My Home computer that I use for photos, usually blogging, some business contracts, and the book I have been trying to write crashed yesterday. It got a very serious virus how is still not known. It may have been my friend who used it here a couple of days ago. I noticed it was moving slow, and it keep doing strange things. Or it could have been imported on some music I down loaded. But it crashed big time. Its a new computer by new I mean less than a year old. It deleted all my documents, ate windows, and more. I was just sick about this.
Ok lets see, Summing up the past year. There has been some very good things, and some extremely horrible things.
The Horrible first:
The mechanics with the car, the waterline breaking in the new office ruining a plasma and the bar, the owners of the mall never replaced it.
The St Regis issues, the Macaw horror story.
The car again, The Tony issues, the phone being stolen twice, the house broken into twice and stealing my computer,a little tv the only one I had, and some clothes.
The car getting stuck in the bridge hole, while piles of cars waited on a one way bridge, for someone to pull us out. The car sliding in the mountain and me falling into a huge colvert in the pitch dark, and the pouring rain. The Car again.... breaking down.
The land slide of the mountian of a client and us loseing alot of plant material, top soil half the mountain fell away and not to mention the money on that job.
My apartment flooding twice with foot or more of water in the middle of the night.
The car again.... Then the closing of the office and the loss of all the money that was invested in the building of it and the furnishing.
The car getting stolen smashed into the very resort I am working at, at one in the morning. Pretty much totaling it out. And last but not least now my computer crashed just at the end of year to top it all off!!! YEAH HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! FOR GOD SAKES IT HAS TO BE BETTER!!!
The good things:
I did some very nice design work, good experience, I met some incredible people, I saw and adventured to some pretty amazing places. I experinced some real tico living where poverty is the norm, a situation my friends and family could not understand where I slept on rugged floors, the kitchen consisted of dirt floors with no windows pretty much open with a fire for a stove and chickens were running through the house, light streaming through the rough wood walls, and the people who were incredibly happy, because they knew nothing more.
I was able to introduce a different life style to my best friend Clint, who is now effected by the way of living here and misses it dearly even though it is not easy and is not as sohpisticated as USA.
I ate food I never tried before, I lost alot of weight, became a little healther, had a surgery I wanted for some 28 years.
I learned how to dance, salsa, merenge, cumbia ,rumba. I flew in an open cockpit airplane, and saw spectacular sites. I road a boat to a very enchanted part of Costa Rica.
Visited San Andres Island, experienced many adventures with friends. Had my hands in a few projects, and began writting for the Jaco guide. Not much money was made, it was deffinately a loss year, a huge loss in money my whole life's worth, but a gain in life experiences, patients, faith, and learning how to be more humble.
Walking had shown me some other things about myself. Being forced to walk around , I see things I never saw before, the trees are so beautiful, sometimes the smells are bad here then in the evening you can smell the the ylang ylang. Its so fragrant, it makes me smile. I hear the macaws better and actually watch them fly. I learned that thinking when walking is good. I have tried to sort out my anger, fears, and frustrations.
I often think about my mother who, I claim was a wonderfull person, an amazing woman.. clever, witty, pretty darn smart with a third grade education. She would walk every day till she became to ill and died of cancer.
I need some answer's I want answers, as to how to regain my success, and survive.
That is my only goal for the upcoming year.. Oh yeah and three more good things happened today!!!
First, I met a man some three or more weeks ago, I had told him I would like some things from the USA when he returned, and I would give him the money. It was purfume, and couple of other items. I have not had purfume since Aug. He left them for me at Rosies, all wrapped in pretty Christmas paper.. I WAS SO HAPPY!!! one was Dolce and Gabana Light blue the other was be delicious by dkny. I have more I like but this was great!! then I picked up a Chunche guide here and found out THEY HAVE JAZZERCISE!!! I hope its the real thing I am checking it out tomorrow... How I am paying is another story, But that excites me! now the last thing.
I decided to walk back into town for the third time today, this evening after I dropped off the computer and realized I didn't have the code for the internet or a power cord. The guy recovered the system but no internet code,and the cord he did not return to me. So I knew I had to walk to the office some two miles or so from here and see if I had the code and cord.
Instead of going to the right which is the main road I decided to go left and take the cultisac way. When I looked to the left there was my crashed car???? in the lot next door??? I didn't pay to have it hauled here, nor do I know when it was put there but its there.
Some paid to have it towed here and didn't tell me. I wanted this so its safer and closer so when
I get someone to buy it its right here.. well someone did,it may have been Angely, but I don't know. I said yesterday the car is getting resolved maybe I said it ten or more times to myself not knowing how. It not quite resolved but its closer than it was yesterday...
Well Happy NEW YEAR I sure hope your past year was better than mine and that the future year is a hell of alot better than mine!!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Christmas Day in Manuel Antonio, and My Clients house
THIS IS ONE OF THE COVES IN MANUEL ANTONIO
This is just spectacular the water is warm
This is Playa Escondido, near the LOS SUENOS
This is Playa Escondido, near the LOS SUENOS
This wall is huge, hand sculpted, stone all done in panels and then peiced together
This is a painted panel as you walk into my clients house but this is an example of how homes can be done here in COSTA RICA
This home is all open , the area here is bbq with bar, but there is more than one bar in this home
This is a painted panel as you walk into my clients house but this is an example of how homes can be done here in COSTA RICA
This home is all open , the area here is bbq with bar, but there is more than one bar in this home
Hot tub
Example of the bamboo ceilings that are common here, JUST BEAUTIFUL!!!
If anyone is interested in Buying property here please contact me, or if you want to come and visit please contact me, I can set you up with whatever you need. I have so many connections, now and I get great discounts because I do speak very good spanish.
Example of the bamboo ceilings that are common here, JUST BEAUTIFUL!!!
If anyone is interested in Buying property here please contact me, or if you want to come and visit please contact me, I can set you up with whatever you need. I have so many connections, now and I get great discounts because I do speak very good spanish.
Marianna.love@gmail.com
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Christmas Day
It is Christmas day, It was a nice day after all. I wanted to go to Manuel Antonio to the beach like Clint and I did last year. So I had met this family who were here from the south I we invited them last night for Rosies Christmas Eve dinner, that OF COURSE I ended up cooking. Here they celebrate on the eve of Christmas. Around 11:00 is when things begin. I had invited Joe, and Ken two men I met four days ago who came to try to develop a new business here. We have spent some time together as well. During the day Vorna Called and I met with him.
I had explained right off the bat that I had dinner plans and that he needs to get it straight that Do not want to be involved with him. But he does not get the hint. He is constantly saying suggestive things, even around a group of people that we shared the Christmas eve Sunset with.
I told him about the dinner, he asked if he could come so I of course said I am sure its ok.
When I arrived at the coffee shop, I began preparing and then people came. He was first.
I paid no extra attention to him other than being polite. It turned out to be a very nice evening. We all had a great time, I worked very hard helping waiting on people and cooking.
In the end This man was jealous and accused me of having something with one of the other. He got possesive, and said some things that were hurtful, after I had done everything I could to be attentive to everyone.
He did call and left messages today to ask if I was angry, actually I was more hurt by the put downs. He was angry that I want not to be involved with him. harrassment is the last thing I need. I did not return the calls today. I will address it tomorrow.
The reason to address it is because this family I met, decided they would rent a car and we would all go to Manuel Antonio.
Roise too, Ken and Joe. Steam boat, Joel, Bobbie and Jenifer, Rosie ended up taking her car So Joe and Ken and Rosie and I rode first while the family followed.
It was cloudy and they were late in leaving by the time we left it was after 11:00.
We stayed on the beach for several hours, we saw so many monkeys, Racoons, that came right up to us. That part was very nice. We also saw sloths in the trees. It was a quiet day really Rosie and I talked a little and shared time with that Family and Joe and Ken.
We drove back and watched the Christmas Sunset, nothing like yesterday it was stunning yesterday. Then we went to a Sea food place and order a light dinner. In the end of the evening I had talk to my son, and his girlfriend and Kelsey. I went down to Rosies for a couple of hours and had a coffee. Talked to the Family that showed up too. Then Vorna showed up, but only said hello.. I could see he felt guilty for the things he said.
I left and came back home. It was a very strange Christmas day.
Tomorrow, I must have hope that the resolution for the car happens.
Merry Christmas
I had explained right off the bat that I had dinner plans and that he needs to get it straight that Do not want to be involved with him. But he does not get the hint. He is constantly saying suggestive things, even around a group of people that we shared the Christmas eve Sunset with.
I told him about the dinner, he asked if he could come so I of course said I am sure its ok.
When I arrived at the coffee shop, I began preparing and then people came. He was first.
I paid no extra attention to him other than being polite. It turned out to be a very nice evening. We all had a great time, I worked very hard helping waiting on people and cooking.
In the end This man was jealous and accused me of having something with one of the other. He got possesive, and said some things that were hurtful, after I had done everything I could to be attentive to everyone.
He did call and left messages today to ask if I was angry, actually I was more hurt by the put downs. He was angry that I want not to be involved with him. harrassment is the last thing I need. I did not return the calls today. I will address it tomorrow.
The reason to address it is because this family I met, decided they would rent a car and we would all go to Manuel Antonio.
Roise too, Ken and Joe. Steam boat, Joel, Bobbie and Jenifer, Rosie ended up taking her car So Joe and Ken and Rosie and I rode first while the family followed.
It was cloudy and they were late in leaving by the time we left it was after 11:00.
We stayed on the beach for several hours, we saw so many monkeys, Racoons, that came right up to us. That part was very nice. We also saw sloths in the trees. It was a quiet day really Rosie and I talked a little and shared time with that Family and Joe and Ken.
We drove back and watched the Christmas Sunset, nothing like yesterday it was stunning yesterday. Then we went to a Sea food place and order a light dinner. In the end of the evening I had talk to my son, and his girlfriend and Kelsey. I went down to Rosies for a couple of hours and had a coffee. Talked to the Family that showed up too. Then Vorna showed up, but only said hello.. I could see he felt guilty for the things he said.
I left and came back home. It was a very strange Christmas day.
Tomorrow, I must have hope that the resolution for the car happens.
Merry Christmas
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Dreary Sunday
It was Dreary yesterday and now again today Sunday.I usually like to try to beach it on Sunday. But I guess not today. It sprinkled earlier about 8:30, so maybe it will clear up later on. But Right now its dreary. Not cold nice actually.
Yesterday was a simple day. I got up around 8:00, Joswea another friend of mine came by in the Morning to see how I was. He was the one I saw last week at the Malecone, at Sunset. He showed up with breakfast and visited me for a couple hours. He feels concerned, that I am not eating much so he was thoughtfull and brought something by. We watched a show on the tele, and then he went home.
Angely has not called. So maybe not? I like him but who knows about these things. I called him the night I baked to ask him to come down and have some pastries, but he was occupied. Its only a half block from where I was. I was going to ask him for dinner. But when I waited two hours and he didn't show. I just messaged him saying I am going home.
Not a word since.
So later in the day yesterday I walked into the office to check it out.
They had an invitation to the Wyndahm hotel office grand opening. Its a new of course another project being sold here in Jaco. Wyndahm Is a first class operation, they are selling the beach front condos beginning at 350 thousand. Its fourteen floors, In 2009 is the opening.
We all got invited to the office party and it was very nice. Hor de orves, and wine and drinks. The presentation was very impressive.
I met one of Century's clients there who was wanting to meet me, I thought for business but it was for otherwise.
I NEED BUSINESS!! I don't need another admirer... Well he is a nice man, Vorna, is his name.
He asked me out during the party, I said yes, But when he came to get me he was dressed in the same clothes as when I saw him earlier. I was dressed very nice. Its holiday even though here you don't see it or feel it I wanted to dress nice. I suggested we go to sushi, but he first took me to his room. I really felt uncomfortable, He wanted me to drink some rum, but I said I was fine.
After 20 minutes I said hey lets go and eat!! so we did, and he sort of talked alot about his divorce, and the ex, the other ex.. well it went on and on. I was bored. I ate and ordered Dessert!!! he ate most of it but it was good, Tempora fried bananas with Ice cream, and chocolate sauce with a few strawberries! I was more involved with the dinner and dessert than him.
He wanted to rush off and go back to the room. It was still early like 9:00 the town barely is waking up. I talked to Kevin for a minute and I could see my date was wanting to leave he walked off while Kevin and I chatted, it was only a few seconds.
I didn't want to go back to his room. Although it was a nice location right on the beach, I was dressed so nice, to nice to go and sit in his room and well!!! I knew what he was aiming at.
I didn't want to drink, I had a diet coke. It was a little chilly out, So I got one of the bed covers and we laid out by the pool in the lounge chairs and looked at the stars. He fell asleep, Then so did I, When I woke up it was like 3:50 in the morning. He was in the room.
He did try earlier to get me to frisky with him. BUT I WANT BUSINESS, he just bought several locations and one is a hotel that desparately needs renovation. He and I talked about it, he is going to invest alot of money in it and I said and of course your hiring me to do the renovation? he said he wasn't sure. But he was sure he was going to try to do something else with me! I was strong and didn't budge. I want the job not other things.
So when I woke I told him I was going home, he insisted I sleep there and he wouldn't touch me but I called a cab and went home. He is probably mad and maybe I blew the deal. But I just hate it when I get put into a position where sex is the key to the whole deal, then you get involved and nothing happens anyway.
He is Iranian, he played his arabic music the whole time. Very strong personality and mostly talked about his properties he bought and his ex's that was it really not much interaction with me or about things he likes or does.
He questioned me when I left, are you alright. yes I was fine but I just wanted to go to my own home. I felt sleezy staying in a hotel with a man I just met. I don't know if he is going to call but I feel like I should get dressed and go to Rosies which is where he said he was going to eat breakfast and try to save the deal. He wanted me to see the hotel today.
He is going to turn it into a Hooka bar, with rooms for rent. I never heard of this but he said in LOS ANGELES it is becoming very popular. I told him I belly dance, he said yes with belly dancers. The people here like the arabic music so it may be a great idea.
I may just do that, but god how do I get around the other part???
When you feel uncomfortable, it not good.
Well the sun is coming out so I packed the bathing suit and off I go walking into town, I make sure to call him later or make a call to try to get him to understand I want work.
I can tell he is very use to getting every thing he wants, He is a typical Los Angeles man, stressed, rushed, and well better not say!!
Off to the beach I hope!!! I know every one out there in the USA is running around like Chickens with there heads cut off, Trying to get ready for Christmas. In a way I kinda miss it, but in most ways I am happy I don't have that pressure. Still don't know what I am doing Christmas day. Maybe nothing?
Yesterday was a simple day. I got up around 8:00, Joswea another friend of mine came by in the Morning to see how I was. He was the one I saw last week at the Malecone, at Sunset. He showed up with breakfast and visited me for a couple hours. He feels concerned, that I am not eating much so he was thoughtfull and brought something by. We watched a show on the tele, and then he went home.
Angely has not called. So maybe not? I like him but who knows about these things. I called him the night I baked to ask him to come down and have some pastries, but he was occupied. Its only a half block from where I was. I was going to ask him for dinner. But when I waited two hours and he didn't show. I just messaged him saying I am going home.
Not a word since.
So later in the day yesterday I walked into the office to check it out.
They had an invitation to the Wyndahm hotel office grand opening. Its a new of course another project being sold here in Jaco. Wyndahm Is a first class operation, they are selling the beach front condos beginning at 350 thousand. Its fourteen floors, In 2009 is the opening.
We all got invited to the office party and it was very nice. Hor de orves, and wine and drinks. The presentation was very impressive.
I met one of Century's clients there who was wanting to meet me, I thought for business but it was for otherwise.
I NEED BUSINESS!! I don't need another admirer... Well he is a nice man, Vorna, is his name.
He asked me out during the party, I said yes, But when he came to get me he was dressed in the same clothes as when I saw him earlier. I was dressed very nice. Its holiday even though here you don't see it or feel it I wanted to dress nice. I suggested we go to sushi, but he first took me to his room. I really felt uncomfortable, He wanted me to drink some rum, but I said I was fine.
After 20 minutes I said hey lets go and eat!! so we did, and he sort of talked alot about his divorce, and the ex, the other ex.. well it went on and on. I was bored. I ate and ordered Dessert!!! he ate most of it but it was good, Tempora fried bananas with Ice cream, and chocolate sauce with a few strawberries! I was more involved with the dinner and dessert than him.
He wanted to rush off and go back to the room. It was still early like 9:00 the town barely is waking up. I talked to Kevin for a minute and I could see my date was wanting to leave he walked off while Kevin and I chatted, it was only a few seconds.
I didn't want to go back to his room. Although it was a nice location right on the beach, I was dressed so nice, to nice to go and sit in his room and well!!! I knew what he was aiming at.
I didn't want to drink, I had a diet coke. It was a little chilly out, So I got one of the bed covers and we laid out by the pool in the lounge chairs and looked at the stars. He fell asleep, Then so did I, When I woke up it was like 3:50 in the morning. He was in the room.
