Its a beautiful day to wake up and hear the sounds of the tropical birds singing. Today is a good day, I went with a new friend/ client to the Cigar bar where I found several people I knew, eating all you could eat chicken wings and drinks. Its a good concept and it brings lots of people. Like a once a week dinner party with chicken Wings it was a really clear cool night. No wind no breeze just tropical feeling. Lots of people at the Cigar bar in West End. Interesting to me.. I ate and sat at the end alone looking out over the sea. The people ate drank and left ate drank and left, including my friend Clint. He left to meet someone so I stayed and finished the one beer I ordered. Came home t read emails and saw the new website sample that is not really what I was hoping for, in fact several disappointments last night in those emails, I'm hoping that today those disappointments turn into better results as the day go ons. One I don't know how to approach but I'm going to try.

So in a few days we will be back in Costa Rica, we have a Client there that wanted us to come and do the hotels for Christmas, plus I have an issue with my bank account there and it may be good to just once and for all close it out and with draw the money. Then begin an account here in order to move forward.

Life right now is good, I mean we still don't have TV nor radio but its all good. The sofas that were so scratchy and ugly I had slipped covered here in a micro fiber in suede. THEY DON'T HAVE SUCH THINGS AS SLIP COVERS HERE so I had to have someone sew them. Little spendy to be real but I'm happy to have it and I am happy to have her that knows how to do things be able to make a living and survive. Waldina is a good person and her helpers are great workers. Although don't expect to get it right away. I order like 3 months ago but finally last night it showed up. The sofas are beautiful now. Bone suede with bright orange throw pillows. Looks super! See there is another good thing!

Well not much more to say today I have to get ready I have an early morning event, and luncheon today. Hope it goes well!

Updates on Costa Rica coming.

MUY EMOTIONAL

I thought that yesterday was going to be an easy and great day, First I was suppose to be at work early because I had a meeting with three of the execs from Exxon. I had them at the hotel the day before doing a site tour on the property and dealing with there event issues. I thought It would be good to go in early and get the contract all ready to sign before they left. THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN. I got up so early but stayed on the computer too long and was late missed the bus. I called my driver I have which is here on the Island called Alex, Alex was hung over because the night before was his surprise birthday Party, so never the less I was late in my eyes in going in. I finally arrived at 8:15. When I arrived I had a note that another client was coming in to sign and deposit. I printed out all the details of the events for the up coming week, since I am leaving to Go back to Costa Rica to do the Los Suenos Resort in Herradura Costa Rica. Los Suenos is fabulous man..! in that I was thinking hurry and get everything you can done and in order before you leave. So I did, I walked around handing out the schedules of the upcoming weeks events to the chef, the Restaurant manager, and the I.T. man. Then met up with the girls from Exxon. We went over a few things. The GM showed up in the Office to add his comments and then they left.

Early in the week he and I had a disagreement on something my boss wanted me to do in accordance to the dealings with Exxon. I won't go into the details but I felt strongly against doing something he ask me to do. I was not happy when I left his office and he knew it, just then someone had walked in and asked what was going on I mention this person exactly how I said it to him and she ran to tell him I said that. I'T wasn't anything I didn't tell him directly to his face and he knew I was against his idea. I Mean I know this guys my boss but people do have there own minds, maybe mine is different alright but I do have judgement and I was totally against what he was pretty much demanding me to do. I gave him my point which he closed his ears to, and then did what he ask me to do. In saying all this, the whole issue was invalid after yesterday but it continued to be a thorn in his side. I manage to close the deal with Exxon, Although I was told its easy to sell the place I am working at, nothing to do with me period, and that I was pretty much a number of bad things. This whole thing pist him off and credit was not giving to me in fact I went through roughly 30 or more minutes of brow beating, a little cussing was in there, and some slanted name calling. I sat calm, I hardly reacted, when I did it was distorted by his reactions. I am curious about this man? I wonder if he had issues in other places in USA? is that why hes here? I mean he does have good ideas, comes with experience. Although earlier in the week I was told what does age have to do with a job? this was in reflection to how I felt on this very same issue. I just feel that having experience in something does benefit you in solving issues or doing the task RIGHT? Well I just was beat to death by this yesterday I decided to leave early after that. I felt like the whole day was upside down. It should have been a day where I was told WOW good job thank you and I hope you have a great week while I am gone.

SAD THING IS: He has some sort of object of hate toward me,I have addressed it as something he told me twice about someone else and the association of this other person with me. Ok I'm not feeling sorry for myself but I have experience in this, For some reason I HAVE BEEN THE OBJECT OF A FEW PEOPLES HATRED and have used me as the object and purely innocent, is it the look I have, is it the fact that I am talented and a little smart and some are very jealous of this? My mother knew she saw that this happened many times in growing up, I was a excelling person, and some people have envy WHY? I have no harm in me toward anyone to be honest. If your decent to me and good me I am good to you, If your rude and mean and down right hateful I respond in a way that is defensive. NORMAL.

