Fourth of July Weekend Laferria and more

Well I meant to write earlier but just caught up in things the deaths of my friends families and well just thoughts of my own singleness here.

I have not felt like writing much as you can see, there has not been a whole lot of posts with trying to find work and all the other complications of life. Although I am really trying to stay on a positive vien..... But Today I was impressed to write a few things.

First the worst part then the rest on a less heavier subject.

I have two friends here who in the past weeks has suffered loses of there family. One was 29 years old with heart that just failed. The other was 5 years old with a problem in the brain. We never know when are time is to leave and go on.. The reason for our lives could be just to add to others or be some sort of benift to those we leave behind. I woke up this morning with that. The reason most of us are here is that there is something special about each person. Each has something different about them that is special and can change the lives of others by our presences.
Half the time I don't know what my purpose is here? Really... I dont know why I am living and what is the reason for me? I think on this because I was taught by my mother god rest this woman.. that we all have purpose and that we should find the purpose and live it to benefit the world and others.
Ok yeah I agree I want to help and be a benefit, but for me I really dont know sometimes what the heck I am for??? on this other subject with my friends. I know what the purpose of both the brother and son where for. The brother of my friend, was 29 years old, the heart just stopped. He was the support of the mother lived with her for all his life and was her close companion. I am sure he was a great suport and help to her and the family. He was a gift to his mother and brother.. He I believe for my friend is something he should treasure as a family to instill on the little one that is growing up as an example of how you should be with your parents. Some children after they are grown love the parents but don't stay in contact with them, don't see if they are in need of anything or are well, or ill or need anything.
This child was there for her... she was single no husband. Not that the son should or could take a place of a husband, it was just that he believe out of respect to make sure his mother was taken care of. He had family he carry out his life but lived under the same roof and was always there for her. She I hope will learn how to be strong from the experience of his actions and use it for herself. The brother my friend I hope learns that his brother was super special and to try to teach the little one and himself how to be more of a support to his mother who needs to feel the love of her children.
Her husband died many years back and she raised her children pretty much alone.. I can relate to this.
Now on the boy, Mind you this is my own feelings on this The boy had brain problems always something wrong for his short but long battle of 5 years of brain problems. HE was a plesant little boy always complimenting his mother telling her how beautiful she was, how much he loved her. And now never to be sad that he was with her. She went through a separation of the marriage, leaving her with 5 children to provide for. He was with her at work and at home and was some sort of support in his way for his mother... same as the 29 year old ( truely loved their mothers) when he past he left her a present. The memory of how strong this little one was... of how he was in pain and yet still found the strength at such a young age to compliment and encourage his mother. What a gift he was.. that she got to share this for 5 years. I called her told her to pass his love and his wonderful ways to other children and that he was her heart of hearts to know she was lucky in a way to get to experience something very difficult that would only make her a much more understanding person of life and to be a role model to the other children. I know that.. its difficult, I lost two brothers, my mother and father. I saw death in its face at the very moment on the three, my brother I was there at the moment the lights went out. My father too.. My Mother too.. So I know what it looks to see death.. I realize what all of them shared with me. And that I am a strong person for experienceing so many things of life and death.

I am the type that when my friends are down they call me to pick them up.. they call me to try to understand. I don't know all the answers but I manage to work thought an figure out a few things and be a help to them.

We all have experienced some sort of tragedy, I guess dealing with it is how we get on with our lives. Some people live in the tragedy a long time.. not healing from the pain they feel. Carrying this into the rest of there life and passing on the pain to many others. Some of us heal fast and move forward and take the tragedy and turn into something positive. THIS IS WHERE I WANT TO BE... using those experiences to do something good .

ok now lighter subjects:
La ferria.. I went this week in hopes to find a fruit called zapote, its that one I pictured that was brown like a potato outside and orange inside it taste like pumpkin pie to me..but to no avail none was available.. DARN!! I am craving it now. I bought mimones, and hicotes, Watermelon pinapple, and these wierd bananas that had a slight tinge of melon color almost peach color. They are torpedo shaped and taste wonderful! better than any banana I have ever ate. So been eating those daily now since Friday. It was so hot at the la ferria that I went in my bikini top and skirt. I was sweating like crazy even with that.. I only stayed about 20 minutes. I drank my fav sugar cane with orange juice fresh squeezed in front of you cane and orange.. then walked about and shopped.
Not many people.. its pretty sad in some cases here... not many people any where. The beaches are empty i sure hope this Surf competition brings business.

Then the weekend. Well several places were celebrating the USA independence day here. With four displays of fireworks on the beach. Beach Fires and parties in all the beach clubs. I attended one at Genesha. It was nice the owner knows me know so I was sort of treated like VIP. I know almost everyone that works there so it was very nice, I kinda felt like I had family. It was a nice party I had two drinks nothing more and danced to some really good music but two Djs from USA.
There were many people the place was packed they had fires on the beach and fireworks. I decided to go to monkey to see if Rossy was there but she has gone home after closing the coffee shop. Our normal is to go together at 12:15 at night on the weekends. But she had gone home I stayed for about an hour then went home.
Well again the woman next door had her weekend party.. I fell asleep about 4:30 TErribly bad I couldnt sleep I was on the internet for hours... She came home at 6 began the house music and it lasted till about 11:00 then repeated the next night. I slept good last night she was dead I suppose. I told the landlord THIS IS IT I CANT NOT TAKE HER DOG PEEING ALL IN FRONT OF MY APARTMENT AND THE MUSIC.
I play my rent on time yet they do nothing to her. Shes been there two years me only one in the up coming months. Oct to be exact. I am going to have a talk with the male part of the ownership here today. I just am very sick of the lack of respect this woman has. I refuse to talk with her period. I wont have fights with my niegbor.. I want him to deal with this. She wont listen to me anyway.. I ask several times to turn down the music but she says ok and goes in and turns it up.
So whats the point of arguing???
I hate to move my place is so pretty and very big.. close to everything. But I may be facing that so to save my self.
I read yesterday about sleep deprivation.. can cause DEATH an more... with sleep the body does not process sugar either well causing weight gain too. I was very shocked to read all the things that results from Sleep deprivations..

Well I hope this weeks brings work of any sort.. and more sun, more fun.. and happiness.. I need it and want it all!!! pura vida??