He did try earlier to get me to frisky with him. BUT I WANT BUSINESS, he just bought several locations and one is a hotel that desparately needs renovation. He and I talked about it, he is going to invest alot of money in it and I said and of course your hiring me to do the renovation? he said he wasn't sure. But he was sure he was going to try to do something else with me! I was strong and didn't budge. I want the job not other things.
So when I woke I told him I was going home, he insisted I sleep there and he wouldn't touch me but I called a cab and went home. He is probably mad and maybe I blew the deal. But I just hate it when I get put into a position where sex is the key to the whole deal, then you get involved and nothing happens anyway.
He is Iranian, he played his arabic music the whole time. Very strong personality and mostly talked about his properties he bought and his ex's that was it really not much interaction with me or about things he likes or does.
He questioned me when I left, are you alright. yes I was fine but I just wanted to go to my own home. I felt sleezy staying in a hotel with a man I just met. I don't know if he is going to call but I feel like I should get dressed and go to Rosies which is where he said he was going to eat breakfast and try to save the deal. He wanted me to see the hotel today.
He is going to turn it into a Hooka bar, with rooms for rent. I never heard of this but he said in LOS ANGELES it is becoming very popular. I told him I belly dance, he said yes with belly dancers. The people here like the arabic music so it may be a great idea.
I may just do that, but god how do I get around the other part???
When you feel uncomfortable, it not good.
Well the sun is coming out so I packed the bathing suit and off I go walking into town, I make sure to call him later or make a call to try to get him to understand I want work.
I can tell he is very use to getting every thing he wants, He is a typical Los Angeles man, stressed, rushed, and well better not say!!
Off to the beach I hope!!! I know every one out there in the USA is running around like Chickens with there heads cut off, Trying to get ready for Christmas. In a way I kinda miss it, but in most ways I am happy I don't have that pressure. Still don't know what I am doing Christmas day. Maybe nothing?
Friday, December 21, 2007
Cheese Cakes lemon Merenge Pies and Cinnamon rolls
Ok I got the first reorder, I baked all day in the land lords house...!! Running up and down two flights of stairs, fighting with my merenge, because it is raining it woudn't FLUFF! After beating and beating, by hand I finally gave up and threw it out and starter over a dozen more whites, It worked but not like it would if it wasn't humid. They look beautiful!
Rosie is loving my ideas, she has me making other food for one of her other places, and in January she wants Lasagne and other little bits of salty foods with coffee for the afternoon caffecittos. Its not easy the Cheese cakes went perfect today as well as the cinnamon Rolls , but I think repetition will make it go fast from now on.
I am tired actually I am not use to baking so much. But I felt so good.. I actually had a dream about my mom, we talked in the dream. She was happy that I was taking after her in this? HOW STRANGE I thought, but I felt so happy when Iwoke up as if I had seen her.
This woman would bake till dawn, study her receipes for days.. She did the most beautiful pastries.. so MAMA I KNOW you would be proud of me.
I never thought I would be this, but hey its better than sitting here worrying about how I will make it. I won't make much, but ya never know? it could turn into something really good!
I am very thankfull for all the talents I have, I am fortunate, that I can be resourceful.
Well my friend Angely call yesterday, he is the guy Iwent to dinner with last week, and he visited me one day last week as well and brought all sorts of goodies for us to eat. He called and asked what I was doing in the evening. I told him I was meeting with Rosie for an order, that when I was done I would walk to his place and he if he would could take me home.
So I did, he was pleased, This guy is certainly different. Not gorgeous, but nice body
SWEET PERSONALITY. He is helping with the car, he has found a solution and I am very happy.
When he showed up he saw I had light bulbs on the table, he asked Where they went, with out me asking he got up and changed all the bulbs in the house. He fixed a whole that was in the ceiling that I couldn't reach. It is the opening to the ceiling where they installed the cable. I was shocked? then I fixed us some goodies, When I went to the fridge to see what I had to drink, there was nothing.. I said oh no tengo nada! He got his keys left and came back with ice and sodas. I didn't ask him to do any of that... I think I may be on to something good here????
I hope, he sure is a nice man. ITS ABOUT TIME, but I am not going to pursue, if he likes me he will continue if not a great friend will be welcomed.
We talked today, he said bessos when we ended the conversation, that means kisses... so maybe he does like me?
I bought him a card to say thanks for all the nice things he has done so far. Maybe Tomorrow I will invite him for dinner?
A little Christmas surprise for him.
Well I can not wait to see The faces at Rosies when I show up with all these goodies!
Rosie is loving my ideas, she has me making other food for one of her other places, and in January she wants Lasagne and other little bits of salty foods with coffee for the afternoon caffecittos. Its not easy the Cheese cakes went perfect today as well as the cinnamon Rolls , but I think repetition will make it go fast from now on.
I am tired actually I am not use to baking so much. But I felt so good.. I actually had a dream about my mom, we talked in the dream. She was happy that I was taking after her in this? HOW STRANGE I thought, but I felt so happy when Iwoke up as if I had seen her.
This woman would bake till dawn, study her receipes for days.. She did the most beautiful pastries.. so MAMA I KNOW you would be proud of me.
I never thought I would be this, but hey its better than sitting here worrying about how I will make it. I won't make much, but ya never know? it could turn into something really good!
I am very thankfull for all the talents I have, I am fortunate, that I can be resourceful.
Well my friend Angely call yesterday, he is the guy Iwent to dinner with last week, and he visited me one day last week as well and brought all sorts of goodies for us to eat. He called and asked what I was doing in the evening. I told him I was meeting with Rosie for an order, that when I was done I would walk to his place and he if he would could take me home.
So I did, he was pleased, This guy is certainly different. Not gorgeous, but nice body
SWEET PERSONALITY. He is helping with the car, he has found a solution and I am very happy.
When he showed up he saw I had light bulbs on the table, he asked Where they went, with out me asking he got up and changed all the bulbs in the house. He fixed a whole that was in the ceiling that I couldn't reach. It is the opening to the ceiling where they installed the cable. I was shocked? then I fixed us some goodies, When I went to the fridge to see what I had to drink, there was nothing.. I said oh no tengo nada! He got his keys left and came back with ice and sodas. I didn't ask him to do any of that... I think I may be on to something good here????
I hope, he sure is a nice man. ITS ABOUT TIME, but I am not going to pursue, if he likes me he will continue if not a great friend will be welcomed.
We talked today, he said bessos when we ended the conversation, that means kisses... so maybe he does like me?
I bought him a card to say thanks for all the nice things he has done so far. Maybe Tomorrow I will invite him for dinner?
A little Christmas surprise for him.
Well I can not wait to see The faces at Rosies when I show up with all these goodies!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Taking it a little easy toda
I had to take it a little easy today, I walked so much yesterday that the leg that was injured some almost two years ago on my Birthday, was so swollen last night I could hardly move the ankle.
I rested today with up for a couple of hours. Then I couldn't stand it, I had to clean the house. It was not really messy, but the weather in the past couple of months has caused alot of mold everywhere.
The whole place smelled moldy. The leather the bed, everything. So I cleaned like a mad woman and now the house is spotless. Its so hot I was sweating like crazy but that kinda felt good.
Its late, now but I need to drop off the laundry, get some light bulbs which here is not a simple thing. you have to go to a hardware store to find what you want. Its not like the states that you can run into a store and they have everything!
Off I go, walking again.
Yesterday I had two other people come to check out the car they both said similar things. It might take around 4 to 5 thousand dollars to fix but the electrical is not determined. One offered me 5 thousand for the car the other wants to try to find someone to give me 8 thousand but it has to wait till after the holiday.
I feel worried, but I am trying to be positive in all aspects.
It has to get settled but here everything is so slow.
Its parked in front of the kids mothers house that crashed it with hopes that she would push the kids to get moving on it, but I have heard not one word.
Trying to do simple things is a task here, so this is super complicated.
The guy I met that is a manager of this little hotel and mini mart is really trying to help me. He seems like a genuine person but I am so cautious.
Now about the pastries there a hit, but no money yet. Maybe I have a little new business here. I thought when I get a reorder I may try to borrow someone's car and go to the better places and give samples and see if they want to order too.
None of My holiday decor has sold. I spent nearly $500 bucks, So today My plan is go to Nelsen ask Rodrigo to load them up take them to Rosie's discount them and at least try to recoupe some of the money. I am not a crafter, Its professional pieces like you would see in a magazine. They don't have them displayed at all so no one is asking.
I have no plans for Christmas, the only thing I wanted to to was go south with my friend Kevin and see a new area, but it doesn't look as of now that I have a ride. Its six hours away. We could take the bus, this is too much for me right now.
I need a huge miracle. IT COULD HAPPEN! I have hope. I won't give up.
Yesterday I waited all day for the people with the garden but no one showed up. I was dressed for hiking, it was too hot to walk back and change.
What I had done was meet the men for the car it was a little over a mile or so on that, then walked back to the office another mile. The later walked to Nelsens to find out about the holiday decor, then again to the office. Later that evening walked through town then home. I cleaned up rested and tried to put on some tall shoes, to go to Rosies to visit. She called. I eneded up breaking down and taking a taxi, then I had a ride home late from a friend.
Right now there is alot of pain but I have to go and take care of thes little things. It will make me feel better about my house and that things are in better order. Dirty clothes is an issue, its heavy hard to carry, but I have no washer or dryer here, and most people wash by hand and hang dry. In my apartment there is no space for this or lines to hang the clothes from.
Nothing special to say today, just simply need to press forward and think positive, wish for the things I want and pray it all happens.
I rested today with up for a couple of hours. Then I couldn't stand it, I had to clean the house. It was not really messy, but the weather in the past couple of months has caused alot of mold everywhere.
The whole place smelled moldy. The leather the bed, everything. So I cleaned like a mad woman and now the house is spotless. Its so hot I was sweating like crazy but that kinda felt good.
Its late, now but I need to drop off the laundry, get some light bulbs which here is not a simple thing. you have to go to a hardware store to find what you want. Its not like the states that you can run into a store and they have everything!
Off I go, walking again.
Yesterday I had two other people come to check out the car they both said similar things. It might take around 4 to 5 thousand dollars to fix but the electrical is not determined. One offered me 5 thousand for the car the other wants to try to find someone to give me 8 thousand but it has to wait till after the holiday.
I feel worried, but I am trying to be positive in all aspects.
It has to get settled but here everything is so slow.
Its parked in front of the kids mothers house that crashed it with hopes that she would push the kids to get moving on it, but I have heard not one word.
Trying to do simple things is a task here, so this is super complicated.
The guy I met that is a manager of this little hotel and mini mart is really trying to help me. He seems like a genuine person but I am so cautious.
Now about the pastries there a hit, but no money yet. Maybe I have a little new business here. I thought when I get a reorder I may try to borrow someone's car and go to the better places and give samples and see if they want to order too.
None of My holiday decor has sold. I spent nearly $500 bucks, So today My plan is go to Nelsen ask Rodrigo to load them up take them to Rosie's discount them and at least try to recoupe some of the money. I am not a crafter, Its professional pieces like you would see in a magazine. They don't have them displayed at all so no one is asking.
I have no plans for Christmas, the only thing I wanted to to was go south with my friend Kevin and see a new area, but it doesn't look as of now that I have a ride. Its six hours away. We could take the bus, this is too much for me right now.
I need a huge miracle. IT COULD HAPPEN! I have hope. I won't give up.
Yesterday I waited all day for the people with the garden but no one showed up. I was dressed for hiking, it was too hot to walk back and change.
What I had done was meet the men for the car it was a little over a mile or so on that, then walked back to the office another mile. The later walked to Nelsens to find out about the holiday decor, then again to the office. Later that evening walked through town then home. I cleaned up rested and tried to put on some tall shoes, to go to Rosies to visit. She called. I eneded up breaking down and taking a taxi, then I had a ride home late from a friend.
Right now there is alot of pain but I have to go and take care of thes little things. It will make me feel better about my house and that things are in better order. Dirty clothes is an issue, its heavy hard to carry, but I have no washer or dryer here, and most people wash by hand and hang dry. In my apartment there is no space for this or lines to hang the clothes from.
Nothing special to say today, just simply need to press forward and think positive, wish for the things I want and pray it all happens.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Rosies Party on Monday and walking home
Leda, Raquel, Luis, Alysia, Rosie
Raquel Saluteing Rosie
I ate a small pargo about the six inches long and a tiny little salad and then walked to the coffee shop in Galeon. That is where Kevin works. I stopped for a while talked and then walked to the house. It was about 8:30 Ate a litte left overs I had and fell asleep.
The dang dogs this morning from five oclock on were barking there heads off like a bunch of wild pack dogs. There ia quite a few at the corner neighbors house and I mean they were wild this morning. So it woke me up pretty early, I laid there but they continued so I got up made coffee and got ready. To meet this guy but now its past 10:30 I walked here fast only took me 25 minutes today. Its a long way but I put some old tennis on and shorts and practically ran.
Still waiting for him,
Raquel Saluteing Rosie
IT was a nice party, I hope she is Happy! the weather was perfect, no rain and so cool. Now its getting super hot this is our summer.
Yester day nothing seems to come together, only my story for the Jaco Guide. I wasn't in an inspiring mood so I am sure its not that great! but I did it.. I spent most of the day in the office emailing and writting. I had a visitor at the end of the day it was a florist here in town, who wants me to colaborate on a botanical Garden. Sort of a public effort, and a place for Tourists to come and enjoy.
I like the idea and I know I could do a really cool place. But its finding investors. We have the property according to this guy. He said he thought about me directly and knew I would be the right one to contact to design it and make it happen. But I need investors, I want another investor for my orginal idea before I came to Costa Rica. I want my Bella Esperanza, this was a dream I had about this coffee pastry and some food house. I know the plan I have it on paper I drew it up some four years ago.
This Morning when I got up I had an email from Dick Voles, telling me to be positive, to not look at the disasters I have had, and honestly I have been trying super hard to do exactly that. Bella Esperanza means BEAUTIFUL HOPE. These were words that came to me, and I had no idea at the time what they meant. Bella Is Italian for beautiful, Esperanza is Spanish for Hope. This was before I knew much spanish. Weather or not its a good Idea I don't care. Its something that was in my heart for a year, I drew it up one day when I was working in my garden.
I had a sort of botanical Garden in my home, It was lovely. I worked it in all year long twice a week in winter and almost everyday in summer. This is where the idea came to me, I saw the whole thing in my head. Later I dreamed about it and the ideas formulated.
My son is a chef, I know how it will work. ITs hard work but it would be something for him, his family, and myself. lastly.
I am trying everything I can to think of ways to be strong, and how to recoupe. This business is a tough one but is well needed here.
When everyone ate my pastries they died!! they were saying oh my god Marianna, wow! I learned all this from my mother, I give her credit for it all. She was the best ever.. My mother could do anything and did it very well.
So now I follow after that.
Nine of the 13 people who ate my food all said you need to open a place or something?
It would be a good idea, hard work but good.
So now I am on this kick , but I want to see this property for the botanical garden, wouldn't be swet if it was close and incorporate bella? but Down town is best here where all the foot traffic is.
Now onto the yesterday, It was just as I said nothing coming together. I started to walk home around 5:00 when I notice how nice the sky looked. I decided to go a place that Cristhian and I would go for Sunset. Malacone, So I walked over the bridge and through the parking lot of the gym. It leads you right to the beach.
I went upstairs and sat alone only one person was there a Canadian guy I see often around town. He was drinking a beer, the sun was so beautiful. So I order one too.
I love the mechiladas, I got my camera out to take a photo of the sunset, when I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was a friend of my Jose, he wispered in my ear no flash.. he doesn't speak much english but I had no idea it was him I didn't look at him I was admiring the sunseta Then I looked it was Jose, he bought me another beer. We we chatted for a while, he asked me what I was doing on Christmas. I said nothing.. he said he had to work all day but he was going to buy me a gift. I thought ok, I am not sure I believed it but that was a nice gesture. He talked to me and hugged me I never said how I felt but he could feel it. Said not to worry that Tomorrow was a new day.
I ate a small pargo about the six inches long and a tiny little salad and then walked to the coffee shop in Galeon. That is where Kevin works. I stopped for a while talked and then walked to the house. It was about 8:30 Ate a litte left overs I had and fell asleep.
The dang dogs this morning from five oclock on were barking there heads off like a bunch of wild pack dogs. There ia quite a few at the corner neighbors house and I mean they were wild this morning. So it woke me up pretty early, I laid there but they continued so I got up made coffee and got ready. To meet this guy but now its past 10:30 I walked here fast only took me 25 minutes today. Its a long way but I put some old tennis on and shorts and practically ran.
Still waiting for him,
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
I did it, and then a story you have to hear
I began baking for Rosie's place about 8:30 am when I realized I didn't have a few things. Got dressed walked to the Frutastica, and saw all sorts of road blocks. I was curious but didn't know what it was about.
Often there are road blocks here, checking passports, and the retevy on the cars. This is a sort of registration.
Came back and fought with my oven. It would not stay lit, I had three cheesecakes made and ready to go in, I had all the pastry dough made and resting in the fridge. All day I fought untill Finally Roberto my landlord came down and I told him about it after checking for a half hour he decided to let me use his upstairs. Now imagine I went up and down all day checking loading unloading and preparing for Rosie.
