I left the office yesterday half the day. We had gone to put out brochures and try to drum up business. It was so boring, not a soul around not a phone call nothing.

This mall is really dead here. I am realizing that the economy in the states is suffering it is directly affecting our work.
I really want to turn this place into a bar. It has all the right quality's of a high end VIP Lounge. Everyone that comes in this places thinks it is.
I have a friend that believes it should be, and he and I will get together here in a couple of weeks and try to put our heads together on how to convert it and make it happen.
I will move the office to a new location, I already have an offer for free. But to loose what I put into this place is a shame. It is not because were not good, or not advertising or trying its because, at this point now there are more than five services in the same area that do similar work.
But we are one of the only ones that does landscape so that part is opening up a little.
I feel worried, but nothing like the way I use to be in the States. I worried so much about things that is would make me physically and mentally ill.
Here for some reason, I know that I am in Gods hands, and I hope and have faith that something will come. I try my best to be strong and not break. I have moments of distress, and sometimes shed a tear or two. But I snap out of it and know that I came here alone with very little, and realize I have done much even in this short time.

I really hope that the bar goes through, It is a good way to retrieve the money I have invested in this place. There is one thing I know for sure in life you can depend on and its change. So I guess maybe I am going to have to go through yet another change in my life in order to succeed here.

Yesterday afternoon I spent on the beach lying in the sand and watching the surfers, it was around 4:00. The clouds had covered the sky no sun was shinning but it was warm and nice for resting and contemplating action on my life.
Clint and another friend of mine Ed, went for a long walk on the beach. The beach was full, lots of people. Ya know its kinda nice in a way that you can just do this and not feel guilty about it.
I think it was healthy for me to just get away for a moment and not be so in drenched with the frustration and worry.

Later Ed, Clint and I ate on another beach in Herradura. I had the entire fish with a little rice and veggies, Clint had Arroz con Camerones, and So did Ed.
After we had cafficitos, that is what they call a little coffee with Cafe Rica, its a liqueur that is like Kahlua. Made here though. Just a little in it makes it sweet and yummy.
I went home to lay on the sofa and watch a stupid episode of Hugh Hefner's DUMB BLOND BIMBOS!! god I am sorry but he is hideous! I watched it but was aggravated watching. You know its only status qou.

I slept well no elephants tromping last night. We have people staying in the house above us watching it for the owners. They are having a baby in San Jose and will return with the baby soon I PRAY. These people make so much noise, it literally sounds like heards of elephants.
We picked up Cristhian, tried to get a meeting with this architect that told me yesterday we would meet, but nothing yet.
And Called a couple of people for appointments.
TOday is the fourth of July, they do not celebrate here but, I think tonight is fireworks at one of the hotels. I am going to Roises then to the hotels to see who? then I may just go out with Rosie after. She is so bored lately too.
She called me and messaged me last night, begged me to come down and keep her company but I was tired and felt the body and mind needed to sleep.
So Tonight I will go!
Nothing exciting sorry people! Wish there was some juicy something I could write.. but then again I have children and well I gotta keep it decent!
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!