.

Although were about to face the ripple effect from the USA here. We are seeing a down surge of sales in properties. and of course my Business is completely off. No landscapes, no interiors, not even proposals. I have three out right now and I call daily, email daily and no repsonse from the clients. People are holding on waiting.

But Possibly this is the time for a change in life as I said in one post back.

I am a strong woman, resiliant.. with every year becoming better.

I look forward to the day, I may receive a package from a friend, I have the possiblity of going to Puerto Jimenez, and maybe a new situation there.


I have good friends who write me almost daily, I have my friends here who are kind to me.

Yesterday I did belly dancing, It was so much fun, I love the classes.

I managed to sell a couple of things so I have money to do one or two things enjoyable. What is life if you can not enjoy?
Simple things, I don't have much to say today, But I will say this. I put this on here for people to read and its a part of my diary of life.

Weather you like it or not its what I feel. It gives enjoyment to myself first! It is cathartic for me to write... it gives pleasure and sometimes encouragement to others, it makes people laugh, because perhaps they are more intellegent than I am. OF COURSE!! no one is perfect! it also gives some insight on another world. And what a woman faces when she is in a country aside from USA.
I am sure there are women out there that have felt the way I felt and were happy to see that someone else feels the same way. So in this I say.. No one and nothing will keep me from expressing my thoughts,and I wont be depressed, sad or angry when people write their oppinions.