Around 5:30 I was finished, and called her to come and get me. It was her birthday but we talked earlier about making these for her to begin selling. Just another way of me keeping busy so I don't loose it completly.
Nothing going on no work and not much in the bush.
But I hope everyday that MONEY COMES IN ONE FORM OR ANOTHER. Weather it be work or new project or new idea some way to bring something in.
So Rosie arrives, we load up its getting dark around 6:00 now. I was suppose to cook for almost 12 people.
She wanted chicken Marsala, Armenian rice pilaf and and Italian salad that I made for her before. Its with the mushrooms and parmesean, the pilaf she ate and died for it. Also the Marsala.. so After that all day I went and cook in the hot little service kitchen in her place.
It was tough because they had so many orders and there is very little room. So I found myself waiting and moving and waiting and then cooking it was a mess but I did it!!
While we were enjoying our dinner, talking laughing and cutting up. The news came on.
Some one earlier had said had you heard the news about Charles Boyd? that he had been arrested?
Charles is the guy that I was trying to do the big landscape job for, he and his wife, but now I know its not his wife.. gave me such a hard time. He asked me to take his name off the internet at one point and stop blogging about what I was doing at this house. It ended up totally bad sistuaion, And I was very angry that I took on the job and knew from the beginigng wasn't going to be good.
Well he got arrested for armed robbery, asault with a deadly weapon, drug trafficing, and false passport from Mexico.
I wont go into the details of my dealings with him but my assistant Clint, and Cristhian both witnessed a bad situtation with the brother and I who he looks scary than Charles. Clint wittnessed him bad mouthing me when he hardly knew me.
The dealings with this man was really harsh, I knew something was seriously wrong when one day he met me in the road to give me some cash.
He was talking to someone on the phone and told them were road blocks this was back in Sept. He said he had to change his route. I thought that was curious because he was driving a new car, had a big new house, a big new office and loads of cash. If you have a new car there is hardly a worry about road blocks they simply check the retevy, your passport and if its good you go nothing more.
I saw the video of him he looked very drawn, scary, and well some of the people here are shocked. I wasn't at all not kidding. In fact I thought oh oh not again. Not that it has anything to do with me at all, but several times in my life I have had people do horrendous things to me or about me. And soon they become fired, arrested, and other circumstances that are shocking.
You never really know someone do you? the dirty little secrets we all keep. I don't have many but we all have something we don't want to share with others. BUT THIS WAS CRAZY... he was so public, and tried with all the business people to be so on target, so professional .
Another reason to be ever so carefull about who you trust and allow into your life. I learned a big something today. For sure the next time REGARDLESS OF HOW MUCH I NEED MONEY, I will never go against my gut feelings again.
That could have been a really bad situation, not just a loss of money but maybe a loss of more than my life.
Often there are road blocks here, checking passports, and the retevy on the cars. This is a sort of registration.
Came back and fought with my oven. It would not stay lit, I had three cheesecakes made and ready to go in, I had all the pastry dough made and resting in the fridge. All day I fought untill Finally Roberto my landlord came down and I told him about it after checking for a half hour he decided to let me use his upstairs. Now imagine I went up and down all day checking loading unloading and preparing for Rosie.
Around 5:30 I was finished, and called her to come and get me. It was her birthday but we talked earlier about making these for her to begin selling. Just another way of me keeping busy so I don't loose it completly.
Nothing going on no work and not much in the bush.
But I hope everyday that MONEY COMES IN ONE FORM OR ANOTHER. Weather it be work or new project or new idea some way to bring something in.
So Rosie arrives, we load up its getting dark around 6:00 now. I was suppose to cook for almost 12 people.
She wanted chicken Marsala, Armenian rice pilaf and and Italian salad that I made for her before. Its with the mushrooms and parmesean, the pilaf she ate and died for it. Also the Marsala.. so After that all day I went and cook in the hot little service kitchen in her place.
It was tough because they had so many orders and there is very little room. So I found myself waiting and moving and waiting and then cooking it was a mess but I did it!!
While we were enjoying our dinner, talking laughing and cutting up. The news came on.
Some one earlier had said had you heard the news about Charles Boyd? that he had been arrested?
Charles is the guy that I was trying to do the big landscape job for, he and his wife, but now I know its not his wife.. gave me such a hard time. He asked me to take his name off the internet at one point and stop blogging about what I was doing at this house. It ended up totally bad sistuaion, And I was very angry that I took on the job and knew from the beginigng wasn't going to be good.
Well he got arrested for armed robbery, asault with a deadly weapon, drug trafficing, and false passport from Mexico.
I wont go into the details of my dealings with him but my assistant Clint, and Cristhian both witnessed a bad situtation with the brother and I who he looks scary than Charles. Clint wittnessed him bad mouthing me when he hardly knew me.
The dealings with this man was really harsh, I knew something was seriously wrong when one day he met me in the road to give me some cash.
He was talking to someone on the phone and told them were road blocks this was back in Sept. He said he had to change his route. I thought that was curious because he was driving a new car, had a big new house, a big new office and loads of cash. If you have a new car there is hardly a worry about road blocks they simply check the retevy, your passport and if its good you go nothing more.
I saw the video of him he looked very drawn, scary, and well some of the people here are shocked. I wasn't at all not kidding. In fact I thought oh oh not again. Not that it has anything to do with me at all, but several times in my life I have had people do horrendous things to me or about me. And soon they become fired, arrested, and other circumstances that are shocking.
You never really know someone do you? the dirty little secrets we all keep. I don't have many but we all have something we don't want to share with others. BUT THIS WAS CRAZY... he was so public, and tried with all the business people to be so on target, so professional .
Another reason to be ever so carefull about who you trust and allow into your life. I learned a big something today. For sure the next time REGARDLESS OF HOW MUCH I NEED MONEY, I will never go against my gut feelings again.
That could have been a really bad situation, not just a loss of money but maybe a loss of more than my life.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
New day, yesterday was good!
It began with Helena and I going to the clients to collect the money from the Sale of the art.
It was beautiful yesterday, the weather warm and the breeze just slighty cool. We drove in her old red jeep up to Playa Escondido, this sits behind the Los Suenos resort on a road that goes up a hill lined with Chinese palms. This are the small palms that get to be about 6 feet max, and have rounded leaves in a deep green. The resort has planted the Jungle mountains all along the way on this road. Its is stunning to say the least. Helena and I both exclaimed as to how beautiful it was driving to there home. I am so thankfull when I see the natural beauty here that I live here. Even though I have had the utmost shocking, unfortuante times. I am greatful for whatever I have and my surroundings.
Things have to change for me, I was borned to be a success, not a poverty failure. Everyone has problems. And Yes happiness is from Within, but it is serious when you loose everything, and Money does not come in. But yesterday was a new day and being in those two incredible homes in one day was something that most people in the world do not get to experience. So I was happy to be exposed to such wealth and such classy lifestyles.
In Posting those photos I was in awe at how this Man Paul did this with no plans, and just did it as he went. Honestly I am that kind of designer. I know what I see and I know what I like and sometimes putting it on paper doesn't happen. When I do landscapes I always come up with a plan or a general perspective of how it should look and what goes where. But in Gardening, things change the plants grow, die and fill . It is always a work in progress. I want a place like Pauls, with Wandering Gardens that you can enjoy from below and above.
To see the grounds from all different perspectives is really fascinating.
He has so many specimens, and I about recognized all. I saw in an area where he could use the Planter's Palms it really is a Heliconia but it doesn't flower. It has towering branches that go from south to north and look amazing when there full grown.
I have a different view today, THANK GOD!! I was so worn down, so beat up.. But I have to pull myself back up and know that there is only one place to go now and that is UP!! I have so many abilties, Some of my friends are amazed at what I can do. When my son thinks of me he only says one thing that is great, and that is you are "REALLY TALENTED MOM"
Ok if this is so, then I must use my Talent to gain the wealth I deserve, the home I want and deserve, and the Relationship, I long for and deserve!!!
When I came here some time ago, my dream was, a home with a pool and huge garden. I Want the kids to come and stay, friends to fly here and visit and my place be a place to Entertain... but it has not happened none of that. But by God I have to get back on Track and find the dream. Dreams can happen.
I wrote about this some years ago when I told people how I got into what I do for a living, in an article I wrote. I need to read that to remind of how to get back on track.
Most Often lately I ask my self what is my purpose here on earth. Half the time lately I have no idea. But my son said don't worry about your purpose, just do what you need to to make yourself happy. So ok this week I am doing it, How I don't know... but I need a pedicure first let me start there so right now I have the water boiling, the nails are free of paint, and I have the tools ready to do it myself! Generally I get one but haven't had the money. So I am going to save that money its not much but I am going to do it myself, then the rest of the week find ways to make myself happy!
I need purfume,( now your saying this is silly) but women are very complicated, we need personal things to feel good. I have none not one bottle, while I was gone someone decided to use it or take it along with my bikini.. so that is something I am doing this week too!
This little Columbian girl needs my help with her clothing repair shop, she makes a line of bikinis called Sexy 7 and well I am going to help her this week and ask her for part of my payment in one or two bikinis!!! CUSTOM MADE!!
Anyone interested in these PLEASE WRITE ME AND I WILL POST PHOTOS AND TELL YOU HOW YOU CAN BUY THEM AND I WILL SEND THEM TO YOU...
Another thing, I am going to Paul this week asking him if he wants to buy Felix Murillos art that I sold to the Voles, Felix is from here, he is becoming very famous for Painting to Concerts. He is amazing. He is a friend of mine personally. His art is really different the styles change from one to another.. but Paul has money, and If I sell I make a nice chunk, Then somhow I would love to rent out Pauls place for vacationers, or for parties, or HELL I WANT IT FOR MYSELF!! some way I am turning this around.
Now the car:
Tony, the old Tony offered me a 1991 Toyota, he said it was valued at $4000.00 but I looked a couple of them up here and there only worth about $1900.00. Yep I need a car but I am not sure about this deal. They want to take the car and give me this old junker. It appears to be ok, but god its old. And how do I know how much there going to get out of this car? I want a truck, that is what I want.. a nice one BLACK WOULD BE GREAT! but I need a vehicle that works for what I do. So On Monday I have a couple of other people looking at the car and telling what they will give me for the heap. This needs to be solved this week.
Still don't have the feeling of Christmas, funny I want to feel it but yet I don't.
Well Off to the beach, to pray and turn this head around. Maybe hitting the bottom will be such a source of Inspiration for others that I become some sort of resource for people to use and turn their lives around!!! I hope?
Couple of things: Bikinis: Sexy Seven, Art: Felix Murillo, The home in TOUCAN CALVO, all for sale. Interested please email me: Marianna.love@gmail.com or comment on here
It was beautiful yesterday, the weather warm and the breeze just slighty cool. We drove in her old red jeep up to Playa Escondido, this sits behind the Los Suenos resort on a road that goes up a hill lined with Chinese palms. This are the small palms that get to be about 6 feet max, and have rounded leaves in a deep green. The resort has planted the Jungle mountains all along the way on this road. Its is stunning to say the least. Helena and I both exclaimed as to how beautiful it was driving to there home. I am so thankfull when I see the natural beauty here that I live here. Even though I have had the utmost shocking, unfortuante times. I am greatful for whatever I have and my surroundings.
Things have to change for me, I was borned to be a success, not a poverty failure. Everyone has problems. And Yes happiness is from Within, but it is serious when you loose everything, and Money does not come in. But yesterday was a new day and being in those two incredible homes in one day was something that most people in the world do not get to experience. So I was happy to be exposed to such wealth and such classy lifestyles.
In Posting those photos I was in awe at how this Man Paul did this with no plans, and just did it as he went. Honestly I am that kind of designer. I know what I see and I know what I like and sometimes putting it on paper doesn't happen. When I do landscapes I always come up with a plan or a general perspective of how it should look and what goes where. But in Gardening, things change the plants grow, die and fill . It is always a work in progress. I want a place like Pauls, with Wandering Gardens that you can enjoy from below and above.
To see the grounds from all different perspectives is really fascinating.
He has so many specimens, and I about recognized all. I saw in an area where he could use the Planter's Palms it really is a Heliconia but it doesn't flower. It has towering branches that go from south to north and look amazing when there full grown.
I have a different view today, THANK GOD!! I was so worn down, so beat up.. But I have to pull myself back up and know that there is only one place to go now and that is UP!! I have so many abilties, Some of my friends are amazed at what I can do. When my son thinks of me he only says one thing that is great, and that is you are "REALLY TALENTED MOM"
Ok if this is so, then I must use my Talent to gain the wealth I deserve, the home I want and deserve, and the Relationship, I long for and deserve!!!
When I came here some time ago, my dream was, a home with a pool and huge garden. I Want the kids to come and stay, friends to fly here and visit and my place be a place to Entertain... but it has not happened none of that. But by God I have to get back on Track and find the dream. Dreams can happen.
I wrote about this some years ago when I told people how I got into what I do for a living, in an article I wrote. I need to read that to remind of how to get back on track.
Most Often lately I ask my self what is my purpose here on earth. Half the time lately I have no idea. But my son said don't worry about your purpose, just do what you need to to make yourself happy. So ok this week I am doing it, How I don't know... but I need a pedicure first let me start there so right now I have the water boiling, the nails are free of paint, and I have the tools ready to do it myself! Generally I get one but haven't had the money. So I am going to save that money its not much but I am going to do it myself, then the rest of the week find ways to make myself happy!
I need purfume,( now your saying this is silly) but women are very complicated, we need personal things to feel good. I have none not one bottle, while I was gone someone decided to use it or take it along with my bikini.. so that is something I am doing this week too!
This little Columbian girl needs my help with her clothing repair shop, she makes a line of bikinis called Sexy 7 and well I am going to help her this week and ask her for part of my payment in one or two bikinis!!! CUSTOM MADE!!
Anyone interested in these PLEASE WRITE ME AND I WILL POST PHOTOS AND TELL YOU HOW YOU CAN BUY THEM AND I WILL SEND THEM TO YOU...
Another thing, I am going to Paul this week asking him if he wants to buy Felix Murillos art that I sold to the Voles, Felix is from here, he is becoming very famous for Painting to Concerts. He is amazing. He is a friend of mine personally. His art is really different the styles change from one to another.. but Paul has money, and If I sell I make a nice chunk, Then somhow I would love to rent out Pauls place for vacationers, or for parties, or HELL I WANT IT FOR MYSELF!! some way I am turning this around.
Now the car:
Tony, the old Tony offered me a 1991 Toyota, he said it was valued at $4000.00 but I looked a couple of them up here and there only worth about $1900.00. Yep I need a car but I am not sure about this deal. They want to take the car and give me this old junker. It appears to be ok, but god its old. And how do I know how much there going to get out of this car? I want a truck, that is what I want.. a nice one BLACK WOULD BE GREAT! but I need a vehicle that works for what I do. So On Monday I have a couple of other people looking at the car and telling what they will give me for the heap. This needs to be solved this week.
Still don't have the feeling of Christmas, funny I want to feel it but yet I don't.
Well Off to the beach, to pray and turn this head around. Maybe hitting the bottom will be such a source of Inspiration for others that I become some sort of resource for people to use and turn their lives around!!! I hope?
Couple of things: Bikinis: Sexy Seven, Art: Felix Murillo, The home in TOUCAN CALVO, all for sale. Interested please email me: Marianna.love@gmail.com or comment on here
Saturday, December 15, 2007
TOUCAN CALVO COSTA RICA, this is the house, its only the guest house and it is for sale
Sunsets in Costa Rica
Friday, December 14, 2007
Is it really Christmas Part Two /Life styles of the rich and Famous.
THe blogger is on the fritz its not me ok? First it wont correct spelling now it says I haven't posted in a week? and it wont allow me finish what I started. Ok back to the end of the road!
After he asked me if I wanted to eat something I knew immediately that he was interested if not feeling sorry for me.
He drove down the end of the town, to the very end. It dead ends into this river and a very tropical area that is secluded, There is a lovely restuarant there in the end. Its nice in fact it is one of my favorite locations because it sits next to a small river and at the end is a big river that feeds right in the ocean. Its really beautiful.
We had candle light they have it on every table. It is all outside and very cool and nice. We ordered I had ceviche, with patacones. That is fresh fish soaked in lime and ginger ale with Celantro and onions and a little red pepper. He had a salad with chicken breast roasted.
It was lite and cheap but good. We talked about everything. In Spanish of course, he sounds like a very nice kind person. His concern about my car was seemly sincere but he may have alterior motives. Normal here...
After dinner we drove to my place and I did invite him him. We watched two Soap operas called novellas, they are Columbian or Spanish or Mexican. He liked those so I watched along and laughed. Very dramatic.
We talked about many things and he left around 11:00. I was so tired from worring and not sleeping so well he could tell I was tired.
In the Morning, I had an appointment with Felix Murillio the famous artist to sell some of his art to these people who were going to buy my sofa.
Helena, from spain showed up in her red jeep. We hauled all the art I thought would work to Fargo Escondido to that fabulous house.
We talked to Dick and Jenny in this beautiful home at the end of Escondido and I sold the three paintings in a series to them. I made a nice little tiny commission for it. They took us to lunch at spoons, but she didn't pay and left early so when we left we were shocked that they guy chased after us to pay the bill... I WAS SO EMBARRASSED.