I may be a lot of things but one thing I'm not is a cancer, nor a poison to anything. I know what I see and yes it has to be hard to be in his place, but treating people with out regard, telling you what your not, insinuating that you are this or that, is not how to win over people. I mean I don't think I ever treated anyone that has worked for me like this. I'm so down trodden lately.. I mean I have literally got four huge contracts that are signing.. producing. What is it when one person finds anything to attack you?

I feel really badly over this situation and it continues to get worse, attack after attack, what he may not realize is other people see it and they feel bad for me. They come to me and pet me and touch me and said they don't understand. I tried to explain to one person who is nearest to me at work, that I have had this before. I realize not everyone can love you, but to be in fear, stress and worried daily about saying anything is not the way to live. I'M CAREFUL I HARDLY SPEAK TO THIS MAN, it doesn't matter I can say thank you that was nice and get a response from him " OH NOW YOUR SARCASTIC" when in reality I thought it was nice.

Never the less its not fun, yesterday was a freaky day, I was suppose to go and look at a location for the new business doing floral, chocolate and decor and coffee, We have been planning this for more than 6 months, the location fell through yesterday, 2 blow.. Yesterday thank god is yesterday!

Woke up early today to rain and dark dreary looking weather, when I was invited to go swimming and hang out with a new friend, she called me last night has a spa here called BAUN SUERTE beautiful place look it up in Roatan, but I guess maybe later if it clears up.

Well I am gonna try to stick it out there, do what I can keep producing and when I am ready walk. I Love people, we can try to love all of them some just won't accept you.

Sounds of Parrots squawking and our cat purring

Roosters crowing in the distance, birds cheerfully singing today. The Parrots are all alarmed I don't no why?? And a lonely little rooster I can hear down near the beach is crowing desperately to wake up the sleeping dead. Its pretty still today, although I can see from my balcony a bank of massive storm clouds full and billowing, moving towards me. The sky is clear above me and the sounds of little bugs and birds are quite clear today that all are happy that the winds and the rains have move away for a while.

Yesterday I woke to see one cruise ship and while I waited for a ride to go to Infinity Bay Resort, West Bay Roatan. I saw another one come easing in. They move so slow but so powerfully.

I mean its quite the thing to see early in the morning, or late at night all lit up like a floating hotel or giant resort. Some are up to 14 story's or more high. Its beautiful in the early morning. I remember when my father or my mother would tell me that it was so pretty in the early morning hours and I use to think wow thats nice, and who cares? Its only for old people! So I guess I have arrived at the old people stage.

I Just love the morning, reason is. Calm most of the time.. peaceful, no noise from the outside world. And nature seems to be very alive in the early morning. All are working on finding there breakfast, trying to live another day, simple life process. Arise, eat and play.

Wouldn't that be grand? I have work almost my whole life, since I was very young 13 I believe. And I am about to begin again a design business here in Roatan. I'm sorry its my passion, I know that if you love or have enjoyment in something that you do to make money, you will be successful. Its hard to predict life isn't it? I mean just when you think you understand something happens and it all changes! I wasn't confused when I decided to come here, I was clear about what I wanted to do, but now I see that the need for my Floral Art and design is more in need here as the other idea I had as well.

A little detail about the new business Idea I am working on! It has Just about EVERYTHING I LOVE ( Remember my theory If you love what you do or you have passion for what you do you will succeed)

Great Coffee:

Coffee has been a big role in my life since I was about 10, my father drank it weak, my mother drank it strong. ITALIANS LIKE STRONG but my dad hated it.. I love it strong. We always drank in the afternoon's in our demitasse. Tiny little cups with the strongest coffee you can imagine, lots of sugar and a little cream if you will.

Years ago the only people who know or drank this were Turkish, Italians, Spaniards, Israelis, and other middle eastern countries folk. But now its common everyone knows about coffee. Some of the best Coffee I have ever had in my life came from Central America, Living in Costa Rica was a blessing when it came to the Coffee, CHEAP AND DELICIOUS cause of the prevalent amount of farms there, Now I find that some of the Honduran Coffee can compete. They are not as good as marketing the Coffee here as in Costa Rica, but I am going to get my hand in that area soon.