It was a beautiful day it was warm sunny and super nice.
We then drove to the office where I wanted to check mail and see if anything was going on with the other client that fell through.
Well little did I know everyone was going to this freaking awesome house in Toucan Calvo for a party for the evening.
This house is undescribeable and is for sale. They still have to build the main house when you see these photos WOW! ok now I was really feeling poverty when I went here... although I was thanking God for living here and having the opportunity to see and enjoy things I would never get a chance to see.
This house sat on a top of a hill two pools, views from every side.
They had a professional gorgeous chef come in and do sushi, and pizza of all things and he made like ten different varieties and fresh Tuna, on the side. He made Tuna sushi, and shrimp sushi and pizza like my mamas! I didn't eat because I had eaten earlier with DICK AND JENNY.. so I couldn't take eating again although I was angry because this was first class food.
I ate one peice of shrimp sushi and one shrimp itself and wow it was good! The party was exceptionally nice and the music the best! The whole house is amazing and I found out he wants to sell it after the big house is built.
Mind this part of the house is four levels, and has two pools, a water fall into the pool and gardens that made me just ooo and awee but I was the only one. No one else aprreciated any of this. I made sure to tell Paul and ex pharmasist, that it was fantastic and I really noticed all the details.
I was pretty much alone the whole time, although there was about 15 or 20 people, I talked to all of them but I always found my self sitting alone. In the end I was out side in the dark while others were in the jacuzzi and in the pool. Sitting at a table thinking about life.
Thinking about how Ironic it is that I am so poverty at this point and sitting in a masion enjoying life like the lifestyles of the rich and famous.
It was a bit much actually, I felt overwhelmed and out of place. So I heard two of the guys were going into town. I asked if I could ride with them. Both could see I was feeling a bit out of place. They asked me what was wrong, I said its ok I just want to go home.
So they drove me to town to the office and dropped me off.
Now understand that the office is at the opposite side of town in retrospect of where I live. It is about two or three miles to my place. But I felt very lucky that they took me home from there. I walked almost to the party till I found a taxi and he took me about 200 meters to the house. So the ride back was a blessing.
I walked to Rosies, but she was in San Jose. I talke to Maley this Englishman but he was super negative and lectured me on how happiness is not from Material things... EASY FOR HIM TO SAY HE HAS A LOAD... its weird when people have money they always say things about how money doesn't make you happy and it is true but it sure takes a load off and it helps you to realize things much faster than when you have nothing.
I think this experience of being NEARLY POVERTY has help me to see how people really are.. Insensitive to others, and how when you have to really dig, it makes you know what you are as a person. You see what people are in reality. With out material substance, makes you feel and think very differently... FOR REAL!
Although I didn't eat there I should have but I was so full I couldn't it was so nice. I felt very special, maybe more than the majority of people that were there taking it for granite that this is how it is but I knew that this was a real treat.
I walked from the office about two or three miles home.When I got here Blanqueeta my now cat that wasn't mine but has adopted me was there to greet me I for the first time understood the cat, she is alone just like me, she is cute.. just like me, skinny no one feeds her she fends for herself, and was so happy to see me unlock the door. Right now she is sitting here besides me resting sleeping and happy to be in the air conditioning. I need to feed her, but honestly we have parallels.. Blanqueeta is alone no one wants her, and well I guess I am sort of the same way..
So Now on to tomorrow, I sold the piece of Art for $3500.00 and I got a commission of 10 percent. So this is a start in a better direction although this doesn't make a dent in what I need to get back on my feet!
Look tomorrow for photos!
After he asked me if I wanted to eat something I knew immediately that he was interested if not feeling sorry for me.
He drove down the end of the town, to the very end. It dead ends into this river and a very tropical area that is secluded, There is a lovely restuarant there in the end. Its nice in fact it is one of my favorite locations because it sits next to a small river and at the end is a big river that feeds right in the ocean. Its really beautiful.
We had candle light they have it on every table. It is all outside and very cool and nice. We ordered I had ceviche, with patacones. That is fresh fish soaked in lime and ginger ale with Celantro and onions and a little red pepper. He had a salad with chicken breast roasted.
It was lite and cheap but good. We talked about everything. In Spanish of course, he sounds like a very nice kind person. His concern about my car was seemly sincere but he may have alterior motives. Normal here...
After dinner we drove to my place and I did invite him him. We watched two Soap operas called novellas, they are Columbian or Spanish or Mexican. He liked those so I watched along and laughed. Very dramatic.
We talked about many things and he left around 11:00. I was so tired from worring and not sleeping so well he could tell I was tired.
In the Morning, I had an appointment with Felix Murillio the famous artist to sell some of his art to these people who were going to buy my sofa.
Helena, from spain showed up in her red jeep. We hauled all the art I thought would work to Fargo Escondido to that fabulous house.
We talked to Dick and Jenny in this beautiful home at the end of Escondido and I sold the three paintings in a series to them. I made a nice little tiny commission for it. They took us to lunch at spoons, but she didn't pay and left early so when we left we were shocked that they guy chased after us to pay the bill... I WAS SO EMBARRASSED.
It was a beautiful day it was warm sunny and super nice.
We then drove to the office where I wanted to check mail and see if anything was going on with the other client that fell through.
Well little did I know everyone was going to this freaking awesome house in Toucan Calvo for a party for the evening.
This house is undescribeable and is for sale. They still have to build the main house when you see these photos WOW! ok now I was really feeling poverty when I went here... although I was thanking God for living here and having the opportunity to see and enjoy things I would never get a chance to see.
This house sat on a top of a hill two pools, views from every side.
They had a professional gorgeous chef come in and do sushi, and pizza of all things and he made like ten different varieties and fresh Tuna, on the side. He made Tuna sushi, and shrimp sushi and pizza like my mamas! I didn't eat because I had eaten earlier with DICK AND JENNY.. so I couldn't take eating again although I was angry because this was first class food.
I ate one peice of shrimp sushi and one shrimp itself and wow it was good! The party was exceptionally nice and the music the best! The whole house is amazing and I found out he wants to sell it after the big house is built.
Mind this part of the house is four levels, and has two pools, a water fall into the pool and gardens that made me just ooo and awee but I was the only one. No one else aprreciated any of this. I made sure to tell Paul and ex pharmasist, that it was fantastic and I really noticed all the details.
I was pretty much alone the whole time, although there was about 15 or 20 people, I talked to all of them but I always found my self sitting alone. In the end I was out side in the dark while others were in the jacuzzi and in the pool. Sitting at a table thinking about life.
Thinking about how Ironic it is that I am so poverty at this point and sitting in a masion enjoying life like the lifestyles of the rich and famous.
It was a bit much actually, I felt overwhelmed and out of place. So I heard two of the guys were going into town. I asked if I could ride with them. Both could see I was feeling a bit out of place. They asked me what was wrong, I said its ok I just want to go home.
So they drove me to town to the office and dropped me off.
Now understand that the office is at the opposite side of town in retrospect of where I live. It is about two or three miles to my place. But I felt very lucky that they took me home from there. I walked almost to the party till I found a taxi and he took me about 200 meters to the house. So the ride back was a blessing.
I walked to Rosies, but she was in San Jose. I talke to Maley this Englishman but he was super negative and lectured me on how happiness is not from Material things... EASY FOR HIM TO SAY HE HAS A LOAD... its weird when people have money they always say things about how money doesn't make you happy and it is true but it sure takes a load off and it helps you to realize things much faster than when you have nothing.
I think this experience of being NEARLY POVERTY has help me to see how people really are.. Insensitive to others, and how when you have to really dig, it makes you know what you are as a person. You see what people are in reality. With out material substance, makes you feel and think very differently... FOR REAL!
Although I didn't eat there I should have but I was so full I couldn't it was so nice. I felt very special, maybe more than the majority of people that were there taking it for granite that this is how it is but I knew that this was a real treat.
I walked from the office about two or three miles home.When I got here Blanqueeta my now cat that wasn't mine but has adopted me was there to greet me I for the first time understood the cat, she is alone just like me, she is cute.. just like me, skinny no one feeds her she fends for herself, and was so happy to see me unlock the door. Right now she is sitting here besides me resting sleeping and happy to be in the air conditioning. I need to feed her, but honestly we have parallels.. Blanqueeta is alone no one wants her, and well I guess I am sort of the same way..
So Now on to tomorrow, I sold the piece of Art for $3500.00 and I got a commission of 10 percent. So this is a start in a better direction although this doesn't make a dent in what I need to get back on my feet!
Look tomorrow for photos!
Is it Really Christmas?
Yesterday was a calm and simple day. I walked into town only after paying all my bills the electrical that they cut off in the morning, the phone, the cell, the internet. I was surprised, each bill was a little over 8700 colones, which is about 17 dollars, each. All the bills where that. Strange but good. I had enough to cover it. Earlier in the day I just wanted to stay home and not go out at all. I felt so down. After chatting with my son, I got cleaned up and went on my way. It was after the chat they cut the electricity so that sort of forced me out of the house.
I walked to town,
saw that there was a new Italian deli. I went and looked and decided to eat a salad with Parmesean, spinach and mushrooms. As I sat there in the front of this little tiny deli. I thought about my mother, and all the wonderfull things she would bake and make, when I was growing up.
She taught me how do most of it.I asked the man in the deli if they had Italian pastries? and he said no I said are you going to make them he said no. I said well I know how, If I make some would you buy them from me? He said he would like to try.
Hmmmm well another idea popped into my head. I am reaching for anything right now to make money JUST ANYTHING.. but my cooking is pretty darn good so I thought let me see how I can do this.
Continuing down the main road to the office, Not one thing going on. Talked with the people inside, and then did some mail.
I went to grab a gator aid, feeling dehigerated. I saw in a case pastries they sell at this little pulpera. ( small grocery store) They didn't look so hot. I ask where they bought them he told me a german bakery from San Jose.
I said I can make some, only they should be better there local.
He smiled, and we talked for a half hour about the car, what I do, where my office is and in general just talk. He took my phone number ask me to meet him back there at 6:30 to go and see the car. He suggested to get another person to look at. I already had two, but it can not hurt.
I went at six thirty, we rode and saw, the boys insisted that the car is going to be fine. We listened and then upon driving off I said do you believe that? are you really believeing what they say? He said no he knew just like I do that its not going to be fixed.
As soon as we drove off he asked me for dinner, he said would you like to eat something? I said sure ok? so we drove to the very end of town.
I walked to town,
saw that there was a new Italian deli. I went and looked and decided to eat a salad with Parmesean, spinach and mushrooms. As I sat there in the front of this little tiny deli. I thought about my mother, and all the wonderfull things she would bake and make, when I was growing up.
She taught me how do most of it.I asked the man in the deli if they had Italian pastries? and he said no I said are you going to make them he said no. I said well I know how, If I make some would you buy them from me? He said he would like to try.
Hmmmm well another idea popped into my head. I am reaching for anything right now to make money JUST ANYTHING.. but my cooking is pretty darn good so I thought let me see how I can do this.
Continuing down the main road to the office, Not one thing going on. Talked with the people inside, and then did some mail.
I went to grab a gator aid, feeling dehigerated. I saw in a case pastries they sell at this little pulpera. ( small grocery store) They didn't look so hot. I ask where they bought them he told me a german bakery from San Jose.
I said I can make some, only they should be better there local.
He smiled, and we talked for a half hour about the car, what I do, where my office is and in general just talk. He took my phone number ask me to meet him back there at 6:30 to go and see the car. He suggested to get another person to look at. I already had two, but it can not hurt.
I went at six thirty, we rode and saw, the boys insisted that the car is going to be fine. We listened and then upon driving off I said do you believe that? are you really believeing what they say? He said no he knew just like I do that its not going to be fixed.
As soon as we drove off he asked me for dinner, he said would you like to eat something? I said sure ok? so we drove to the very end of town.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
What Christmas feeling with all this worry
Well Raquel left with peace, she showed up when Lucas said she would. I was dressed ready to leave for the day drinking my coffee and putting on makeup. I dressed especially nice, because yesterday was the Holiday party for the office and I was invited to go along. Raquel came happy, packed up and left in peace. We talked, she was calm, apologized for the night before. Said many nice things about me, and offered her help should I need it. I was happy that the friction I was feeling earlier in the week was gone and we parted peacefully.
I don't know where she was going but she took the one piece of luggage, and some bags and left in a taxi.
I ate, and then walked into town. It is very hot and sunny, the feeling of Christmas is not in me or around. I have so much worry, the weather is hot so it just doesn't seem at all like Christmas.
I stopped and discussed with the gal at the clothing repair store the uniforms that I am designing for her to construct, she could tell I was upset. The reason was I had a call before I left from Tony, saying the car's Damage is $12,000.00 the cars Value is only $14,000.00. I may be lucky if I get $3000.00 out of it. What in the heck can you buy here for that? CARS ARE EXPENSIVE HERE. A toyota Hi lux which is the pickup I been dreaming about new is $50,000.00 an old one maybe five or six years old is more than $20,000.00 A small hyundai is Maybe $8000.00 old used. This is going to be rough.
I was baffeled as to what next? So my face showed yesterday the strain of Raquel, the stress of the car and my life in general lately.
Going into the office I saw the client that I was going to be working with,who had gone with another place that had pre packages. We talked and I told her the truth about what is going on and How disapointed I was that I would not be working with them. She told me not to worry that somehow things will work out, and that by Friday things would be different for me? Curious as to how? or why? i listened. She is a sweet old thing from Texas and has that southern charm. I listened and really tried hard to smile and not show my tears about to break through.
The day was quiet, I worked on a floor plan for the Casino, and pretty much emailed and nothing more. I met up with them later and showed them my friends condo in the hopes that they would buy and I would get a nice little commisson for just bringing them to my friend. They didn't like it. So that was dashed as well.
I walked back to the office and remained there for the rest of the day untill the dinner party.
We went to Jaunitas, and nice place on the beach in Herradura. Before sunset we all stood on the beach toasted to the holiday and with the hope of a better new year. We all lifted our champagne glasses, and felt so touched but the whole thing.
Happy that they invited me and happy that I was going to a nice dinner.
We ate laughed joked and had a super nice time, Later we all took a tour of the Marriotts, to see the holiday decorations I did. Most people were very impressed and proud of me. They all took photos of me.
Then we stopped at Spoons and little place that is nationwide here that makes good desserts. We ate Cheesecake and Chocolates. I literally pigged out VERY BAD I ate way to much. We drank another bottle of Champagne and then Tom began singing Christmas Carols.
Know that this is not common here the Ticos and Ticas were listening and I chimed in. He and I sang then others entered in as well. It was sorta of Christmasy but there is no real sense of Christmas here. The fact that I have no work, difficulties, I just don't feel at all like Christmas.
We then went to Whahoos where everyone was singing karaeoke We danced and talked and then I went home.
I got a message from my Sons girlfriend about some problems with my youngest son, This added to my worry and I am more depressed, because I can not help in anyway except pray he learns how to be a man and face his issues. Deal with them and try to resolve things. I don't believe this problem with him is exactly fair. But I know if he gets the courage to talk to the people that are trying to get money out of him they may come to some terms.
I don't know where she was going but she took the one piece of luggage, and some bags and left in a taxi.
I ate, and then walked into town. It is very hot and sunny, the feeling of Christmas is not in me or around. I have so much worry, the weather is hot so it just doesn't seem at all like Christmas.
I stopped and discussed with the gal at the clothing repair store the uniforms that I am designing for her to construct, she could tell I was upset. The reason was I had a call before I left from Tony, saying the car's Damage is $12,000.00 the cars Value is only $14,000.00. I may be lucky if I get $3000.00 out of it. What in the heck can you buy here for that? CARS ARE EXPENSIVE HERE. A toyota Hi lux which is the pickup I been dreaming about new is $50,000.00 an old one maybe five or six years old is more than $20,000.00 A small hyundai is Maybe $8000.00 old used. This is going to be rough.
I was baffeled as to what next? So my face showed yesterday the strain of Raquel, the stress of the car and my life in general lately.
Going into the office I saw the client that I was going to be working with,who had gone with another place that had pre packages. We talked and I told her the truth about what is going on and How disapointed I was that I would not be working with them. She told me not to worry that somehow things will work out, and that by Friday things would be different for me? Curious as to how? or why? i listened. She is a sweet old thing from Texas and has that southern charm. I listened and really tried hard to smile and not show my tears about to break through.
The day was quiet, I worked on a floor plan for the Casino, and pretty much emailed and nothing more. I met up with them later and showed them my friends condo in the hopes that they would buy and I would get a nice little commisson for just bringing them to my friend. They didn't like it. So that was dashed as well.
I walked back to the office and remained there for the rest of the day untill the dinner party.
We went to Jaunitas, and nice place on the beach in Herradura. Before sunset we all stood on the beach toasted to the holiday and with the hope of a better new year. We all lifted our champagne glasses, and felt so touched but the whole thing.
Happy that they invited me and happy that I was going to a nice dinner.
We ate laughed joked and had a super nice time, Later we all took a tour of the Marriotts, to see the holiday decorations I did. Most people were very impressed and proud of me. They all took photos of me.
Then we stopped at Spoons and little place that is nationwide here that makes good desserts. We ate Cheesecake and Chocolates. I literally pigged out VERY BAD I ate way to much. We drank another bottle of Champagne and then Tom began singing Christmas Carols.
Know that this is not common here the Ticos and Ticas were listening and I chimed in. He and I sang then others entered in as well. It was sorta of Christmasy but there is no real sense of Christmas here. The fact that I have no work, difficulties, I just don't feel at all like Christmas.
We then went to Whahoos where everyone was singing karaeoke We danced and talked and then I went home.
I got a message from my Sons girlfriend about some problems with my youngest son, This added to my worry and I am more depressed, because I can not help in anyway except pray he learns how to be a man and face his issues. Deal with them and try to resolve things. I don't believe this problem with him is exactly fair. But I know if he gets the courage to talk to the people that are trying to get money out of him they may come to some terms.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
The Drama goes on ITS HAS TO END!! I can't take much more
Tony the old tony called me this morning at 6:30 Helen had told him about the car situation, he said he was coming to Jaco. He had a friend that bought wrecks, they wanted to see the car and talk with me. I said sure why not? So around 8:00 they showed up here to go and look at the car.
We went they looked and it was just as I thought in the begining. The man who pulled all the parts off and said they were taking them to San Jose to get the new ones, put them in the car and locked it. Tony and this other guy looked at the car and said the whole front end had to be cut off useing new parts won't solve the problem. He believes the internal damage is much and needs a whole new front end, and rework or overhaul the engine too. Around 12 thousand dollars of damage. MADE ME SICK... we sat at the beach while he told me the good news. I knew it this was coming so it wasn't a shock. But I didn't know that the guy did not take the parts,and that they lied to hold me off a few more days.
So Tony suggested I tow it to a safer place till this guy could get me a quote, on how much they could give me and how to resolve this and try to exchange for another car.
We came back, I got cleaned up and ready for the day. I did not tell Raquel the night before to leave but this is what happened. I felt bad telling her this at night. I thought its better to let her rest and tell her in the morning giving her the whole day to find something.
So the phone rang around 2:00. I got up I heard her talking. I listened, in the kitchen. When she was done. I said Raquel please no phone calls.
She yells I GETTING MY THINGS AND I LEAVE IN THE MORNING.
I turned around and thought to myself that was easy.
So I got back in bed, only after I thought well I am going to unplug the phone and put it away.
I did, then in the morning I continued on with Tony and this other guy.
Ok she is still in bed when I return, In a hour she got up got showered and dressed. I was outside on the computer and putting on makeup. I said to her Raquel sit down I want to talk to you. She said I have to go to the bank, I said well give me the keys then, no she said When I return, I asked again please give them to me now. She insisted no... so I waited for two hours for her to return. I was suppose to be going to a clients house to bring the Sofa from my office to sell, they wanted it and I was so happy because the amount of money I would get would solve my bills, and feed me and set me up for more than a month or two. So I waited till 12:30 then walked to the office. She never came.
As I was walking I called Lucas, of course she is there. I knew that this is why I called. He apologized for his behavior, but then went on to say give her more money. I said I can't don't you understand I DONT HAVE IT!! and she didn't work for it.
I said I need the keys tell her I waited. He said when your done come here and get the keys I will keep her here all day.
I went with another designer who was working my client. We got a truck and took the beautiful red leather sofa with end tables attached and leather inserts in the wood.
We got it to this incredible house at the end of the road in the jungle on the edge of the beach Playa Escondido. THis house wraps around two levels right into the mountain with a private door step beach. I was trying my best to be positive, praying the whole time " PLEASE LORD let this work, I really need a break here and This could be the resolution for things for a while"
Well they tried this way that way the sofa was beautiful in the house,but they had this silly ugly box some guy made with all there sound wireing in it, it was like a liquor cabinet looking thing. Not pretty in the corner of the living room on the edge of a stair case to the down stairs. This house is pretty open, and this piece was really strange looking. He could have devised a wall mount system and put all that on the wall, or mounted that on the wall in order for the sofa with end tables to fit
But no, I tried softly to convince him but he was like just get a regular sofa, this is not the owner of the home its a worker. I was getting more and more depressed, I looked out over this incredible house feeling envy, and thinking this is something I will probably never ever get to enjoy, and thinking why is it always so hard for me in every instance? I wanted to bust out crying but I am a professional, and I just stared at the beach right below my feet. Overlooking the most fabulous view of the mountain and sea combined.
If they wanted that sofa they could have told him to redo that dang wiring and fix it right. It looked hokie ok? NOT LIEING.. even the other designer, was mad and saying we waisted the whole day for him. That thing is ugly. so I agreed. I honestly have been so humble I hardly talk. Things have been so rough that I have no energy to be talkative or lively althought my character is that.
So I humbly held my head down, said I was sorry, and walked out behind the sofa.
I was so disgusted, because I knew I was now going to face another disaster Raquel.
I tried to convince them I have two other sofas (in my home) that I could sell to them.
Well we both were upset driving back she lost most of the day I lost $3500.00 dollars for this beautiful leather sofa with attached end tables and leather inserts.
I paid much more for it.
I went into the office of Century 21 where my office is now, and talk to Thomas, the owner we sat he felt sad for me he is very worried about me. He actually bought me lunch and said if you need me tell me Marianna. I couldn't ask for anything I was so beat down.
Then I walked over to Rosies for a min its right across the way, we chatted and I told her I had to call Lucas for my keys she said go. Walking back to the office I felt more defeated.
Got my things closed down the lights and computer and walked to Lucas, while I called. He said come here.
I could hear people loud and Raquel, I knew they were drinking. When I walked up of course they were. Smoking and drinking. I sat and he offered I said no thank you.. he began to lecture me about money paymets to her, letting her stay about me living alone, putting guilt trips on me. I sat I listened until he got the point of saying YOU NEED A GOOD WORKER LIKE HER!!! I wanted to laugh but I said "Lucas, I did not come here for lectures, I came to collect my keys" then that was it. They all started yelling I was like a cornered dog. I said look you don't know all there is, and I have too much right now to try to help anyone. I need help LUCAS LAUGHED HARD.. I was hurt, I said I just want my keys please. They went on and on Raquel raising her voice and yelling. I said stop ok just stop, the name calling started not with me. I remained calm, just looked felt horrible. I asked her to go with me now, and said if you want stay tonight. I waited all day for your call or for you to come back. She said she wa busy. Lucas told me earlier he was going to keep her there all day.
So I suppose She was busy with him. I said lets go she said you go you go now take a taxi and get out of here then Lucas and The other guy cussed me out called me names and I put my tail between my legs and left.
I felt miserable, thinking its my place my house she owed the rent on the 21st, didn't pay. Used my shoes, my clothes ate all the food in the house when i was gone, I paid for her to eat everyday when I was here and this past week. I was recounting everything.
The phone, the men she brought there when I was asleep, the friend that stayed here while I was gone, that she didn't knew I knew about for four days drinking up the booze here and god knows what? Thinking and I am the bad one? where is there any justice in life? WHERE IS IT? so I walked to Rosies, took a cab and thought I was waiting for Raquel.
AS soon as I got to the door the phone rang, the cell the other phone I took out. It was lucas telling me not to worry about anything that she was spending the night there, and in the morning she would get her things, in the morning the things will be outside. I wiil change the locks, and this will be it! I didn't say that but that is exactly what I will do.
She stayed there all day partying, didn't think a thing about what had happened.
I don't know how he could talk to me so nice after he called me names and told me @@$%#$%&&* off? can you?
I feel horrible, sad, mad and discouraged with life.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Yesterday, today
It began at Five am when Raquel came in and woke me up . she smelled of strong alcohol. I know she was drinking earlier I saw her with Lucas at the Copa. I didn't enter as I said Rosie and I left and went back to Coffee shop. But I found out she was out all night doing what she does. When she woke me up she was upset saying she was angry with me for not getting her up that morning to go to the beach. She was sleeping hard, I needed to get to the bank before 12:00 and I was about to leave around 11:30, I had to walk so I figure let her sleep, call her in a hour or so and tell her where Rosie and I were. I let her sleep and walked to the bank.
I then walked down to Rosie's as I said and ate a biscuit from KFC. She came there angry as I said in earlier blog but I didn't know why. She stormed off while we were talking. Some how she was mad about this instead of asking what happened? Raquel is a troubled person I said in a very early blog about her she always looks angry. She is... So on to this.
She went on rambling about all sorts of things I never heard in my life.
Stories about friends from Columbia who kill people, her tattoos and what they are for. How she feels about me, that I am good but I am bad? it all did not make sense. SO MUCH RAMBLING AT FIVE AM, at first I thought she was just drunk. I listened with experience in being around people who are really drunk its best to just listen to them.
Besides I had nothing to say. I was tired myself.
When I finally said Raquel I have to go back to Sleep I have a client coming this Sunday and I want to be fresh today.
So I returned to my room tried to sleep, while she used the phone to call the world. I heard her over and over. Finally I got up and said stop using the phone. She did for a moment, then I heard her hustling around in the kitchen. Again I got up she was on the couch using the phone with I don't know who having phone sex. I WAS SO MAD!! I SAID STOP... she got off the phone got her things, mind you its at 9:00 now and left.
After this I got up got dressed and walked to Lucas, I told him about this and he said she needs to get a real job, and move. I said please I have to I have no peace.
I went to the beach, alone and did not talk to a soul all day. I got a call from Diego, who said they were fixing my car????? So I walked to the peoples house, and saw the older brother from San Jose tearing the car apart and had all the broken pieces on the ground.
He has a mechanic shop and said he was going to order the parts.
We talked I said this was not the deal, but he insisted he could fix it. I said if he did I need to be where it was and I want to see the shop, not only that but if it doesn't run then they have to find a place to sell the heap.
Right about then Carson called about the client coming. So I walked to the house. mind you its not close.
I ate and got all cleaned up and Raquel came. I didn't ask where she was it dosen 't matter to me. But she plopped down laid on the sofa and watched TV. I was thinking why doesn't she go and clean up that room of hers. WOW ITS A MESS I real mess... clothes shoes dirty and clean all mixed. Papers, garbage. more... But I didn't say anything I concentrated on getting ready for the meeting. She still smelled so strong of alcohol. She complained her head hurt so I knew what happened all day.
She asked me what I was doing, I said don't you remember? all week I been telling you I have a meeting today? No she didn't remember...
Lucas and her have been as one person said on the comments here, consorting. She was involved with the liquor in the room. I caught her one night when we were working at LOS SUENOS, drinking and I asked where she got it she said the room. So I do not believe her story that the boys drank all of it. She did too.... Ok so now! He and she have been consorting, Lucas has now after today turned against me when I called to say hello. Simply Hello... he said first off DID YOU CASH THE CHECK from the hotel I said yes I did. He said bring Raquel her money. I said I am walking to the office I have some work and if she comes tell her to come there and get it. He continued to insist I come there first. I said no I am meeting with someone she is doing nothing, tell her to come to the office. He asked how much I told him $250 dollars for the hours she worked. He said you ripped her off and so you should give her free rent on top of it.
I said no, this is not working for me. I have very little money that I got paid, I have other people to pay and my rent. He yelled. I said look its not your business. And I left it at that. So today when I see Raquel I am paying her that, and asking her to move out now.
She has used the phone so much... when you call here, you get charged like a cell phone on the house phone. I never use it only when someone calls which is hardly ever. Or if I need to phone a taxi.
I am sure the bill is over 100 bucks.. To say the least I am angry about all this. She was nuts Sunday Morning she freaked me out honestly. It was because she was drunk, and god knows what else.
Hope it goes well with out arguing, and calm but I doubt it!
I then walked down to Rosie's as I said and ate a biscuit from KFC. She came there angry as I said in earlier blog but I didn't know why. She stormed off while we were talking. Some how she was mad about this instead of asking what happened? Raquel is a troubled person I said in a very early blog about her she always looks angry. She is... So on to this.
She went on rambling about all sorts of things I never heard in my life.
Stories about friends from Columbia who kill people, her tattoos and what they are for. How she feels about me, that I am good but I am bad? it all did not make sense. SO MUCH RAMBLING AT FIVE AM, at first I thought she was just drunk. I listened with experience in being around people who are really drunk its best to just listen to them.
Besides I had nothing to say. I was tired myself.
When I finally said Raquel I have to go back to Sleep I have a client coming this Sunday and I want to be fresh today.
So I returned to my room tried to sleep, while she used the phone to call the world. I heard her over and over. Finally I got up and said stop using the phone. She did for a moment, then I heard her hustling around in the kitchen. Again I got up she was on the couch using the phone with I don't know who having phone sex. I WAS SO MAD!! I SAID STOP... she got off the phone got her things, mind you its at 9:00 now and left.
After this I got up got dressed and walked to Lucas, I told him about this and he said she needs to get a real job, and move. I said please I have to I have no peace.
I went to the beach, alone and did not talk to a soul all day. I got a call from Diego, who said they were fixing my car????? So I walked to the peoples house, and saw the older brother from San Jose tearing the car apart and had all the broken pieces on the ground.
He has a mechanic shop and said he was going to order the parts.
We talked I said this was not the deal, but he insisted he could fix it. I said if he did I need to be where it was and I want to see the shop, not only that but if it doesn't run then they have to find a place to sell the heap.
Right about then Carson called about the client coming. So I walked to the house. mind you its not close.
I ate and got all cleaned up and Raquel came. I didn't ask where she was it dosen 't matter to me. But she plopped down laid on the sofa and watched TV. I was thinking why doesn't she go and clean up that room of hers. WOW ITS A MESS I real mess... clothes shoes dirty and clean all mixed. Papers, garbage. more... But I didn't say anything I concentrated on getting ready for the meeting. She still smelled so strong of alcohol. She complained her head hurt so I knew what happened all day.
She asked me what I was doing, I said don't you remember? all week I been telling you I have a meeting today? No she didn't remember...
Lucas and her have been as one person said on the comments here, consorting. She was involved with the liquor in the room. I caught her one night when we were working at LOS SUENOS, drinking and I asked where she got it she said the room. So I do not believe her story that the boys drank all of it. She did too.... Ok so now! He and she have been consorting, Lucas has now after today turned against me when I called to say hello. Simply Hello... he said first off DID YOU CASH THE CHECK from the hotel I said yes I did. He said bring Raquel her money. I said I am walking to the office I have some work and if she comes tell her to come there and get it. He continued to insist I come there first. I said no I am meeting with someone she is doing nothing, tell her to come to the office. He asked how much I told him $250 dollars for the hours she worked. He said you ripped her off and so you should give her free rent on top of it.
I said no, this is not working for me. I have very little money that I got paid, I have other people to pay and my rent. He yelled. I said look its not your business. And I left it at that. So today when I see Raquel I am paying her that, and asking her to move out now.
She has used the phone so much... when you call here, you get charged like a cell phone on the house phone. I never use it only when someone calls which is hardly ever. Or if I need to phone a taxi.
I am sure the bill is over 100 bucks.. To say the least I am angry about all this. She was nuts Sunday Morning she freaked me out honestly. It was because she was drunk, and god knows what else.
Hope it goes well with out arguing, and calm but I doubt it!
Sunday, December 09, 2007
The weekend, first good one in weeks
Good weekend so far, I spent alot of time at Rosies, but that is ok because we are becoming the best of freinds ever. Raquel has been distant, and I think I know why. She is guilty some of the problems that happened of the week with the boy's,Los Suenos, some issues I found out happened while I was in the USA. She was away most of the weekend. I also found out that she is intending to ask me to keep her and her son here in my apartment in a few weeks when he is released from school. That won't happen...... She thinks she can talk me into having him here, with us. Her mother watches the boy some 6 hours away and has had him for many years. Its a very long story. But let me say this, if I explain about her, it may shock some of you.
Its Shocking to me honestly, but I have am going to have to resolve the car, and her in a few days.
But aside from that, I had a good weekend so far. I went to the party with CBS, but didn't get on the show. There were so many people at the Bohieo last night that I can understand why he took no time to really interview people. I talked with David an American friend of mine most of the time. We then went up to the Posieden and had sat under the stars on the balcony, and talked. Its been so nice out, we walked to all the places, then walked to Rosie's later. he left me there because he knows her an I love to talk and he was tired. He had a photo shoot early so he said his goodbyes, and I stayed and chatted, Later we walked to the jungle and danced a little but then I came home around 2:00.
Then today I got up around 8:00 made my coffee, got dressed and went to KFC, bought a biscut and then walked to Rosies for coffee. Her and I went to the beach to sun bath, talk some more and watch the Surf competition. It was hot! We only stay about two hours, then she went home to sleep,while I walked back the house and worked on my Casino design, and the little store that wants me to redesign it. I researched and talked to Brandon a little on the chat.
I did not eat much today, not much here to eat, But I showered got dressed because I was invited to a hawaiian party at the Copa Cabana. When I was all ready Raquel came in, quiet took a shower and got ready her self. I asked where she was going she said the same the Copa. so I asked if she wanted to go with me she said yes. We both went in the taxi but the party was dead. Walking back to the Centro of town I went to Rosie's of course and sat and had some mahi mahi with garlic and a salad.