Chocolates:

Always had a love for chocolate, In Costa Rica I visit a couple of farms where the cacao grows and saw the old process of the beans and roast and the way of centuries of developing the Chocolate. The form we use now is very processed, in compared to the real state of the orginal use. I found in Honduras, that the Orginally Chocolate was grown here,by the Mayans. Its a whole beautiful history about the chocolate and soon I am going to the area to meet some of the growers to find a source for the chocolate I want to sell in the new business, I already have some of the coffee connections and was told that theses same families also grow the cacao. In Copan where the Mayan ruins are. THAT SHOULD BE very interesting! Few weeks ago I did a big event at Infinity, When I was finished with the decor a lady came over and complemented. Come to find out she lives in Copan and has a Hotel there with the coffee fields. I thought that was amazing as I was thinking this, I needed to meet someone who could connect me and I drew this to me.

Plants and Fresh Flowers:

They are life, they add to our environment, bring joy and happiness, color and fragrance and memories. Well the connection for the Flowers is an old friend of mine Eric Shibata, we have been in Contact now for several months trying to develop a plan to bring the best of the world here to Roatan. The best Floral and plants... Fresh Flowers that make people happy, send them to the cruise ships, use them for weddings, adorn Conventions that sometimes are dry of color.

LIFE it spreads happiness.. and gives so much pleasure.

Wine:

It is the passion of life, Wine is a pleasure that only wine lovers understand, being introduce to wine as a young girl I know pretty much a lot about it and one thing I know it goes to your head fast! its a different feeling to be drunk on wine! Wine is a good complement to the chocolate and with some bits of cheese wow great snack, something that I am sure everyone will enjoy.

Wine adds depth to life and insight to many problems, Wine is a healer, wine is a thinking tool, wine is a body relaxer, Wine is a love inducer. I LOVE WINE

Still the quietness is abound, soon I will hear phones ringing, people yelling and doors crashing, as I enter the job. In a few months time the soft sounds of the morning will be with me for longer periods and then the after noon and evening will be filled with the sounds of people enjoying cappuccinos, wine, chocolate and the smell of gorgeous flowers.

Absolutely Beautiful!/ Amor's and Pasciones

Waking up to Cruise ship passing the vista

This morning the sound of people talking below woke me up at 5:30 or so. I got up just in time to see one of the four cruise ships coming into port today. Roatan is certainly becoming a destination place. REASON FOR moving quickly on the wedding industry here. I am working on the business AGAIN.. God don't I ever give up?? We have a gal name Tori she is American and is doing the bookkeeping, administration, and web work,when things get rolling here. Clint has been doing sales and is actually doing very well with it. He has made sure he is contacting hotels, resorts and more to get them to know we are available for the first Fresh Flower design company in the island. Not only fresh flowers but we want to do Chocolate dipped goodies, and great coffees. We don't need a location right now, the floral work will come first and we can do many events, weddings, hotels and more with out that store. But to have a nice place to visit and hang out here with that beauty behind it would be really interesting.

We have actually about four jobs lined up now! and I am working at the resort doing my Sales and Catering job selling the events, booking the events, regulating the events and designing the events. Its quite a job, and its not my passion. But it is helping me move in the direction I need to in order to make it happen here! I think it is going to be just fine and I finally found the right place to position myself.

Now If I can just manage the strange things that always happen on this Island!

We are excited about the possibilities here and happy to be here! is just incredible at times to be working right on the beach front with super white sand and crystal clear seas.

Today as I stated earlier we have four not two as normal or one, but four cruise ships coming in. I am going into work early because of my conference with the group I book from BASF. Executives from Central American division .Then work on another big bid for a group that is coming in Nov called Gesso. Its a gas corp. The cruisers will arrive at ten. I have to prepare and area for the group for lunch so they are private and have seats and food ahead of the crowd. But today would be wonderful to be able to get away and buy food and things I need. The HOUSE IS EMPTY NOTHING IN THE WORLD TO EAT PERIOD! its bare.

Very hard to get around when you don't have transportation. I keep saying that the truck I want is coming, it hasn't shown up yet! DANG IT I need a car so bad.. but at this time not enough money to make it happen. Three or more years with out a car, you think I would be use to it. I mean walking is fine I do a ton of it. But when you need to run across the island to buy food cause there is none here. It makes it really rough.

Ok Well progressing on the living situation, little by little its starting to look like someone who knows something about beauty lives here, the house is all blue inside, not pretty ugly washed blue over natural wood, We repainted the kitchen in a beautiful tourqose color with seats of bone and blue shell print at the bar, the living room is a disaster, scratchy sofas ugly fabric and just the style and form is uncomfortable. I NEED FURNITURE TOO! i DID HAVE this lady make slip covers but when we tried to use them they didn't fit and they were a brown color when I asked for bone or off white. So I have to call her and get her to take it back and remake it. SHE I M SURE WONT BE happy. I laughed when I saw they didn't fit and the color was weird. Pretty common in Central America! but hey maybe we will get it in the next 6 months after waiting three months for them.

Well just a quick post today have to run and get ready to work, fill my eyes with half naked people today hope some are pretty!