I met this man who owns a fishing boat from Marilyn, he talked me for a little bit he was having coffee and cake and offered me part of his chocolate cake. We laughed I said no... he was nice. There are so many people in town now. He said he was leaving to the USA soon, and that he would return on Christmas Eve, so I asked OH PLEASE WOULD YOU buy me some Purfume, and I will pay you when you return. I do not have one bottle at all, NOT ONE BOTTLE and for a women to not have any purfume that is shame!!! I love purfume, my favorite is Dolce and Gabana, light blue, and Be delicious... I don't know any new ones so I said if you find me that I will be so happy!! I guess that sounds strange to ask a stranger but people are so friendly here why not? Besides I have no way to go anywhere, and you have to go to San Jose to buy things that is a long way a way.
We had such a good time talking to people tonight, Yesterday too... Then later we went to Monkeys they were having an authentic, drummer group with girl dancers for the holidays. It was so exotic, everyone was dancing to the beat of the drums and nothing else. They were dressed in very Carribean clothes, bright colors and were very good.
I enjoyed it much. We then walked back to her place which is about a block, it was raining but its so hot it felt good... the streets are full of people late at night. She had to close up, so later we walked back and danced till 2:00. I ended up walking home, it was safe I had a friend walk with me he went one way and I went the other, not far from the house.
ITs late now but I feel better about my situation, Helen my friend knows of someone who buys wrecks, and Rosies told me about a deal here in a projec where they are building these simple homes. Extremely simple for a deposit of $7000. and the payments are $350.00 per month. I figure if this Casino jobs goes through I will take a portion of the money set it aside and buy my self one. Fix it all up and live simple for a while. Then when the time is right I may sell it and get something better. She is going to do the same thing. We thought if we could maybe buy one together rent it let me remodle it after it is built and rent it then resale and split the money. I wish honestly I could it myself that way no problems with friendships... Its a thought of hers but I am not sure about it. She is a good business woman so I believe it could work.
But really It needs to be talked about.
Tomorrow I have a meeting with a new client on Sunday, but first I am cleaning the house, then the beach. Rest and then get ready to meet the new people over dinner or a drink.
Christmas is not here yet, it doesn't feel at all like the season, but then again I really don't do Christmas anymore.
Its Shocking to me honestly, but I have am going to have to resolve the car, and her in a few days.
But aside from that, I had a good weekend so far. I went to the party with CBS, but didn't get on the show. There were so many people at the Bohieo last night that I can understand why he took no time to really interview people. I talked with David an American friend of mine most of the time. We then went up to the Posieden and had sat under the stars on the balcony, and talked. Its been so nice out, we walked to all the places, then walked to Rosie's later. he left me there because he knows her an I love to talk and he was tired. He had a photo shoot early so he said his goodbyes, and I stayed and chatted, Later we walked to the jungle and danced a little but then I came home around 2:00.
Then today I got up around 8:00 made my coffee, got dressed and went to KFC, bought a biscut and then walked to Rosies for coffee. Her and I went to the beach to sun bath, talk some more and watch the Surf competition. It was hot! We only stay about two hours, then she went home to sleep,while I walked back the house and worked on my Casino design, and the little store that wants me to redesign it. I researched and talked to Brandon a little on the chat.
I did not eat much today, not much here to eat, But I showered got dressed because I was invited to a hawaiian party at the Copa Cabana. When I was all ready Raquel came in, quiet took a shower and got ready her self. I asked where she was going she said the same the Copa. so I asked if she wanted to go with me she said yes. We both went in the taxi but the party was dead. Walking back to the Centro of town I went to Rosie's of course and sat and had some mahi mahi with garlic and a salad.
I met this man who owns a fishing boat from Marilyn, he talked me for a little bit he was having coffee and cake and offered me part of his chocolate cake. We laughed I said no... he was nice. There are so many people in town now. He said he was leaving to the USA soon, and that he would return on Christmas Eve, so I asked OH PLEASE WOULD YOU buy me some Purfume, and I will pay you when you return. I do not have one bottle at all, NOT ONE BOTTLE and for a women to not have any purfume that is shame!!! I love purfume, my favorite is Dolce and Gabana, light blue, and Be delicious... I don't know any new ones so I said if you find me that I will be so happy!! I guess that sounds strange to ask a stranger but people are so friendly here why not? Besides I have no way to go anywhere, and you have to go to San Jose to buy things that is a long way a way.
We had such a good time talking to people tonight, Yesterday too... Then later we went to Monkeys they were having an authentic, drummer group with girl dancers for the holidays. It was so exotic, everyone was dancing to the beat of the drums and nothing else. They were dressed in very Carribean clothes, bright colors and were very good.
I enjoyed it much. We then walked back to her place which is about a block, it was raining but its so hot it felt good... the streets are full of people late at night. She had to close up, so later we walked back and danced till 2:00. I ended up walking home, it was safe I had a friend walk with me he went one way and I went the other, not far from the house.
ITs late now but I feel better about my situation, Helen my friend knows of someone who buys wrecks, and Rosies told me about a deal here in a projec where they are building these simple homes. Extremely simple for a deposit of $7000. and the payments are $350.00 per month. I figure if this Casino jobs goes through I will take a portion of the money set it aside and buy my self one. Fix it all up and live simple for a while. Then when the time is right I may sell it and get something better. She is going to do the same thing. We thought if we could maybe buy one together rent it let me remodle it after it is built and rent it then resale and split the money. I wish honestly I could it myself that way no problems with friendships... Its a thought of hers but I am not sure about it. She is a good business woman so I believe it could work.
But really It needs to be talked about.
Tomorrow I have a meeting with a new client on Sunday, but first I am cleaning the house, then the beach. Rest and then get ready to meet the new people over dinner or a drink.
Christmas is not here yet, it doesn't feel at all like the season, but then again I really don't do Christmas anymore.
Friday, December 07, 2007
Feeling different today
I woke up feeling really bad, part of might be that I went to bed so late. Kevin Clint's friend called me earlier in the evening and asked me to go the Jungle bar to dance. I got cleaned up and met him. I needed to get out. I have not gone to the beach nothing to releave the stress or tension. So I went after the day of waiting on the Mariotts for four hours for my check. They couldn't pay so I am waiting still. I drove up there with a borrowed car that the lights went out when coming home after dark.
I talk to Lucas feeling a little down, but not saying how I felt. He talk to me for a while and invited me to eat, he wanted to go see the Christmas decor. So we drove back up there and it was a bit scary the lights kept going on and off.
I called the owner and asked about why? he explained the trick. We drove back and that is when Kevin called. So I went with him to Dance.
I did not drink a thing but water, No money anyway and I did not feel like drinking. I just danced, and danced. My feet were killing me bad, all the walking, and then dancing. It was fun for the most part. I met an attorney and an architect that were celebrating the architects wedding. Sort of a bachelor party for a couple of days here in Jaco. They were fun and very nice. We talked allot and danced with all of them. It was a group of guys in the late 30's early 40's really funny men. That was fun they kept me busy dancing.
Then I came home around 2:30 to an empty house. I have no idea where Raquel is today.
But when I woke up I felt worried again. I am waiting for the call for the check to find a ride and go to the bank. Its not much not even enough to cover my costs for the month. But hey its better than not having anything. The only thing here is you can not pay portions on internet, phone, or power.They shut it off with out the whole balance.
Other than this, the car is still there , yesterday did not accomplish much in getting it resolved. So today if I hear nothing I am going to just sell it to someone fast. I have to have something to get around.
I feel bad .. not sick, not tired but just bad about this whole thing. The hotel called about the check but wanted to take the mini bar bill out of what they owe me which is not much.. the bar bill is probably if I can imagine $200 or more.. those kids ate everything and drank everything with out my knowledge, When the GM told me I felt sick, and worried about how they were going to handle it. I sure hope they don't take it out, it will put me back in square one exactly where I am right now. Which is having nothing. Oh boy!!! I am praying they don't I need to pay bills and eat...
I talk to Lucas feeling a little down, but not saying how I felt. He talk to me for a while and invited me to eat, he wanted to go see the Christmas decor. So we drove back up there and it was a bit scary the lights kept going on and off.
I called the owner and asked about why? he explained the trick. We drove back and that is when Kevin called. So I went with him to Dance.
I did not drink a thing but water, No money anyway and I did not feel like drinking. I just danced, and danced. My feet were killing me bad, all the walking, and then dancing. It was fun for the most part. I met an attorney and an architect that were celebrating the architects wedding. Sort of a bachelor party for a couple of days here in Jaco. They were fun and very nice. We talked allot and danced with all of them. It was a group of guys in the late 30's early 40's really funny men. That was fun they kept me busy dancing.
Then I came home around 2:30 to an empty house. I have no idea where Raquel is today.
But when I woke up I felt worried again. I am waiting for the call for the check to find a ride and go to the bank. Its not much not even enough to cover my costs for the month. But hey its better than not having anything. The only thing here is you can not pay portions on internet, phone, or power.They shut it off with out the whole balance.
Other than this, the car is still there , yesterday did not accomplish much in getting it resolved. So today if I hear nothing I am going to just sell it to someone fast. I have to have something to get around.
I feel bad .. not sick, not tired but just bad about this whole thing. The hotel called about the check but wanted to take the mini bar bill out of what they owe me which is not much.. the bar bill is probably if I can imagine $200 or more.. those kids ate everything and drank everything with out my knowledge, When the GM told me I felt sick, and worried about how they were going to handle it. I sure hope they don't take it out, it will put me back in square one exactly where I am right now. Which is having nothing. Oh boy!!! I am praying they don't I need to pay bills and eat...
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Walking home at night
Raquel and I walked all the way home from Rosie's. It sounds like Rosie's is the only place I go but it isn't I just like being there and so do many other people. It is a gather hole for many people from all over the world outside talking drinking coffee, eating and smoking. For the Vip people and I am one!! we get more. We get drinks, or beers, that she offers, little snacks, bbq, birthday parties and much social action. Jokes, talks, fights, you name it, every thing you think of can happens there. Sometimes its just wild, there are all sorts of things you see. From handsome men and women, drunks to tranvestes, to American elegantante, to European's. to Candians, Really I can't explain there is so many things that you experience in one night that is makes the character strong. Its fun, and interesing.
We have a ball trying to figure out if it is a boy or girl. It really is amazing these men, that pretend they are women. They are beautiful! and where do they hide all that stuff? We look we laugh, we get mad, because they are so good at it, and we get angry.Some of them are evil, they rob, they molest, and they gang attact some of the people. Not Women, but men to get there money. Its just interesting, not just the oddities but the people in general.
We see some wild cars, motorcycles that belong in the dirt, quads, that race up and down. Huge trucks, Buses that are full of Tourists, and some times the immigration buses. Then there is all the stray dogs that chase people, Rosie has three that are hers, she screams, yells and worries that there going to get run over, or that there going to bite someone. There is only one that is crazy and that is dingo. He is owned by American man and he never controls where this dog is so Rosie takes care of him, feeds him, houses him in the store, and leashes him when he gets nuts... Its funny really. I call him GRINGO NOT DINGO
Its getting to be very nice at night here now.By that I mean its not hot and not raining. Its cool but breezy. So it makes it enjoyable to be out and sitting and talking.
I love My Rosie, She is an interesting person herself.
She feels concerned about my situation, and is angry too but says the same thing as I. Which is I have to just move on with a plan to get something else and try to continue to work and pull my self up.
Yesterday, we walked all over again, its very tiring in the heat. But Great exercise. Can't get too much accomplished its too tough to get around.
We talk to the boys mothers, she is agreeing but I still see nothing yet.
I got Rodrigo to take me to the Marriotts to finish, Raquel was grouchy and complained about how much work it took to change all the paper on the pointsettias, she is not use to working. I am to me it wasn't bad but I was not happy with the look, from foil bright colors, to plane brown craft paper. Its simple but hey the GM is happy that is all I care about right now.
She is a really sweet woman, I like her and I know she likes me too so maybe things will work out with us.
This evening I go for the bid for the Casino, total remodle.Hope it goes good.
I have a meeting with a new client on Sunday night so that should be encouraging.
Everyday since the wrecking of my car, I feel different. I felt peacefull yesterday after talking to the mom, but today when I woke up I felt worried. And now I am sitting alone in the kitchen looking out the door which is wide open. No birds singing, its strange, Its too quiet?No one talking or yelling or music?
Its late, I slept good. But I have worry in my heart today. I need transportation, almost impossible to work with out it.
Today my plan is to collect from Marriotts spend an hour or more in the office to get some leads from the sales people. Maybe clean up the office. Then try to get beach time. The time on the beach is a cleansing of my mind. When I lay there soak up the sun. I pray, I think, I rest, and Relax the brain. I cherish my time there... It is something I thought about allot when I lived in Vancouver Washington, where you could never get warm but a few months out of the year.
I talk to Marley this Englishman who frequents Jaco every few months. He lives and owns several companies in London. We talk often he is a character himself. Full of Tatoos but beautiful ones the whole upper torso is tatooed. I am not a fan of tatoos but his are cool. Anyway we were talking last night. Of course he thinks me being here is a good thing, He said you only have one life. The kids have to learn how to deal with the fact that you are taking time for you now.
You gave them there first 18 to 20 years of life. He said you worked right? I said oh my god did I work! So you fed them clothed them housed them? treated them, gave them gifts? and more right? I said of course I tried to be a good mom. He said now its your time... learn to live and enjoy what life you have.That is exactly what I am doing. I am learning how to live, differently. I actually find joy in small things. I am stressed about the bad situations but not pressured, not scheduled not crazy running around like a mad woman. And for me I feel better, I look better, and I act different. ( no matter what my family thinks) they remember the past and dwell on, instead of trying to enjoy me now and allowing me to enjoy them while I visit. Taking time to talk, taking time to eat together go somewhere together just be together.
Now its up to them, If they want to see me or know how I am its up to them.
I went and saw Lucas when Yesterday, oh boy we have to talk. He leaves for California in a week. He had invited me to go along, but hasn't said much to me since I backed off, after he wanted sex from me. I just want to know the man first. Not know him a couple of days and automactically jump in bed with him. Besides he has to many women around him all the time.
I understand men, but I want to be number one. I don't see that ever happening with this old geezer. 70 something years old and has a hairem?
He is living his dream... and I don't think I am a part of it. Although he got jealousy when his neighbor began talking to me and invited me on a fishing boat. I agreeded to go.. why not? I love fishing. That would be a fun thing to do and to eat it!! yummmm!! Fresh Tuna or Mahi mahi?
When the neigbor walked off Lucas was mad. He said if you go with him I will never talk to you again... I said why do you have rules with me. I am only your friend? when you have a whole city of women here all the time. And I say nothing about it to you? He said ohhhhh? I see I said no I see its one sided were only friends! whats the problem with me going fishing?
He dropped the subject and drank his drink. He was working on getting tipsy. I left I had to go to Marriotts... But that is story I want to work on. I think he likes me more than he knows... and actually I like him too. But TOO MANY WOMEN AND HES TOO LOSE WITH HIS MONEY WITH THEM! I want some!!!!lol
We have a ball trying to figure out if it is a boy or girl. It really is amazing these men, that pretend they are women. They are beautiful! and where do they hide all that stuff? We look we laugh, we get mad, because they are so good at it, and we get angry.Some of them are evil, they rob, they molest, and they gang attact some of the people. Not Women, but men to get there money. Its just interesting, not just the oddities but the people in general.
We see some wild cars, motorcycles that belong in the dirt, quads, that race up and down. Huge trucks, Buses that are full of Tourists, and some times the immigration buses. Then there is all the stray dogs that chase people, Rosie has three that are hers, she screams, yells and worries that there going to get run over, or that there going to bite someone. There is only one that is crazy and that is dingo. He is owned by American man and he never controls where this dog is so Rosie takes care of him, feeds him, houses him in the store, and leashes him when he gets nuts... Its funny really. I call him GRINGO NOT DINGO
Its getting to be very nice at night here now.By that I mean its not hot and not raining. Its cool but breezy. So it makes it enjoyable to be out and sitting and talking.
I love My Rosie, She is an interesting person herself.
She feels concerned about my situation, and is angry too but says the same thing as I. Which is I have to just move on with a plan to get something else and try to continue to work and pull my self up.
Yesterday, we walked all over again, its very tiring in the heat. But Great exercise. Can't get too much accomplished its too tough to get around.
We talk to the boys mothers, she is agreeing but I still see nothing yet.
I got Rodrigo to take me to the Marriotts to finish, Raquel was grouchy and complained about how much work it took to change all the paper on the pointsettias, she is not use to working. I am to me it wasn't bad but I was not happy with the look, from foil bright colors, to plane brown craft paper. Its simple but hey the GM is happy that is all I care about right now.
She is a really sweet woman, I like her and I know she likes me too so maybe things will work out with us.
This evening I go for the bid for the Casino, total remodle.Hope it goes good.
I have a meeting with a new client on Sunday night so that should be encouraging.
Everyday since the wrecking of my car, I feel different. I felt peacefull yesterday after talking to the mom, but today when I woke up I felt worried. And now I am sitting alone in the kitchen looking out the door which is wide open. No birds singing, its strange, Its too quiet?No one talking or yelling or music?
Its late, I slept good. But I have worry in my heart today. I need transportation, almost impossible to work with out it.
Today my plan is to collect from Marriotts spend an hour or more in the office to get some leads from the sales people. Maybe clean up the office. Then try to get beach time. The time on the beach is a cleansing of my mind. When I lay there soak up the sun. I pray, I think, I rest, and Relax the brain. I cherish my time there... It is something I thought about allot when I lived in Vancouver Washington, where you could never get warm but a few months out of the year.
I talk to Marley this Englishman who frequents Jaco every few months. He lives and owns several companies in London. We talk often he is a character himself. Full of Tatoos but beautiful ones the whole upper torso is tatooed. I am not a fan of tatoos but his are cool. Anyway we were talking last night. Of course he thinks me being here is a good thing, He said you only have one life. The kids have to learn how to deal with the fact that you are taking time for you now.
You gave them there first 18 to 20 years of life. He said you worked right? I said oh my god did I work! So you fed them clothed them housed them? treated them, gave them gifts? and more right? I said of course I tried to be a good mom. He said now its your time... learn to live and enjoy what life you have.That is exactly what I am doing. I am learning how to live, differently. I actually find joy in small things. I am stressed about the bad situations but not pressured, not scheduled not crazy running around like a mad woman. And for me I feel better, I look better, and I act different. ( no matter what my family thinks) they remember the past and dwell on, instead of trying to enjoy me now and allowing me to enjoy them while I visit. Taking time to talk, taking time to eat together go somewhere together just be together.
Now its up to them, If they want to see me or know how I am its up to them.
I went and saw Lucas when Yesterday, oh boy we have to talk. He leaves for California in a week. He had invited me to go along, but hasn't said much to me since I backed off, after he wanted sex from me. I just want to know the man first. Not know him a couple of days and automactically jump in bed with him. Besides he has to many women around him all the time.
I understand men, but I want to be number one. I don't see that ever happening with this old geezer. 70 something years old and has a hairem?
He is living his dream... and I don't think I am a part of it. Although he got jealousy when his neighbor began talking to me and invited me on a fishing boat. I agreeded to go.. why not? I love fishing. That would be a fun thing to do and to eat it!! yummmm!! Fresh Tuna or Mahi mahi?
When the neigbor walked off Lucas was mad. He said if you go with him I will never talk to you again... I said why do you have rules with me. I am only your friend? when you have a whole city of women here all the time. And I say nothing about it to you? He said ohhhhh? I see I said no I see its one sided were only friends! whats the problem with me going fishing?
He dropped the subject and drank his drink. He was working on getting tipsy. I left I had to go to Marriotts... But that is story I want to work on. I think he likes me more than he knows... and actually I like him too. But TOO MANY WOMEN AND HES TOO LOSE WITH HIS MONEY WITH THEM! I want some!!!!lol
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Waking up to Sunshine although I feel stressed
It is so nice to wake up to Sunshine, and hear birds singing everyday. The songs of the birds here are so lovely, so different. It makes you smile, it makes you think different thoughts.
Although I feel very stressed about this situation. I need to go the Marriotts and change the paper on the Poinstsettias, I put a pretty red and white foil, but they want brown craft paper. Its minor to me but its for several hundred of them so it takes time. The car is still sitting in this yard of the young guys that crashed it. I seriously think its best to sell it as it is, and move on.
Last night I got a call from the kid Allan, he said he needed to talk to me. I asked him to meet me at of course Rosies, that is a nuetral spot and others will witness.( by the way the spell check on Blogger Is not working so please forgive my spelling errors, I am not perfect) We met, he said that the brother who is a mechanic wants to buy the car from me???? ok I am super curious now because this is what I wanted to do anyway? strange... he said the brother has a small truck type mini van. They do not have these in the USA but here there are many. This sort of car is perfect for the work I do.Plus they wanted to offer me cash for my car. In the amount I was exactly thinking?? so is this too good to be true or is it the good thing I said should happen when accident occurred?
He went on to say, that his brother will fix the car completely, and give me the other van, for now then in 20 days pay the balance for my car. I told Raquel who handled the conversation, no I said I will take the van and the money at the same time. With attorney's and papers that are legal. So he agreed to call his brother, have a meeting with me on Thursday and I hope it gets handled soon. Its pretty tought with out a car, to get anything done here.
After this conversation, weather it is true or not I felt happy, I felt relieved, and thinking this could be the good thing I was feeling. To have a delivery vehicle like this is perfect ,actually saving money on transportation all the time. And right now I have three jobs lined up. Lets see if they come through... But there all good ones very good ones that could pull me out of this hole I am in.
I slept very well last night, I ate junk thought before. Chips and dips and some chocolate that Migelito gave me at Rosies last night. Horrible but I walked all day everywhere it was hot and I sweated so much.
I sure hope this gets turned around soon...
Then this morning I read on MSN, how Retirees are moving out of the USA, hmmmmm just like me??? now???? I found a couple of places that I would like to check out.
One is Argentina, Buenos Aires, very cheap. I have a friend here he and I visit each other when he is the country. He just came back from Argentina, he told me about getting his hair cut by using the fingers, with razors attached to the fingers. His hair looks so cool, really nice.. it was 3 dollars there.. He bought clothes shoes and beautiful watch for less than $75.00. tourisum there is picking up that is what he does promotes tourisum, he explained to me about how he works, and suggested I visit. The ticket is less than going to the USA. I just read the whole article about Argentina, Spain, Equador, Equador is similar to Here beautiful and warm, and super cheap the property. So Maybe I am going to come up with a plan... not sure yet but it can't hurt to explore. I make some decent cash purchase a ticket and check it out.
I just know that there has to be something for me. I have worked allot and very hard my whole life. I want to enjoy a life that is simple, with warm climate, good food that is clean. Beaches that are beautiful... Yes it sounds like a dream, but honestly being here has for the most part been incredible, yes many issues, but I see so much beauty here, and the climate is the best. Like I said waking up to sunshine, and hearing the birds...wow. Yesterday When I walked to where my car is, I heard Macaws screaming in the trees above, I looked up to see how many. Mind you this is right in town. I saw 8 resting in the tops of the trees, There HUGE ya know I mean huge. Bright red, blue , yellow... Amazing. I think that the beauty of the country for me is the buffer for all the bad situations.
So now Today I am going to try again to talk to Allans Mother, see about the car again, then I am going to the office, to print out my invoice for Marriotts. I emailed and asked for copies of the report, and if we could have lunch so I give them a gift and change the paper. But I have not heard back from either one. Strange??? I hope nothing is going on with that accident. Changing there views about my work and the place?
Friday I plan on going to this business after hour, at the Boheio, bar restuarant on the beach.CBS is coming and wanting to talk to people about working here what we do and how things are going. So I Hope I get an interview. It will be at the Posieden sports bar after that, which is right down the same street.
I am going to both, so I get on there... maybe someone will see hear and hire.
If I do get on I will tell you when it airs and where I am in the clip.
Although I feel very stressed about this situation. I need to go the Marriotts and change the paper on the Poinstsettias, I put a pretty red and white foil, but they want brown craft paper. Its minor to me but its for several hundred of them so it takes time. The car is still sitting in this yard of the young guys that crashed it. I seriously think its best to sell it as it is, and move on.
Last night I got a call from the kid Allan, he said he needed to talk to me. I asked him to meet me at of course Rosies, that is a nuetral spot and others will witness.( by the way the spell check on Blogger Is not working so please forgive my spelling errors, I am not perfect) We met, he said that the brother who is a mechanic wants to buy the car from me???? ok I am super curious now because this is what I wanted to do anyway? strange... he said the brother has a small truck type mini van. They do not have these in the USA but here there are many. This sort of car is perfect for the work I do.Plus they wanted to offer me cash for my car. In the amount I was exactly thinking?? so is this too good to be true or is it the good thing I said should happen when accident occurred?
He went on to say, that his brother will fix the car completely, and give me the other van, for now then in 20 days pay the balance for my car. I told Raquel who handled the conversation, no I said I will take the van and the money at the same time. With attorney's and papers that are legal. So he agreed to call his brother, have a meeting with me on Thursday and I hope it gets handled soon. Its pretty tought with out a car, to get anything done here.
After this conversation, weather it is true or not I felt happy, I felt relieved, and thinking this could be the good thing I was feeling. To have a delivery vehicle like this is perfect ,actually saving money on transportation all the time. And right now I have three jobs lined up. Lets see if they come through... But there all good ones very good ones that could pull me out of this hole I am in.
I slept very well last night, I ate junk thought before. Chips and dips and some chocolate that Migelito gave me at Rosies last night. Horrible but I walked all day everywhere it was hot and I sweated so much.
I sure hope this gets turned around soon...
Then this morning I read on MSN, how Retirees are moving out of the USA, hmmmmm just like me??? now???? I found a couple of places that I would like to check out.
One is Argentina, Buenos Aires, very cheap. I have a friend here he and I visit each other when he is the country. He just came back from Argentina, he told me about getting his hair cut by using the fingers, with razors attached to the fingers. His hair looks so cool, really nice.. it was 3 dollars there.. He bought clothes shoes and beautiful watch for less than $75.00. tourisum there is picking up that is what he does promotes tourisum, he explained to me about how he works, and suggested I visit. The ticket is less than going to the USA. I just read the whole article about Argentina, Spain, Equador, Equador is similar to Here beautiful and warm, and super cheap the property. So Maybe I am going to come up with a plan... not sure yet but it can't hurt to explore. I make some decent cash purchase a ticket and check it out.
I just know that there has to be something for me. I have worked allot and very hard my whole life. I want to enjoy a life that is simple, with warm climate, good food that is clean. Beaches that are beautiful... Yes it sounds like a dream, but honestly being here has for the most part been incredible, yes many issues, but I see so much beauty here, and the climate is the best. Like I said waking up to sunshine, and hearing the birds...wow. Yesterday When I walked to where my car is, I heard Macaws screaming in the trees above, I looked up to see how many. Mind you this is right in town. I saw 8 resting in the tops of the trees, There HUGE ya know I mean huge. Bright red, blue , yellow... Amazing. I think that the beauty of the country for me is the buffer for all the bad situations.
So now Today I am going to try again to talk to Allans Mother, see about the car again, then I am going to the office, to print out my invoice for Marriotts. I emailed and asked for copies of the report, and if we could have lunch so I give them a gift and change the paper. But I have not heard back from either one. Strange??? I hope nothing is going on with that accident. Changing there views about my work and the place?
Friday I plan on going to this business after hour, at the Boheio, bar restuarant on the beach.CBS is coming and wanting to talk to people about working here what we do and how things are going. So I Hope I get an interview. It will be at the Posieden sports bar after that, which is right down the same street.
I am going to both, so I get on there... maybe someone will see hear and hire.
If I do get on I will tell you when it airs and where I am in the clip.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Things in the plan changed today
Well the plan to go and get the oijota and police didn't happen. I talked to Raquel after writting this morning. I explained that I really didn't want to get in any fights with this whole thing. Trying to get lawyers, or police but to try to handle it with out causing harm to my future here. Deciding on trying to sell the car outright, and buy something small and cheap to get me around for now.
Her and I walked all over town trying to find the mother, then questioning people if they knew anyone who buys wrecked cars? I did call the tow company and asked they and they offered a sum, Another friend of mine, Gorge has a mechanic friend who is coming I hope on Thursday to tell the damages. It took most of the day to do this. We do not have Yellow pages, and you can call information but half the time they have any listings or they can't find it.
I am not frustrated yet.
I had gone to talk to lucas today to say Hello, tell him the story and see how the old buzzard was doing.
He was already having his daily sip, at 1:00 so I knew he would probably continue the whole evening. I went to my office checked on mail. Then walk to Rosies, visited for about an hour. Then Raquel and I walked to the Mas Permanos, bought a few little things. Water most importantly, coffee, some cheese, yogurt. That was it.
Then in We thought maybe we should ride a taxi its still few blocks to the house or more. Then I saw Diego at the bakery, I asked him to give me a ride and he did.
Its an early night for me. I am going to try to go to sleep before 1:00 Hopefully tomorrow I can go to the beach, I haven't been in 2 and a half weeks, and live 8 blocks from the beach.
Her and I walked all over town trying to find the mother, then questioning people if they knew anyone who buys wrecked cars? I did call the tow company and asked they and they offered a sum, Another friend of mine, Gorge has a mechanic friend who is coming I hope on Thursday to tell the damages. It took most of the day to do this. We do not have Yellow pages, and you can call information but half the time they have any listings or they can't find it.
I am not frustrated yet.
I had gone to talk to lucas today to say Hello, tell him the story and see how the old buzzard was doing.
He was already having his daily sip, at 1:00 so I knew he would probably continue the whole evening. I went to my office checked on mail. Then walk to Rosies, visited for about an hour. Then Raquel and I walked to the Mas Permanos, bought a few little things. Water most importantly, coffee, some cheese, yogurt. That was it.
Then in We thought maybe we should ride a taxi its still few blocks to the house or more. Then I saw Diego at the bakery, I asked him to give me a ride and he did.
Its an early night for me. I am going to try to go to sleep before 1:00 Hopefully tomorrow I can go to the beach, I haven't been in 2 and a half weeks, and live 8 blocks from the beach.
The Marriotts, and the Accident
I got up around 8:00 only after being up all night thinking and trying to figure out what i sgoing to happen now. The phone ran, it was diego he was standing in front of my car in there front yard, he was saying I can not believe this, OH MARIANNA OH.. he was very upset, said the boys mothers was crying having a fit feeling so much anxiety over this. I am so exhausted from the running, the hauling the lifting,lugging and designing, that I could hardly talk. He tried to tell me they were going to haul it to a repair shop yesterday and have it fixed in a few days. But honestly with my expereinces here so far. I hardly believe any of it. I never heard from them all day. Not a call not a word from Deigo later.
I got dressed around 9:30 we went for food, and then Walked into town to talk to Nelsen. See if he had sold any of my arrangements, so I would have some cash. He sold nothing....
I was disapointed, thinking now what do I do with all that? We walked to Diegos because he promised to take to the Marriotts around 1:30 or 2:00. He was too tied up, so I called Rodridgo, and he paid for a taxi for me and we went up to the Marriotts to do all the finishing touches.
We had about 45 more pointsettias to put out, hang a huge garland and construct it on site. Make a large wreath, and repair the spa product.
I knew to go straight to the office first and talk to my bosses, the two gengeral managers. I had a feeling they were going to want to review the work and probably question me about the accident.
Exactly so, We waited the both came in. My face was so stressed, my hair yesterday was literally falling out when I touched it. You could see in my face the strain and the worry.
She adored everything, loved the whole job, except the paper we used for the pointsettia's I thought it was very nice, red and white the whole job is basically red white silver and gold. She wants Craft paper on the plants. So I agreed, where I am getting that with out a car is the next question. But over all they loved everything. It is very well done.
Then the other manager left , and she asked me to close the door.
She asked me about the car and what happened. I explained what I knew since I was not around when it happend. She told me they reviewed the room and found that most of the alcohol in the frig had been drunk and replaced. I then knew what was going on. I was embarrassed, and apologized for their behavior. But they are young and I knew this when I asked them to work. I had other people, the two nicas. but they were no where to be found when I went to pick them up for work. Two or three times. These to brothers also are very responsible, and have worked with me before and work well.
These two new ones were fine except one Luis, he was wild an out of control.
I know he had the most to do with this accident.
She continued to tell me about the pot that has to be replaced, and then asked how is the car. I said right now I believe it could be totalled. The parts are only in one place in San Jose and I was not sure what or how it was going to get repaired, if it could? I remember when I was young I crashed a car a toyota. I was going home from my sister, the one that wrote on here. After I had babysat. It was late I had a fight with a boy friend. But that was not the cause of the accident. Three young boys ran a red light and broad sided me, it threw me out of the car. My head hit the pavement. I hurt my left side, and had a chipped ankle. The car was totalled.
I remember seeing it after I got out of the hospital and this car the tortuga is very similar look.I could see the motor is not in the casing. It is pretty smashed in that area, the battery is off to the side, the whole front end on the right side is smashed.
The fender is peeled back and the tire is gone, the metal under I believe the directional drive or that is what they call it here. The axel is broke. Now with the fire damage? electrical I am sure. And Tortuga suffered much electrical. So I don't know about any of the repairs.
I explained to her I was not sure... she was kind and said Marianna these things happen. Be strong we are not going to do anything to you and you have not worry about your job. I was relieved but so embarrassed.
Later Leda, Raquel and I walked up to the fourth floor to look at the view over the hotel and Leda talked to me. She said some very nice things, and told me not to worry that something would come as far as help.
I sure hope so, its not like I can go out and buy a new car, I don't believe they can pay to have this one fixed? and what a mess I have to involve the police the oijota, attorney's the Marriotts?
God!!
We finished the work, and then called Rodrigo , he came fast with Gerson and we did a tour of the hotel. They were so nice saying how beautiful, and enjoying the tour.
He then took me to Rosies, it was about 9:00 by then. I stayed and told the story to Rosie, Helen, Sylivia, and a couple of other of my friends.
Everyone is mad, everyone is saying Get all this do all that.. I know I have to, but honestly what will it accomplish here? Things are in slow mode process, I need a car now. I feel exasperated over this. I need to work. And now work is coming and I don't have a car?????
I woke up today after being at Rossies, till 12:30 and to bed at one again. No sleep last night only three hours.. I am burnt now.
I don't feel like talking to anyone, I don't feel like explaining again, or even dealing with all the paper work I have to do now about the car. But Helen, And Raquel and going to be my mouth today and try to get a order from the oijota or police with the evidence of the report from the hotel and serve it on the people.
Wow I really just have to be there there going to do all the fighting. Good because I have no energy to fight right now.
I guess were going to walk to get food. There is nothing in the house at all no coffee, nothing not even water.
But the good note is Weds I want to have lunch with the Marriotts for the payment and give Gifts to the managers for the opportunity to work there.
Then I am going to set up the meeting with the Casino for the remodle! so I do have something to look forward too.
I got dressed around 9:30 we went for food, and then Walked into town to talk to Nelsen. See if he had sold any of my arrangements, so I would have some cash. He sold nothing....
I was disapointed, thinking now what do I do with all that? We walked to Diegos because he promised to take to the Marriotts around 1:30 or 2:00. He was too tied up, so I called Rodridgo, and he paid for a taxi for me and we went up to the Marriotts to do all the finishing touches.
We had about 45 more pointsettias to put out, hang a huge garland and construct it on site. Make a large wreath, and repair the spa product.
I knew to go straight to the office first and talk to my bosses, the two gengeral managers. I had a feeling they were going to want to review the work and probably question me about the accident.
Exactly so, We waited the both came in. My face was so stressed, my hair yesterday was literally falling out when I touched it. You could see in my face the strain and the worry.
She adored everything, loved the whole job, except the paper we used for the pointsettia's I thought it was very nice, red and white the whole job is basically red white silver and gold. She wants Craft paper on the plants. So I agreed, where I am getting that with out a car is the next question. But over all they loved everything. It is very well done.
Then the other manager left , and she asked me to close the door.
She asked me about the car and what happened. I explained what I knew since I was not around when it happend. She told me they reviewed the room and found that most of the alcohol in the frig had been drunk and replaced. I then knew what was going on. I was embarrassed, and apologized for their behavior. But they are young and I knew this when I asked them to work. I had other people, the two nicas. but they were no where to be found when I went to pick them up for work. Two or three times. These to brothers also are very responsible, and have worked with me before and work well.
These two new ones were fine except one Luis, he was wild an out of control.
I know he had the most to do with this accident.
She continued to tell me about the pot that has to be replaced, and then asked how is the car. I said right now I believe it could be totalled. The parts are only in one place in San Jose and I was not sure what or how it was going to get repaired, if it could? I remember when I was young I crashed a car a toyota. I was going home from my sister, the one that wrote on here. After I had babysat. It was late I had a fight with a boy friend. But that was not the cause of the accident. Three young boys ran a red light and broad sided me, it threw me out of the car. My head hit the pavement. I hurt my left side, and had a chipped ankle. The car was totalled.
I remember seeing it after I got out of the hospital and this car the tortuga is very similar look.I could see the motor is not in the casing. It is pretty smashed in that area, the battery is off to the side, the whole front end on the right side is smashed.
The fender is peeled back and the tire is gone, the metal under I believe the directional drive or that is what they call it here. The axel is broke. Now with the fire damage? electrical I am sure. And Tortuga suffered much electrical. So I don't know about any of the repairs.
I explained to her I was not sure... she was kind and said Marianna these things happen. Be strong we are not going to do anything to you and you have not worry about your job. I was relieved but so embarrassed.
Later Leda, Raquel and I walked up to the fourth floor to look at the view over the hotel and Leda talked to me. She said some very nice things, and told me not to worry that something would come as far as help.
I sure hope so, its not like I can go out and buy a new car, I don't believe they can pay to have this one fixed? and what a mess I have to involve the police the oijota, attorney's the Marriotts?
God!!
We finished the work, and then called Rodrigo , he came fast with Gerson and we did a tour of the hotel. They were so nice saying how beautiful, and enjoying the tour.
He then took me to Rosies, it was about 9:00 by then. I stayed and told the story to Rosie, Helen, Sylivia, and a couple of other of my friends.
Everyone is mad, everyone is saying Get all this do all that.. I know I have to, but honestly what will it accomplish here? Things are in slow mode process, I need a car now. I feel exasperated over this. I need to work. And now work is coming and I don't have a car?????
I woke up today after being at Rossies, till 12:30 and to bed at one again. No sleep last night only three hours.. I am burnt now.
I don't feel like talking to anyone, I don't feel like explaining again, or even dealing with all the paper work I have to do now about the car. But Helen, And Raquel and going to be my mouth today and try to get a order from the oijota or police with the evidence of the report from the hotel and serve it on the people.
Wow I really just have to be there there going to do all the fighting. Good because I have no energy to fight right now.
I guess were going to walk to get food. There is nothing in the house at all no coffee, nothing not even water.
But the good note is Weds I want to have lunch with the Marriotts for the payment and give Gifts to the managers for the opportunity to work there.
Then I am going to set up the meeting with the Casino for the remodle! so I do have something to look forward too.
Monday, December 03, 2007
We finished and its really spectacular
BUT!!! of course something had to happen!!! One of the guys had to move my car, I was tied up on top of a big ladder, finishing up the last tree for the end of job.
A huge bus was pulling in. Lots of people were in the hotel and more were coming. The place was packed. Honestly, in my life of working in Hotels, and restaurants doing decor. I never saw so many people, its really fun though to watch them oo and aww and photo and appreciate the gift that god has given me. I thanked god so many times today.
Well he went to move the car but had to go around the turn about, he hit a speed bump and lost control, how I have no idea. But he hit the post in the hotel at the end of the drive, and well the car is about totalled. He was frantic,and not in control.
Raquel ran and so did the other people. I stayed calmed and controlled, and finished what I was doing. Honestly, I did not know where my peace was coming from( it could be my faith) but I didn't go and look. I cleaned up the area, put things in our room. Then walked out and and saw what happened. The poor guy was crying, screaming... he is poor he's working for me whos practically at this point poverty now. I felt sad for him, and now shocked at what will I do. There is no way as of today that I can fix this, he has nothing... I have nothing. So we talked and he paid for a tow truck, but it came three hours later. I was very calm, Can't tell you why but I never lost it. I was just sad, thinking now what? how will I do the new work that I just aquired yesterday?
Thank god he didn't hit anyone, or tear down the post and the roof. It was not the main building it was golf building.
The front right side, axel is broke, the engine I have no idea. the tire is gone so is the hood, the fender.
I went back inside after I signed a report, and finished the job. Raquel was upset with me as for why I was not upset, and how could I keep working??? But all I knew as this had to be done. And I will figure out how to get around again some how.
This is horrible really, but I can't explain it, I have no tears, nothing. I just am numb.
Now I have no car, when the tow truck came. Raquel was yelling in spanish at the two brothers, they were upset too... crying and screaming, I was standing with my arms folded just staring, really I was upset, but I at this point am so tired and exhausted, and my brain can not think how to comprehend spanish. I did not understand a word anyone was saying. I felt as if I was in a bubble and couldn't hear at all. NOT KIDDING... I then shook myself out it, talk to the tow driver, asked him to wait for 20 minutes while I cleaned up my room in the hotel, got my things and he could drive me home. I decided to put the car at the guys house.
NOT MINE, and the mother could look at it every day. They have to pay but I know that this may be the last of Tortuga, this is what i have called this car since day one.
Now if I had insurance, not a huge problem, but hey I have been so down now for so long its been inpossible to do anything. Let alone pay insurance... ok don't get appauled at this!! I am doing what can at this point to stay alive. Soooo now this is huge issue. Its now 3:00 am I can not sleep, I drank a beer from the hotel just now. And really, crazy as it may sound to some people, I believe something good is going to come from this too. This year has been pretty bad. But I hope that something Good comes from his bad situation.
As we pulled out with the car, the two guys were sitting in the car while we were in the cab of the tow. all of a sudden smoke starting pouring out of the hood of the car. It started on fire... we stopped and all jumped out of the tow. Raquel is now hysterical.. running. I got out stood by the side of the road and watched. They uhooked the battery and put the fire out and then we all got back into the vehicles and went to Jaco.
Its not a light situation, its serious for me.. but I have no freaked out additude...
What will I do? How will I explain this to people? I AM NOT GOING GIVE UP... untill I am in the ground. ( this is getting close)
I don't know what I am doing tomorrow to get the hotel to do some finishing touches and talk to the general manager. But I have to find a way and the hotel is, it is fabulous really, I thank god for the ideas I get. I am blessed with a talent that amazes me as well as it does other people.
Raquel is exhausted, she stated to me tonight, I only work four days with you, how have you done this for all these years? I cried then...
A huge bus was pulling in. Lots of people were in the hotel and more were coming. The place was packed. Honestly, in my life of working in Hotels, and restaurants doing decor. I never saw so many people, its really fun though to watch them oo and aww and photo and appreciate the gift that god has given me. I thanked god so many times today.
Well he went to move the car but had to go around the turn about, he hit a speed bump and lost control, how I have no idea. But he hit the post in the hotel at the end of the drive, and well the car is about totalled. He was frantic,and not in control.
Raquel ran and so did the other people. I stayed calmed and controlled, and finished what I was doing. Honestly, I did not know where my peace was coming from( it could be my faith) but I didn't go and look. I cleaned up the area, put things in our room. Then walked out and and saw what happened. The poor guy was crying, screaming... he is poor he's working for me whos practically at this point poverty now. I felt sad for him, and now shocked at what will I do. There is no way as of today that I can fix this, he has nothing... I have nothing. So we talked and he paid for a tow truck, but it came three hours later. I was very calm, Can't tell you why but I never lost it. I was just sad, thinking now what? how will I do the new work that I just aquired yesterday?
Thank god he didn't hit anyone, or tear down the post and the roof. It was not the main building it was golf building.
The front right side, axel is broke, the engine I have no idea. the tire is gone so is the hood, the fender.
I went back inside after I signed a report, and finished the job. Raquel was upset with me as for why I was not upset, and how could I keep working??? But all I knew as this had to be done. And I will figure out how to get around again some how.
This is horrible really, but I can't explain it, I have no tears, nothing. I just am numb.
Now I have no car, when the tow truck came. Raquel was yelling in spanish at the two brothers, they were upset too... crying and screaming, I was standing with my arms folded just staring, really I was upset, but I at this point am so tired and exhausted, and my brain can not think how to comprehend spanish. I did not understand a word anyone was saying. I felt as if I was in a bubble and couldn't hear at all. NOT KIDDING... I then shook myself out it, talk to the tow driver, asked him to wait for 20 minutes while I cleaned up my room in the hotel, got my things and he could drive me home. I decided to put the car at the guys house.
NOT MINE, and the mother could look at it every day. They have to pay but I know that this may be the last of Tortuga, this is what i have called this car since day one.
Now if I had insurance, not a huge problem, but hey I have been so down now for so long its been inpossible to do anything. Let alone pay insurance... ok don't get appauled at this!! I am doing what can at this point to stay alive. Soooo now this is huge issue. Its now 3:00 am I can not sleep, I drank a beer from the hotel just now. And really, crazy as it may sound to some people, I believe something good is going to come from this too. This year has been pretty bad. But I hope that something Good comes from his bad situation.
As we pulled out with the car, the two guys were sitting in the car while we were in the cab of the tow. all of a sudden smoke starting pouring out of the hood of the car. It started on fire... we stopped and all jumped out of the tow. Raquel is now hysterical.. running. I got out stood by the side of the road and watched. They uhooked the battery and put the fire out and then we all got back into the vehicles and went to Jaco.
Its not a light situation, its serious for me.. but I have no freaked out additude...
What will I do? How will I explain this to people? I AM NOT GOING GIVE UP... untill I am in the ground. ( this is getting close)
I don't know what I am doing tomorrow to get the hotel to do some finishing touches and talk to the general manager. But I have to find a way and the hotel is, it is fabulous really, I thank god for the ideas I get. I am blessed with a talent that amazes me as well as it does other people.
Raquel is exhausted, she stated to me tonight, I only work four days with you, how have you done this for all these years? I cried then...
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Whewwwwwwwwwww I am so tired
We have been working till one am for three days now.
But I have to say it is lookng so GREAT!! these kids I have working are super good. One is only 17, Luis dark complected, curly hair beautiful eyes.HE IS CRAZY so much energy hard to control him. But when I can get him calm down he does pretty darn good. He is the only one that is out of control, and hard to handle sometimes. But he does funny things and he is very loving, always touching hugging, kissing everyone.
That is common here, people always kiss on the check when they greet or leave.
The hotel have been giving us food, drink and whatever we need even asprins for headaches. Its been a good experice. I know its opening a new door. The Los Suenos Marriots is a really first class operation. Yesterday after I finished the casino, the manager wanted to thank me. I made garlands of the playing cards, incorporated the cards in the tree, the wreath the garlands. He was impressed with the colors the style everything. He wanted to talk to me..
So I went, after they called me on the Radio, and he continued to tell me He thought I had great ideas. He asked me to help in the redu of the whole casino. Its a small Casino, not a giant place. But Hey I am thrilled. So next week I have an appointment with him to assist in a bid for the remodle of the place!!!
The negative thoughts of others, and the words that were said to me recently over my choice of being here, left me when I talk to him. I felt if anywhere in the world I would meet someone, who is successfull the possiblities here are bigger than where I use to live.
The hotel is filled with people, if you never heard of it or are interested in go to the The Los Suenos Marriotts Web site and take a peak.
Los Suenos is THE DREAMS... and you know what I DREAMED OF COMING HERE. I really did I had a dream about this country, didn't know exactly where it was and for one year I studied, read ,and prayed.
I sold things little by little, only one thing did not sell and was a problem. It was my deliver Van and I left it there. I know I should have taken care of that, but I was so Done by the time everything sold. That was a bad situation.
I lost the Van obviously.
I left a responsiblity behind, neglected to take care of it Bad, but the brain at that point couldn't take another thing there in the USA. I was borderline suicide.
I know I am imperfect, I know I have flaws, everyone does. I came here to get some peace in my head, and it has happened.
I had a friend come and visit me. She stayed two weeks, she lost weight, she lost her insomnia, that she had for many years.Plus my strenght and courage to adventure and do something different, encouraged her to push forward and change something about her also. So Maybe there is more to this than just my own sanity?
I will keep going on, and I will try untill I can not try any more.Tough as it has been, all you can do when you are at the bottom is go up.
HATE THE BOTTOM!!! well not all bottoms!!
But I have to say it is lookng so GREAT!! these kids I have working are super good. One is only 17, Luis dark complected, curly hair beautiful eyes.HE IS CRAZY so much energy hard to control him. But when I can get him calm down he does pretty darn good. He is the only one that is out of control, and hard to handle sometimes. But he does funny things and he is very loving, always touching hugging, kissing everyone.
That is common here, people always kiss on the check when they greet or leave.
The hotel have been giving us food, drink and whatever we need even asprins for headaches. Its been a good experice. I know its opening a new door. The Los Suenos Marriots is a really first class operation. Yesterday after I finished the casino, the manager wanted to thank me. I made garlands of the playing cards, incorporated the cards in the tree, the wreath the garlands. He was impressed with the colors the style everything. He wanted to talk to me..
So I went, after they called me on the Radio, and he continued to tell me He thought I had great ideas. He asked me to help in the redu of the whole casino. Its a small Casino, not a giant place. But Hey I am thrilled. So next week I have an appointment with him to assist in a bid for the remodle of the place!!!
The negative thoughts of others, and the words that were said to me recently over my choice of being here, left me when I talk to him. I felt if anywhere in the world I would meet someone, who is successfull the possiblities here are bigger than where I use to live.
The hotel is filled with people, if you never heard of it or are interested in go to the The Los Suenos Marriotts Web site and take a peak.
Los Suenos is THE DREAMS... and you know what I DREAMED OF COMING HERE. I really did I had a dream about this country, didn't know exactly where it was and for one year I studied, read ,and prayed.
I sold things little by little, only one thing did not sell and was a problem. It was my deliver Van and I left it there. I know I should have taken care of that, but I was so Done by the time everything sold. That was a bad situation.
I lost the Van obviously.
I left a responsiblity behind, neglected to take care of it Bad, but the brain at that point couldn't take another thing there in the USA. I was borderline suicide.
I know I am imperfect, I know I have flaws, everyone does. I came here to get some peace in my head, and it has happened.
I had a friend come and visit me. She stayed two weeks, she lost weight, she lost her insomnia, that she had for many years.Plus my strenght and courage to adventure and do something different, encouraged her to push forward and change something about her also. So Maybe there is more to this than just my own sanity?
I will keep going on, and I will try untill I can not try any more.Tough as it has been, all you can do when you are at the bottom is go up.
HATE THE BOTTOM!!! well not all bottoms!!
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